Tossing, turning, too hot, too cold, couldn’t get comfortable, couldn’t stay comfortable. You just couldn’t sleep. You and Jane had stayed up for a while, she wanted to know all the details. How Severus asked you out, what you two did in his dorm, she wanted all the tea. You gladly told her everything and she questioned you over and over again asking you if anything really happened between you and Severus and you continued to tell her no, you just talked and made out. You both settled down for the night to get some sleep but you just couldn’t sleep, it was like something was keeping you awake. You had a bad feeling like something terrible was about to happen but you couldn’t think of anything that would give you a reason to worry.

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“Severus, dear, are you ready to go out and collect ingredients?” Madame Pomfrey asked, grabbing her basket.

“Yes. Let me grab my bag and we can head out. Where do you want to start?” Severus flung his bag over his shoulder and walked to the exit with Madame Pomfrey.

“I’ll start by the lake, you should start by the whomping willow. I need a lot of Moly to restock my store. After you finish you can go back to the castle, that’s all I need tonight other than the ingredients I’ll be getting from the lake.”

“Okay, I’ll put the Moly on your desk when I get back.” He informed her as they both exited the castle together then separated to go to their individual destinations.

Madame Pomfrey was out of sight in less than a second but Severus took his time getting to the whomping willow, he didn’t want to go back to his dorm so fast. He knew he wasn’t going to be able to get to sleep right away.

Severus started filling his bag with Moly and he filled a separate little bag for his own use.

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“Come on guys the moon is almost full we need to get to the shrieking shack.” Remus insisted, practically dragging the rest of them along so they would get there on time. “What took you guys so long anyway?”

“We got caught up talking.” Sirius lied. They had been talking about their plan and didn’t want Remus over hearing them.

“We must have lost track of time.” James added.

“Yeah.” Peter said, meekly.

“Alright well let's keep going. I don’t want to transition out here in the open. Who knows how bad things could get if that happened.” Remus quickened his pace to the shrieking shack. The rest followed him, James and Sirius giving each other knowing looks and Peter sighing in defeat.

“Wait, look.” James stopped everyone. He saw Severus picking plants outside of the whomping willow.

“Right on time.” Sirius whispered to James.

“Guys you gotta get rid of him. The moon is almost full, he could get hurt!” Remus pleaded with his friends.

“We’ll try.” Sirius smirked. The group walked towards him as he was on his knees collecting plants.

“Well, well what do we have here?” James called, getting Snapes attention.

“I could ask you the same question. I have permission to be here. I doubt you four can say the same.” Severus snapped, annoyed with their presence.

“Guys we have to go!” Remus insisted.

“Listen to your friend. There’s no use in you all getting in trouble for being out after curfew. Actually I don’t care what you do, just leave me out of it.” Severus rolled his eyes. Severus got to his feet. He was about to walk to the other side of the tree when Sirius stood in his way.

“Why don’t you wait a second, Snivy.”

“Yeah, stick around.” James added.

“Whatever your planning, take a moment to think what Y/N will think. Do you really want to risk losing her forever over this?” He snarled.

“You forget, Y/N is my sister. She can’t hate me forever. She can try and she can act like she does but we both know in reality she will get over it. It’ll take time, and believe me I’m willing to wait as long as it takes if it means I never have to see her with you ever again.” James pushed him backwards. Severus stepped back out of his reach so he couldn’t do it again.

“What is your problem! I gave up on Lily, she’s all yours why do you continue to harass me. I have done nothing to you, any of you! I just want to be left alone.” He shouted.

“You exist, that's enough reason. Your existence does nothing but ruin our day.” Sirius pushed him from the side.

“Guys that’s enough, leave him alone we don’t have time for this.” Remus insisted.

“Oh come on Remus, it’s just a bit of fun like we used to have.” Sirius chuckled.

“I’m serious, leave him alone! YN wouldn’t want this.”

“Lighten up pal.” James patted his shoulder.

“Guys, guys we gotta go!” Remus yelled when the moon reached full mass.

“Hold him.” James yelled, grabbing one of Severus’ arms Sirius grabbed the other one and Peter looked in horror as Remus started his transition.

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You heard yelling from outside the castle. You got up to look out the window. At first you didn’t see anything, then you looked up. The full moon was tonight. How could you not have realized, Remus had basically spelled it out for you and you were just to stupid to see it. It must be Remus out there starting his transition you thought to yourself. Then another thought hit you.

“Severus!” You gasped out loud, flipping the blankets off you and running out of the castle without thinking twice.

You knew they took Remus to the shrieking shack every full moon for his transition then you thought back to potions class when you saw Severus’ list. He had Moly on his list and Moly grew right next to the whomping willow where Remus would be. Fear and panic coursed through your veins at the thought of Severus being hurt.

You ran as fast as you could and when the whomping willow came into view you saw something that made your blood run cold. James and Sirius were holding Severus’ arms, Peter was staring in terror at them and Remus had almost finished his transition.

“Severus!” You yelled without thinking. James and Sirius turned and saw you standing there.

“AHWOOO!” You all turned back to Remus who was in full werewolf form. He stared right at James Sirius and Severus. When he charged at them James and Sirius let go of Snape and took a few steps back. Severus was frozen in fear.

“Severus. Severus!” You yelled as you ran towards him.

“Y/N, no!” James grabbed you mid-run and held you back. Remus swung at Severus, his claws ripping through the skin on left arm. He fell on his stomach and covered his neck and head with his hands.

“Let go. LET ME GO!” You screamed, pushing James to the ground. Sirius tried to grab you but he was too slow. You threw yourself in front of Severus on your knees holding your hands out to Remus, hoping you could appeal to his human side.

“Remus, Remus it’s me, stop please.” You cried. For a moment it felt like he recognized you unti Peter stepped on a stick making a loud noise. Howling again Remus pulled his arm back to swing again.

“NO!” Severus yelled, wrapping his arms around you and rolling over so you were under him. Remus’ claws dug into Severus’ back and tore his skin from his left shoulder blade down the center of his back. “AHH!” He yelled out in agony. You held onto his back trying to shield him as best as you could from your position below him. A couple of your fingers and the back of your right hand was sliced open by Remus’ razor sharp claws.

You heard barking. Glancing to the side you saw a dog standing there barking at Remus. Sirius bit Remus’ ankle and ran off, leading him away from you.

“Come on!” James picked up Snape and threw his arm over his shoulder, Peter grabbed the other arm and they carried him into the castle with you right behind them. Once you entered the castle you ran ahead of them into the hospital wing and started yelling for help.

“HELP! Madame Pomfrey!” You shouted, hysterically.

“What’s the matter? Oh Merlin.” She trailed off when she saw the boys carrying Severus behind you.

“Please help him.” You cried. “Please.”

“Set him on the bed.” She instructed, rushing forward to look at the damage. “Peter, go get my bag.” She started by removing his shirt. His pale skin was covered in blood, so much that she couldn’t tell where the blood was coming from at first. After examining him for a couple minutes she found the source of the blood.

“Turn him on his right side.” She instructed. You and Peter flipped him on his side.

“AH HA!” He let out a painful scream, making him tremble. Tears were falling from his eyes even though you could tell he was trying his hardest not to let them fall.

“Sh, sh it’s okay. I’m here, I’m here. You’re gonna be okay.” You cried, holding his hand against your lips.

“Y/N try to calm him. I need to clean the wounds.” Madame Pomfrey instructed, grabbing a rag and some liquid to sterilize the wounds. You sat on the bed beside him. He was facing you, his left shoulder up in the air and his back facing away from you. He shuttered in pain, his eyes screwed shut.

“I’m here Severus, try to focus on my hand.” You held his hand in yours and squeezed it gently, trying to distract him from the pain. Madame Pomfrey started to clean his wounds. He sat as still as possible but every couple seconds she would hit a cut that was deeper that would make him cry out in pain. You tried to be strong for him but you couldn’t help the tears that escaped your eyes. Seeing him like this hurt more than you could put into words.

Madame Pomfrey gave him a potion to numb his arm and back so she could stitch him up. He was sweating and shaking from the pain. You held him as still as possible so Madame Pomfrey could work as quickly as possible.

“I need you boys to hold him up. I need to wrap his arm against his side so he can’t move it and bust the stitches.” She instructed the boys. They held him up causing him to scream again while Madame Pomfrey wrapped his arm to his side, keeping it stationary. “This will help him heal faster. I can give him some more pain potion in a few hours until then he needs to sleep.”

“Can I stay with him? Please?” You pleaded with the older witch.

“Yes dear, I can pull a bed closer to his.”

“Thank you.” She pulled your bed closer to Severus’ then went back to her office to write this up in the incident reports. After she was gone you turned to your brother pushing twice until his back was against the wall.

“How could you do this? You promised, you promised me! Why couldn’t you just leave him alone? He hasn’t done anything to you!” You screamed in your brother's face.

“Y/N I’m just trying to protect you.”

“Shut up, SHUT UP!” You pushed him again. “I care about him, he makes me happy and you had to come here and ruin it. Why can’t you let us be happy? Me and his relationship is none of your business!” You pushed him again.

“Y/N.”

“You’re dead to me James Potter! I want nothing to do with you! You made a promise and you broke it! Obviously I wasn’t important enough for you to keep your word so now you lost me forever. I don’t want to talk to you, I don’t want to hear from you, I don’t want to look at you. I’m done James. You had your chance and you blew it. I hate bullies, I was bullied at my old school that’s why I begged our father to send me here. I won’t stand by and turn a blind eye to what you have been doing. You lost me… and the only person you can blame is yourself.”

“Y/N please.” He persisted.

“Get out James. I will be telling the headmaster what you did.”

“No, you can’t. Y/N Remus had nothing to do with this, he didn’t know what we were planning. If you tell the headmaster Remus could be expelled, brought in front of the ministry. Please, he had nothing to do with this.”

“This was your plan. You were willing to get Remus in trouble, expelled, put in jail. What is he gonna say when he finds out what you did to him? When Severus wakes up I’m going to talk to him about it and if he wants to tell the headmaster I won’t talk him out of it. This is up to Severus now, you better hope he’s more understanding than you have been. Now get. Out!” You pointed towards the door. Without saying a word he and Peter left the hospital wing and you sat on the chair next to Severus’ bed holding his hand.

“Sev. I promise I won’t leave you. I’ll be right here until you’re able to leave with me.” You hold his hand against your head. Madam Pomfrey’s potion had taken effect and he was out cold. After finishing her report she came out of her office to check on Severus.

“He’ll be okay dear. When he wakes up I’ll give him a healing potion and he should be back to normal in no time… What were you doing out of the castle?”

“I heard yelling from my dorm and when I looked outside I saw Severus so I went out to help him.” You lied. It wasn’t fully a lie but it wasn’t fully the truth.

“He’s lucky you and your brother found him. He could have been in real trouble.”

“Ha, James had nothing to do with helping him. Had I not been in danger myself he would have left Severus there.” You scoffed.

“Dear, your hand.” She reached and held your hand in hers, bringing it up to examine it. “Let me get my bag and fix you up. We don’t want that getting infected.” She stood and got her bag. “I’m going to numb your hand.”

“Okay.” After numbing you up She stitched the top of your hand and bandaged up your hands and fingers. She told you she couldn’t stitch your fingers since you're right handed and you would undoubtedly be using it a lot. The stitches wouldn’t stay and would be more likely to break. You kept looking at Severus’ sleeping form. He looked so peaceful compared to how he looked only a few minutes earlier.

“He will be okay Y/N. I promise.” She assured you.

“He didn’t deserve this, He’s been through enough in his life.” You commented, your eyes never leaving his sleeping form.

“I know. Get some sleep, I will be waking you both up early to another dose of pain potion and breakfast.” She helped settle you into bed which was right next to Severus’. It was so close that the two beds were almost touching. Reaching across with your good hand you held his right hand in yours and the potion Madam Pomfrey gave started to put you to sleep.

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“Y/N, Severus, it's time to wake up for your potions.” You heard a voice calling to you from your sleep. Opening your eyes you saw your hand was still in Severus’ and he was looking at you. He looked tired and dazed. It was obvious the pain had come back. Madam Pomfrey wasted no time giving you both the potion. Severus took it without hesitation, he must have been in a lot of pain. You observed the potion for a moment then took it, placing the vial on the tray next to Severus’.

After Madam Pomfrey left to take the vials back and tend to a couple other students who had come down during the next for different reasons you and averted your attention back to Severus. His eyes were fluttering open and closed, he must still be exhausted as his body tried to heal. You returned your hand to his and gave it a comforting squeeze but he pulled back. Afraid you may have hurted him, you stood and sat next to him at his bedside.

“Sev, please say something.” You begged, wanting to hear his voice, a sarcastic comment, anything at this point to let you know he was okay. “I’ve been worried about you all night, I never left your side, I couldn’t. I wish I could make it better.”

“Did you know?”

“Wha-what?” You were thrown by the question.

“Did you know about Lupin?” He asks, clarifying what he meant.

“Yes, I know what he is, I have since before I came to Hogwarts.” You told him, not really understanding where he was going with this.

“You knew what they were going to do last night.” He accused.

“Of course I didn’t! Do you honestly believe that had I known I would have let them do it? Severus, do you hear yourself? I would never let anyone hurt you and you should know that!”

“So you expect me to believe that you knew what Lupin was all along then I catch you all over him in the library, him kissing your cheek and looking at you like he wanted nothing more than to take you to bed. Not only did you know last night was the full moon but you knew I would be out there! You knew exactly where I would be and you told them didn’t you! You waited to intervene until the moment when you knew you wouldn’t be able to stop it. This was all a prank. Did you ever stop to think maybe it’s gone a little too far?”

“Severus, this was not a prank! Yes I know about Remus but has nothing to do with what happened. I didn’t even know there was a full moon last night. I don’t keep track of that, Remus and the boys do. Why would I want you to get hurt? After everything we’ve done, and been through. If this was a stupid prank why would I have gone up to your dorm with you and madeout with you? Why would I spend so much time with you? Why would I have rushed out there putting myself in danger when I could have let my brother and his friend finish the job!” You shouted, standing fast.

“It all seems a little coincidental don’t you think. Yesterday's sequence of events… First we fight, then I find you snogging with Lupin. You know I bet you’ve been to his dorm, afterall you're in the same house. Tell me is the rest of his body as scared as his face. I bet you’ve done more than just makeout with him haven’t you? Tell me were you going to shag him before coming to meet me for lunch? Before making up with me by coming to my dorm and letting me get handsy with you too. For a virgin you seem to get around.” He was seeing red. He had no clue what was coming out of his mouth. All he knew was that he wanted you to hurt like he did.

“Oh and let’s not forget that after I take you to your common room your brother and Sirius just so happen to be there. They also just so happen to know exactly where I would be and at what time I would be there. Just how foolish do you think I am Potter!” He spat.

“I can’t believe you’re accusing me of this. I fought for you, I stood up for you. I just told my brother that I want nothing to do with him or his friends because he broke his promise by hurting you. I basically ended my relationship with my brother for you! And now you're going to lay there and accuse me of being part of whatever plot or scheme they came up with to hurt you? Are you fucking kidding! You know what Snape you believe whatever you want, but don’t come crawling back to me when you find out you’re wrong because it’s going to take a pretty big apology for me to forgive you after this. We’re done. I don’t talk to me unless it's about class, don’t look at me and certainly do not think about me. Because you don’t deserve it!” You exploded, leaving the hospital wing all together.

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