i wake up to my name being curiously called, obnoxiously, but he still calls me, Aidan and Nathan are waking up to it too, i sit up and drag my hands down my face, "Raden?" he calls again when i hear the door being opened, i snap up and push him out, shutting the door behind me, "Geeze, Raden, what you hiding in there?" he chuckles and the door opens again as the twins walk out, standing beside me, "aw, god, you guys weren't fucking were you!" he shivers, "I knew you were gay, but i didn't think you were this gay!" he says, cringing and i glare.

"why, is there a problem?" i ask, crossing my arms with an expecting look and he streightens slightly.

"no....." he answers before looking into the room, "what's in the room?" he asks curiously and i growl at him.

"nothing for you and we weren't fucking, but you can do the honors of fucking off if you want?" i ask with an attitude i only use for this prick.

"ugh, i've done that enough times, seriously, the amount of pups i've fallen out of!" he laughs and i walk past him when he grabs my collar pulling me back, earning growls from Aidan and Nathan, "what you two going to do?" he asks, squaring up to them both.

"Derak, stop it-" he growls at me.

"what, you think i'm weak, i'll prove i'm not!" he snaps and i take in a sharp breath.

"noo-" i say through gritted teeth, sick at myself for what i'm about to say, "I don't want Aidan and Nathan to get very badly beaten up by my really strong and really cool older brother!" i growl deep in my throat, sarcasm slipping through.

he looks down at me with a suprised look, "Oh, why thank you, lil bro, didn't think you still thought of me like that after so many years!" he says lightly and i bare my teeth at him, he bares his back, seeing that his tooth is chipped.

i laugh, "who chipped your tooth this time?" i laugh, knowing i've chipped his tooth a few times.

he growls, "some fucking gargoyal, hit me with a punch to the face!" he says, moving his jaw, "you need to stop hitting me with glass bottles too, you know!" he warns and i growl at him back.

"if you weren't such a drunken prick i wouldn't need to!" i snap at him and he pushes me back.

"I can drink as much as i want, your just a weak little teenager!" he says, stepping up to me and i look up at him growling.

"at least i'm living my life sobor, while you drink your nights away!" i spit back, anger flooding through me.

"oh, well we all know your all perfect, taking after dad with his perfect little ways, while i take after mum, isn't it, your a spoilt little brat, you always have been, i bet even dad thinks your a spoilt bra-" i punch him around the face, him falling back slightly at the impact, he looks at me and growls, "what, did i hit a soft spot?" he laughs, "dad doesn't like you, he doesn't care about you-" he walks up to me, i feel my heart crumbling to pieces as i step back as he growls after me, "no wonder mum was an alcoholic, having to deal with you, your just a pathetic little, baby fox!" he growls as i feel tears running down me, he seems to hit every fucking spot when he's trying to get me like this, "what, you gonna cry again?" he says and i glare.

"your going to far-" i whisper to him and he scoffs.

"grow some fucking balls, you weak son of a bitch, your crying because you know it's true, he probably wanted to get taken by those scientists just to get away from yo-" i launch myself at him and he throws his set of punches while we both fall to the ground fighting roughly.

i feel a pair of arms wrap around me as i am pulled away, only for Aidan to take my place, punching him once in the gut, another in the jaw as Derak rolls in pain, "ah, fuck!" he says and i wipe my tears, standing up as he does to, he looks at me and i glare at him, "fuck sake!" he says as we shake hands.

"wait, wha-" Aidan goes to say but we are all cut off by a series of babies crying from the room, i look to Derak and his eyes widen.

"are those yours?!" he asks in disbelief and goes to walk past me, but i push him back, he looks down at me and growls, "i wanna see them, i'm there uncle, i'm alow-"

"I sware to god, do not pull that card!" i say, poking his chest, he glares.

he sighs as i feel the twins walk into the room to leave me with this mess... his glare smoothens out as he looks at me, "i missed you!" he says and i let out a breath of pain, "i don't know why i'm like this-" he murmers, "i just want to get dad back!" he says, looking down as he sits on the ground, "you know, the main reason i haven't been there was because i was looking for him-" my jaw drops in surprise, "i may be a fucking drunk like mum, but i followed him, i followed his scent until i lost it, it's like it just stopped, hit a brick wall!" he whimpers and i sit down next to him, "i'll stop drinking.... i'll try to stop drinking!" he corrects and i sigh.

"i'll stop hitting you over the head with glass bottles when your drunk!" i say casually and he holds his arm over my shoulders, "so... what's with the guard dogs?" he asks, breathing a laugh and i growl.

"there my mates!" i say and he turns and looks down at me.

"there your mates?!" he asks shocked.

"yep, futur Alpha twins of this pack!" i sigh thinking about them.

"they got you whipped!" he laughs and budges me to the side.

"shut up!" i laugh lightly along, moving back to sit beside him.

we look streight at the door in front of us, "so, how many?" he asks and i smile.

"nine!" he caughs at my answer.

"How bad does it hurt, please tell me, i need to know!" he laughs lightly and i sigh.

"i could barely walk for a week!" i say and he laughs harder, propper obnoxious laughing, "Stop it, it's not funny, it really does hurt-" i smile, pushing him over while he laughs, he calms down and sits back up, looking at me, "i love em so much-" i laugh, "i was freaking out like mad when i had to go to school away from them, i kept running into the twins' classes freaking out over something that might have gone slightly wrong!" i laugh and he sighs.

"nah, i remember how dad never left your side when you were a baby!" he says and i look down, "i just got jealous, i got really jealous over the attention he gave you, and then i just kept screwing up, i'm the disapointment!" he shrugs and i nudge him.

"no your not, i know how it feels to have kids, all i want to do is hold them all day, i don't care what they might do in the futur, they are my pups and i will always love them and they couldn't do anything to make me disapointed in them, i might get mad, but never disapointed!" i say distantly, my family running over my head.

"damn, why do you keep getting emotional?!" he asks with a breath like he's trying to hold himself together.

i laugh lightly, "you have no idea what emotional is until you have cubs!" i laugh and he laughs along, "i cried so much-" he laughs harder, "no, seriously, i was a little bitch-" i laugh hard, "i don't know how people coped with me, i really don't!" i say and he looks to me.

"me and mum wasn't allowed into your room for two months when you were born, your a lot like dad in that way, your very protective!" he smiles and pulls me closer to him, i lay my head on his chest, "you were always so short!" he laughs and i pout.

"you should have seen my fox, it's tiny-" i say and he looks to me.

"you got to shift into your fox?!" he asks and i look to him, i nod and he seems to crumble a bit.

"it's different here, here it's good to shift into your animal form, aparently werewolves get ill if they don't do it, and i did too, i passed out in the middle of--....spending time in the park with the twins!" i cover my tracks and he laughs.

"cock blocked you all did it?" he laughs and i shake my head.

"we were in the park, but they were taking me to the car when i passed out!" I say and he laughs.

"well, it's not as bad as me, i was having sex when i passed out, i have passed out so many times over it so your quite lucky there!" he laughs, i smile..

"i like this!" i say and he sighs. i stand up and hold my hand down to him.

"what-" he says nervously as i pull him up.

"come on!" i say and walk through the door. i step in and look to see Aidan and Nathan sat on the floor by the wall next to the door, looking innocent.... nosey, horney, kinky wolves. i roll my eyes and turn to Derak as he seems to be struggling to keep himself together, "Derak?" i ask and he walks to the radiator and just sits down.

"fuck, this is good!" he says as he curls up to it, i laugh, "your good, Raden, your good!" he smiles and leans into it.

"are you going to sit there or do you wanna hold a pup?" i ask and he looks up to me, and then the radiator.

"no, i'm fine here!" he says and i laugh, walking over to him i pull him up which he grumbles and pulls me down, i yelp, earning a few little shouts from the pups, he pulls me to the radiator and i let out a hum.

"so warm!" i say as the heat coats us both in a blanket.

"told you!" he says and Aidan and Nathan laugh, he looks to them both and sighs loudly, "Fine!" he says, pushing me roughly off of him, i lay flat on my back as he steps over me, putting his foot on my chest.

"Get off, you rotton fox!" i grumble and he laughs, stepping over me, i grab his foot, tripping him up as he face plants the floor, "serves you right!" i grumble and walk over to the cot, i pick up Carlos and pass him over, he looks down at him, "this is Carlos!" i say and he smiles.

"how old are they?" he asks and i smile.

"one in... a month!" Nathan says and Derak laughs.

"oh, i wish i was there to see what you was like when you were prego!" he laughs and i scowl, theres a ping and he pulls out his phone, typing a few buttons before swiping down, "oh, shit-" he laughs, "your brithdays next week!" i go insanely pale, "aww, what's wrong, you scared!" he laughs and i scowl at him.

"no, not scared at all, in fact i can't play!" i say, sticking my nose up.

"oh, and why's that?" he scoffs.

"because i have nine pups i need to look after, and i haven't played since the last time you were there, i don't celebrate my birthday!" i say, crossing my arms....