i wake up to a beeping, but i have no energy to turn it off as i am laid on my side. i open my eyes to find Aidan with his head on the bed in front of me and Nathan with his head resting on Aidans back....i'm home.

i begin to cry of pure relief, when they both wake up, i don't care what casts or pain i'm in, i throw my arms around the and they hold me, both sobbing, "it;s okay, it's okay!" he coos as Nathan holds me too.

"your home, your safe!" Nathan adds and i just cry while they hold me close.

"i-" i go to say something but i just cry some more, "I-du-fa-wusi-muh-" they shush my attempts to speak as everything down below hurts... everything...is it out?, "Is it out? please tell me it's out!" i cry and they both begin to cry harder.

"it's out, it's okay!" Aidan cries into my shoulder and i cry harder.

"it hurts, it all-" i sob, "it all hurts!" i cry and they hold me tighter, the fact that their body temperatures aren't calming me down is something to panic about alone, i'm so cold tho....why aren't i absorbing their heat? i pull away and look down at the bandages all around my bottom half, my chest is bandaged too, i go to lay back but i cry some more when it hurts, i grab onto Nathans shoulder to steady myself as they both now have red eyes.

the door opens and i see Jack, "hay, Raden, everything's okay!" he says and i sit up more and just throw my arms around him, missing him so much, through everything i've been through, he was the only doctor i ever trusted and i know, he will never be anything like that, i can always trust him, "oh Red!" he says softly, i pull away, using him to hold myself up on my knees, regardless of how weak i am.

"i can't get down!" i sob and he smiles, they help me back down and i just lay there, "how bad was it!" i cry and he sighs.

"not as bad as it would have been if they got there any later!" he says and i sob....

"wait-" i say, "where's my-" i cry, and i cry hard, "where's my dad?!" i cry and this all seems to hit a soft spot as even Jack tears up.

"i'll go get him!" he says, rushing out.

moments later my dad comes in, when i see him i cry out loud, i try to get up, i do, but then i nearly fall.... he catches me, he caught me before i fell... my dads alive and he catches me when i fell... like he always did, he cries into my shoulder, "i know, i know son, i know!" he cries and i hold on tight to him.

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we hold there as Derak comes in, he rubs his hand up and down my back while Aidan and Nathan come in to join the group hug, all holding me softly to stop any further damage. "are you all okay?" i cry, i sit up and turn to Aidan, pulling on his clothes to try and get to his shoulder.

"your unbelivable!" he says and grabs my hand, "i'm all healed up, my love!" he says and i sob, holding onto him, i turn and pull Nathan and my dad and Derak, trying to hug them all.

"I can't hug you all!" i wine as i feel myself falling back, but my family is here and they pull me back, "i love you all!" i cry and they bring me back to the hug before laying me back down.

"get some rest!" my dad says, "you need to get rest!" he says as he places a blanket over me, he goes to walk out but i cry out to him.

"don't leave, please don't leave me!" i cry out and he sobs, coming back to me and sitting down on a chair next to me while Aidan and Nathan lay on either side of me, holding me carefully.

"i'm right here, son, and i'm never leaving!" he whispers as he holds my hand and i fall to sleep.