Three weeks!

Three fucking weeks , of sleeping in this chair . Crying next to Cass . Praying that she is okay , that our child is okay .

The doctors confirmed that the baby is okay the same day we entered .

"Mr Bernett, I have good news and bad news ." The doctor had said .

I thought it'd be better to hear the bad news first then have the good news so soothe the bad . But I was not prepared at all for any of those .

What if I'd lost my child? What if I'd lost Cass . I am ready to loose any of those two . Not at all .

"Bad news first." I replied.

"Your wife is not stable , she did not respond to anything we tried . She has been in a coma since she was strangled and lost consciousness.

We are trying all that we can Mr Bernett but we dont see a light at the end of the tunnel .

She is still breathing , which is a good response for now . But if at any point she stops then there's nothing we can do to help her. " she had said .

I felt my heart sink into my chest . I can not imagine my life without her . They have to try something , everything.

"Good news?" I asked , my voice extremely hoarse .

"The baby is okay. You have quite the fighter right there. Because your wife is still breathing, we are able to track the baby's growth and maintain it.

The experiment we attempted a week ago was a success and we were able to feed the baby through inserting tubes down your wifes throat that go right into her stomach .

Your baby will be okay , but he depends on your wife to keep breathing and fighting ." She had said .

There was a piece of me that was relieved but the bigger piece was angry , hurt , disappointed and frustrating.

There can only be one Cass . We can fuck and make as many babies we want but there can only be one Cass.

She keeps me updates everyday with how well they are doing . The baby is doing well and growing too , and should Cass - you know what - within two or three weeks , we will be able to detach the baby prematurely and keep it on life support.

It's not the best idea , but if I can't have them both , and if I cant have Cass , I know she'd love for me to have our child and raise him.

On my side , I dont want to detach anything or anyone . I'd like both my loved ones alive and kicking . And I leave all that responsibility to God.

Mrs Miller comes over everyday , she and Beth have been staying at our apartment . She visits every segment of the visiting hours.

She bring me food and changing clothes . And I honestly appreciate it .

We hold hands at night and pray before they leave and she prays in the morning when she thinks that I'm still asleep .

Cassiey has to wake up . I have nowhere else to go , she is my home .

If it was not for her , I'd not have a job . I'd not have a shelter over my head . I'd not have anything to eat.

And yet how do I repay her? Two crazy bitches go after her and beat her up. And while she's fighting for her life , I'm thinking about myself , about how I have nowhere else to go. How selfish Ace!

All of this is happening because of me. I dont deserve Cass . I've always known this , I have no idea why I still stuck around . And hurt her.

I couldn't even protect her . I didnt even get there in time .

I hold her warm hand .

"I'm sorry Cass , so so sorry . This is all my fault , I could've gotten there in time . I could've saved you.

I've failed you , I've failed the both of you. Please , just come back to life baby. If it helps I'll leave , I'll stop putting you in danger just please. Come back.

For our child , for your mom . Please . Please." I cry in her arm .

I dont know when I fell asleep , but I hear whispering coming from the room . I keep my body still as I listen in closely.

"He's been here for three weeks , going for four now." A woman says .

"Has he at least eaten something?" Jason's voice says .

"His mother-in-law brings him food everyday . Sometimes he eats but sometimes he doesnt ." She replies.

Jason sighs .

"Thank you . Please just do all you can to make sure that he eats . He needs the energy .

The last thing we want is for Cassiey to wake up and find him weak ." He says . Then the door opens and closes .

My body is lightly shaken .

"Ace , wake up ." Jason says .

I look up at him and the shock on his face is prominent .

Jason comes here twice every week . I understand being that he has a company to run, and since he's also holding the fort up for Cass .

"Jason." I greet . This is the third time he comes this week .

"What's up man." He asks , eyeing the plate of food behind me . I look up and him to catch his attention.

"Nothing . Just my wife dying." I reply.

"Dont talk like that, she's going to be okay ." He says , patting my shoulder .

I know that Jason and I aren't necessarily friends or anything but his support has been more than he had to offer. He didnt have to be here for me as much as he is .

"Thanks man . I just really hope you have no hidden agenda , like trying to get to Cass . Because I dont give a flying fuck if you helped me , I am going to hurt you brutally." I say to him , my voice still sounds hoarse but it sounds scary.

He smiles and nods.

"As hard as it is to believe , I do care about Cassandra . I dont deserve her , yes I agree but my time with Cassiey has passed . You're a good guy , and she wants to be with you , that is what happiness is in my world .

I am going to support you guys and help you out whenever you need me . And when yall want me to fuck off , that's exactly what I'm going to do .

Yes , I'm desperate for forgiveness. I caused everything Cassandra is going through.

Had I not cheated on her , Kayla would have never been in our lives at all , she wouldnt have went to jail and none of this would have been happening .

But at the same time, good came from my cheating . She met you and now she is just moments away from her happily ever after . I'd never stand in the way of that.

I know that maybe she has turned me into a monster . Actually , I turned myself into a monster but really it's just greed . Before I had money and a company I'd always been a great guy .

I'm really sorry Ace . And I hope that Kayla and the other women rot in jail." He says to me .

"Good for you Jason . Good for you." I say .

He nods and we goes to get me food . Not going to eat it but I appreciate it . I dont like this , I dont want to be close to Jason . But so far he's been really good to me.

After he leaves , this leaves me alone with Cass. She looks so peaceful yet it all looks so wrong.

She has tubes going into her mouth and arm , I think the one on the arm is called a drip or something.

I hold onto her hand . Feeling it makes me jolly, it reminds me to hold on and to not give up.

I put my hear on her belly , and the baby moves towards my ear .

"I love you little guy." I say to the baby. I hope he can hear me , but the doctor says he's turning six months , which means he has fully developed ears and lungs and focuses on sounds he hears.

I really wish that Cass would be experiencing all of this with me . Learning more about the baby with me.

I look at her face . Please Cass , open your eyes baby , say something. Please.

Tears burn my eyes as they fall onto my cheeks . My chest feels as though it had been run over with a tractor.

I clutch my heart , the only thing that could make me feel better is here . Its hearing her say that it will be okay .

"Dont worry about it baby , I got this." She says smiling .

"You know I got you honey." She says , raising her hand asking me for a high five .

"Got your back Bernett . Count on me ." She says shining her pearly whites at me .

Cass , please say something , please baby.