"okay, so i'm going to ask about what happened there and i need to you go very slowly okay?" she asks and i take a deep breath, "that's good, remember to breath and stop if you feel you need to!" she says softly, "so, how long do you think you were there for?" she asks with a voice so soft it's soothing no matter what the question.

i look down at my hands, both of my mates hand wraped around mine, "um-" i think about it, waking up, passing out, waking up in the lab, passing out, in the lab again, "um, it's kind of difficult to say, i passed out a lot and they never told me anything, only, 'your finally awake'!" i say feeling slightly frustrated by the rush.

she sighs and nods, "okay, so, did they feed you at all?" she asks and i shiver, looking down.

"yes!" i simply say and my breathing picks up lightly, to which i deepen the breathing, controlling it slowly.

"and what did they feed you?" she asks and i tense.

"g-gamon!" i say with a shakey breath, "it wasn't nice!" i shiver and she looks up.

"do you want to tell me about it?" she asks and i take a deep breath.

"i-" i breath again, taking a moment, "i only remember being fed once between passing out, but they broght in a really large chunk of raw gamon, i don't know if it was good to eat, it didn't taste good, i didn't want to eat it because it didn't smell good either, bit he forced me to shift and forced me to eat every bit of it, regardless of the fact it was more then i could actually keep down-" i shiver at the memory, "he kept-" i swollow the lump, "he-he kept screaming at me to hurry up, and when i did he made me shift back and the first thing i did after shifting back was throwing it all back up!" i shiver, feeling sick just thinking about it.

she nods, writing some things down on the pad, "alright-" she says softly when Jack stands up, walking over and handing Nathan a bottle of water, to which he passes to me... smart choice, i don't think i have to courage or guts to take anything from any body but my mates, "sip the water for me!" she says softly and i do, i sip the water slowly, the bottle shaking in my hands. i put it down and shut it, "okay, what else did they do to you?" she asks and i begin to panic a bit thinking about it....

"they-" i say shakily, shutting my eyes tight as tears stream down, "they- they kept wanting-wanting samples of me, blood and-and-" the twins growl as i wave over my dick and honestly, it calms me knowing they are here to protect me and there possessivness makes me feel wanted, she nods, understanding.

"and where did they keep you? can you describe it?" she asks and i sniffle.

"um... a very white room, with a really thin, uncomfortable bed and a concerete floor!" i say simply, "one wall was just like... bars-" i say, narrowing my eyes, "like a cell, a cage and the door-" my head twitches as i hear the clanging, "it-it was very loud, it clanged everytime it was even moved!" i say and take another sip of the water to help calm my nerves, "and then there was-the-the-" my breathing picks up as the fear of the fucking place scares me more then anything.

"it's okay, remember your safe and your home now!" she says, worry is the tention in the room.

i take a deep breath, "the lab place!" i say, tears rushing down my face as i begin to shake wildly as i put my hands over my face.

"it's okay, baby!" Nathan says as they both sit up to hold me closer.

"we got you, my love!" Aidan adds as i calm down into their shoulders as i'm sandwiched, comfortably between them.

i take a deep breath and collect myself, taking a drink of water before she asks her next question, "and what happened in the lab?" she asks and i freeze.

"you know what happened!" i say in a tone that scares even me, the lack of emotion, the fear burried deep in the core of the tone, the seriousness of the tone.

"yes, but i don't know it from your point of view, and when you talk about it, it can make it easier to heal and help you heal properly too!" she explains and i breath in my mates' scents.

"there was.." i swollow a lump of fear in my throat, finding this difficult, "there was this other guy- the first guys brother-" i shiver remembering him, "he-he got-he got-" i breath heavier at the memory as my body shakes with fear and panic, "he got these heavy balls and-and he put-" i begin to feel light headed.

"take your time, Raden, you are safe!" she repeats and i just cried.

"he forced them into- meuaah-" it an obvious substitution of the word i should have used, and makes it easier for me to say, "and then made me shit it out agian!" i say, it's easier since i did the weird meuaah thing, "then he got... i don't know what they were and he wanted to see how- how wide my meuaaah could stretch!" i whimper at the memory, crying into Aidans shoulder as they both hold me tighter, "they then messed around with the nerve thingy and i passed out from the pain, but when i woke up he wanted to- test it and i couldn't help it......" i cry hard into their shoulder, "He said something like my mates are going to hate him when they realise i'm only going to last half an hour in bed!" i cry some more and they just hold me, not seeming to care as much about not lasting long, "then he shoved another one of those bricks in my ass and i couldn't-" i cry louder into their shoulders, "he laughed, it hurt, it hurt-" i cry some more as they give me the time, the pain still there, reminding me, "he turned me over and forced me to sit on it, which hurt more then anything before he-" how do i explain this, "because he knew i had pups and how i gave birth he wanted to see- how far- how far i stretched!" i say, feeling sick, "but then there were crashes and he dropped the remote to the thingy and ran away, leaving me as the thing continued to stretch, i was so thankful beta had the guts to get it out, it hurt so bad!" i whimper, crying into their shoulders.

they all stay silent for a long moment, giving me the chance to collect myself, i'm home, i'm home, i'm home, i keep repeating in my head, reasuring myself of that fact, "well, you did really well there!" she says, "was there anything else?" she asks and i sob.

"no, other then they dragged me around by this- this chain leash that really hurt to be pulled roughly by and chained my arms down so i couldn't move!" i say shivering and she nods as i sob, sniffling into my mates shoulder.

"and how did you feel when you got out?" she asks and i sigh.

"i was so happy, when i saw Nathan and Aidan's wolves i couldn't help but cry harder, i've never wanted to see anyone as much as i wanted, needed to see them at that moment!" i cry, "your beta's insane by the way!" i breath a laugh and so do the twins.

"yeah, we know!" they both say and i breath another laugh.

i sniffle and continue, "when...when they carried me out, i remember seeing my brother there and-and i can't describe how it felt to see him there-" i cry louder, "i had no strength, so he held my hand up for me and i passed out!" i sob, feeling so greatful and happy they were all there.

"and when you got home?" she asks.

i smile, "when i woke up, i woke up here, when i saw Aidan and Nathan sleeping i couldn't help but cry, i was so relieved to be home-"i sob, "i hugged Jack, and before i went there i trusted him less than anyone with him being a doctor and the only one who stuck any needles, he has had to put up with so much shit with being my doctor, and i'm pretty sure if anyone else even tries to take his place, i'll give them twice as much shit until i get to have him back!" i say strictly and he puts his hands up in the air in surrender.

"yes captain!" he solutes and i breath a laugh.

"i was in so much pain, the pain meds didn't do enough, i couldn't bend, couldn't lay on my back or my front, so when i jumped up to hug the twins or Jack it was difficult to get back and i had to rely so much on everyone else and i am so greatful!" i say, sobbing.

"and what about your dad?" she asks and i sigh loudly.

"i have never felt a happiness like that-" i begin to cry some more, "i thought he was dead-" i cry into their shoulders, "and when i got up to go to him i fell, he was dead for so long and the first thing he does is catch me when i fall!" i cry and the twins hold me tighter, "i couldn't let him go out of the room after that, i'll never give up on him like i did!" i sob, that's what i did, i gave up on my dad, i thought he was dead, i believed he was dead because it was easier to do that then get my hopes up on him coming back, "they gave him back!" i croak out and they all sigh.

"okay, take a deep breath for me!" she says and Aidan and Nathan pull away slowly and i take a deep breath, "take in all of the good vibes from this room, the love that is obviously surrounding you, picture taking it all in with the breath!" i slowly breath in until i can't no more, "and then when you breath out, imagine all the bad vibes, all the pain and sorrow leaving with it!" i breath out and she smiles and i sware..... i didn't think that would work at all, but i feel so much lighter, "and now how do you feel?" she asks and i sigh.

"lighter!" i say simply and she nods.

"well, you did very well!" she says standing up and i sniffle, "so, i'll be back next week if that's okay to talk about anything if you want and we'll see from there!" she smiles, "it was nice meeting you Raden, you did amazingly well with all of this and you are an amazing person to say the least, i wish you and your family and friends well, your mum has my number if you need anything, okay?!" she says and i nod, "see you next week!" she says and just like that she leaves.