Going to do that y/n and Nat are enagaged. The mission goes badly and y/n spirals into depression again.

Y/n is a shield agent, little sister of Maria. However she met Nat and they fell in love. Y/n is like 21 and Nat is like 28....

Tw: bomb, gun, sh and depression

Steve's pov:

Y/n is on a mission with Bucky and I, there's a file with her on it at a hydra base. We want to collect it to find out why they want her back again. She got taken at the age of 17 and returned again at 20, Natasha and Wanda helped her rehabilitate back into society.

Maria told me she'll kill me if something happens on this mission and Nat also agreed. Y/n is nervous, I know this will be hard, I tried to tell her she could stay back on this one but she refused and stepped onto the quinjet.

- time skip to the mission-

Steve: "Y/N ON YOUR LEFT"

You: " hahaha very funny Steve"

And like that she's down, shot in the shoulder.

You: " I'm fine, come on let's get the file"

She gets up and runs towards the room where the file is supposed to be.

Steve: " y/n this place is going to blow, we need to get out"

You: " it's ok.... You go to the jet and I'll meet you there with the file"

Bucky: " that's not happening. You're in shock let's go"

You: " NO. THATS NOT HAPPENING. YOU CAN LEAVE BUT IM NOT"

We get to the file and just as we run outside the place blows, and the wave from the bomb throws us all across the ground. It all goes black.

Buckys pov:

You: " Steve.... Bucky.... Wake up come on wake-up please. I'm sorry.... Oh god I'm so sorry"

Bucky: "y/n?"

You: " I'm here I'm here... are you ok"

Bucky: " yeh.... Your not.... Oh doll you're bleeding a lot. Come on where's the jet."

You: " it's gone... the file the jet it's ashes. Steve's not waking up."

Bucky: " takes more than a bomb to kill a super soldier"

After about 15 minutes Steve finally woke up, y/n refused help until he woke up. She was going very pale.... And as soon as Steve woke up he was fine.

Steve: " y/n come on please let me put some pressure on the wound. You have a bullet wound on one shoulder and your leg is bleeding. Please"

She just stares off into the distance so Steve and I use our shirts to apply pressure and acts as a bandage.

Steve's suit has an emergency button for help and after another 30 minutes the backup quinjet was here to help us. Bruce, Tony and Wanda got off the plane and rushed to y/n with a stretcher.

Steve: " where's Nat?"

Wanda: " we haven't told her...."

Tony: " the last thing we need is one more person who is going to be crying and hyperventilating. I love Natasha but she's soft with y/n."

Bruce and Tony start stitching y/n up and u can hear her muffled screams as they didn't have any painkillers.

Tony: " I'm sorry sweetie. We are done now. Once we are back we will get you to medbay and pump you full of fluids etc"

You: " I don't want it"

Tony: " y/n.... You have lost alot of blood and..."

You: " I don't want it"

We let y/n fall asleep and once we get back to the compound we rush her to med bay so we can sedate her to get her pumped full of blood and fluids.

Wanda: " who is going to tell Nat and Maria"

Steve: " I will. I should've fought harder for her not to be there"

Tony: " what even happened"

Bucky: " it got too much, Steve will agree with me when I say that"

Steve: " she's not over it, she can try and convince every single one of you, it's all an act."

Steve's pov:

I was dreading telling Nat and Maria. Dreading.

Steve: " Nat, Maria...."

Nat: " everything ok. You look like you've seen a ghost"

Steve: " y/n got hurt on the mission, I tried to stop it but she wouldn't listen, she's in the med bay we had to sedate her after the state she was in. She was screaming at us, telling us not to help her. Tony and Bruce stitched her up on the way back"

Maria: " I thought the mission was you Bucky and y/n."

Steve: " well our jet blew up"

Nat: " shit."

Nat and Maria both get up and run towards med bay. They watch from behind the glass. Bruce is sitting in there with y/n, re doing some of the stitches because she was moving too much.

Maria's pov:

My baby sister. She looks so small and innocent. So wounded and battered. I knew she shouldn't have gone on that mission. I should've fought harder.

I look over to Nat who has tears streaming down her face. She's barely said two words. She just stares. Bruce gives us the heads up to go in.

Bruce: " she's going to wake up any minute now. She's probably going to be a bit groggy. The sedative was quite strong."

Nat: " she's ok though. No internal injuries."

Bruce: " she was shot in the shoulder and had a huge cut on her leg, down to the bone. She won't be able to walk properly for about a week or two. But we have fixed it and we did scans. She is perfectly fine other than that ok. We checked everything natasha"

Maria: " thank you Bruce"

Nat: " Maria."

Maria: " yes Nat"

Nat: " I was so scared."

Nat starts to cry into my arms.

Maria: " I know. I know. But she's ok now ok. She needs you to be strong"

- time skip-

Nats pov:

Bruce: " so we have set up your room y/n, you ready to go"

You: " yeh sure"

She grabs the crutches and starts to leave. I have Peter following behind in case she gets tired and needs a wheelchair.

You: " Nat."

Nat: " yes baby"

You: " why is Peter following with a wheelchair. I'm not dying. I just have a shitty leg"

Nat: " I'm sorry, I just thought..."

You: " no no baby. Don't apologise. You're cute."

We get to our room and she sits on the bed.

You: " I really want a shower but I'm not supposed to get my stitches wet. But I have dirt all over me"

Nat: " I can give you a body wash, get a bowl and water?"

You: " sounds very nice Tasha"

She calls me Tasha when she's sad. I knew she was over analysing the mission. I mean anyone would be. I start to gently wash her, I see her wince when I get to the bruises.

You: " it's all my fault. Steve and Bucky, I put them in danger. I was so focused on the end goal I didn't think about them. God I'm so stupid. They must think I'm an idiot"

Nat: " it's not your fault, it's a mission. You thought you could do it, they don't hate you. They are worried about you y/n. No one blames you. They just wish they never took you on that mission"

You: " are you all done?"

Nat: " almost baby"

We sit in silence as I wash her. Once I'm finished I help her change as her shoulder movement is still limited and then she gets under the covers and falls asleep facing away from me.

- time skip to a couple of weeks-

Wandas pov:

Nat had to go on a mission so I was on y/n watch. Something changed her on that mission. She barely leaves her room. Nat walks around terrified because she knows y/n is in a bad spot.

We have tried several therapists to talk to her but she sends them all away. She just isn't the same anymore. I was hoping today that because Natasha is coming home.

Wanda: " y/n can I come in"

You: " give me a second"

Wanda: " ok"

About 2 minutes passes so I go into the room and see her wincing as she puts her jumper on.

Wanda: " everything ok"

You: " yeh fine"

She sniffles and turns round with puffy eyes and gets her crutches. Her leg has taken longer to heal than we thought so she's still using them.

Wanda: " where you off too"

You: " fancy a nice breakfast."

Wanda: " can I join"

You: " of course witchy"

She gives me a smile. Today is already looking like a good day.

You: " eggs?"

Wanda: " sounds good"

- time skip-

You: " I'm hot. The cooking has got me sweaty."

Wanda: " take your jumper off"

You: " well duh"

She takes off her jumper and her arm is covered in fresh cuts. She realised then starts to freak out.

Wanda: " y/n, I'm not judging. Let me clean them for you. Please. It's ok. It's ok"

You: " please you can't tell anyone"

Wanda: " you know I can't promise you that"

She looks down and her hands. Tears rolling. I come over and start to clean them. She winces and cried until I bandage them up. As I finish the last bandage Natasha walks in and I give her a look. I go into her mind.

Mind talk....

Wanda: " it's ok. They aren't too deep. They are clean. I came to get her up this morning and she must have done them before I got in"

Nat: " it's ok wands. Thank you so much for helping her. "

Wanda: " she's going to be ok Nat. I promise. She needs time. She needs closure. She needs to say what happened. I'll leave in a minute. Give you some time alone"

End of mind talk :)

Your pov:

You: " natty..... I....."

Nat: " it's ok bubs. I'm here. It's going to be ok. You're going to be ok"

You: " I don't know if I will be natty. I can't get out of this loop of the mission. It is constantly replaying in my head. It's just every time I try to get up, there's like this wave that keeps washing over me and I get knocked back down again." (A/n- Wanda.....)

Nat: " would you like to talk about the mission baby."

You: " if you don't mind listening"

Nat: " of course not"

- y/n tells Nat everything-

Nat: " y/n. Trust me. Being back in an environment that caused you nothing but pain is hard for the mind. You went in with the same approach as any of us would have. Steve and Bucky have told you a million times they don't hate you because they love you so much. You don't have to forgive and forget to move on from this, because I know forgetting and forgiving yourself is easier said then done. But please bubs, this isn't the way out. You are worth so much and you are my everything please y/n. I know it's a struggle but fight for your life, because it's barely even started."

You: " you want to be 101 and sitting in our rocking chairs holding hands?"

Nat: " yes that, anywhere where I'll be with you. I love you so much"

You: " I love you too"

- 1 year later-

Nats pov:

After that day y/n started therapy, it's been a slow recovery but I wouldn't have had it any other way. She needed time, she needed space which I had to give her when she left for a couple of months to a mental health place. She came back and I saw my old y/n again.

Last week we even brought our own apartment. She has good and bad days but I'm here for it all. When she's having a bad day, I lay with her all day, she's never going to be alone. I give her the meds she needs everyday and if I'm not there it's Maria or Wanda.

I love this girl with my whole heart, and I know soon that I'm going to marry her.

A/n- this is so long help. Anyway.... I hope you enjoyed because it's taken me 3 days to write this....