we jump when we hear a knocking on the window we are laid up against. i tap Nathan and he slowly sits up, when he does i stretch out all of my limbs when theres another knock. i look up and see all four four of our parents......FOUR, i sit up quickly, hitting my head on the ceiling making both of my mates jump, i move roughly past Nathan and open the door, oposite to the one my mothers at as i move away from her, i hold my hand up to her to stop when she moves round.

"please, baby, please, i'm sorry, i'm so sorry, i was drunk, i've been working on cutting back, i've moved away from the alcohol and drugs-" she freezes as my jaw drops.

"DRUGS!" i shout, anger spiking up, Aidan and Nathan stand with me, both of them, sightly further in front of me, ready to protect me, "you were taking drugs too?" i snap, she flinches, "you came into my mates home and tried to beat me-" i spit, taking an angry step forward, "You kicked me in the fucking stomach while i was PREGNANT!" I scream at her and she wraps her arms around herself, while my dad looks angry.

"WHAT!?" he screams and i stop, stepping away as the anger shreads through me, "you what?!" he gasps, she looks at him.

"i'm sorry!" she cries as i continue to step back, she attacked me, she could have hurt my fucking pups, Aidan and Nathan turn around to look at me.

"Raden!" they try to calm me down but everything she has done, everything she has thrown at me, blamed my for, "your not healed enough to shift!" Nathan whispers as i feel my body begin to break in anger.

"Raden, no, your better then this, your better then her!" Aidan adds but i continue to shift and when i do i stand up and launch at her, ignoring the pain the shift caused me, i jump through the air and a pair of arms catches me in mid air, i wriggle around quickly as i am held to my dads chest, he holds my head to his heart and i hear the speed, the beat, the whole heart now that his family is back, it may be cracked......i'm sorry dad. i go limp in his arms as i hear his heart beat calm down, he'd always do this if i ever cried as a child, he held me to his chest and i'd just lay in his arms, listening to his heart beat as it sent me to sleep.

"there's a good boy!" he coos and my breathing calms down, he holds me closer to him, giving me a slightly tighter hug, "i missed this, Derak never needed this!" he says softly, his voice soft and quiet, respecting my ears.

"Raden, i know i didn't deal with this properly, hunny, but i am truly sorry!" she whispers, also respecting my ears, i know she lost her partner, but she pushed away her children too, "i'm not asking for your forgivness, what i did was unforgivable, but i am asking for you to give me a chance, your still my baby boy!" she says quietly.

she's fighting a good argument, she is my mother...but for so long i have been scared of doing the littlest things wrong because of her, "if it means anything-" both my mum and dad growl at mum for the sound.

"very sensetive!" my dad wisper yells, covering one of my ears while mum grabs the other, i growl and wriggle out of their holds, "well i'm sorry but last time i saw you in fox form we weren't allowed to talk properly over hurting your ears!" he whisper yells again and i bite his hand playfully, he holds his hand out causing me to dangle from his hand, he laughs and i bite harder each second i loose strength to hold on, i hear the twins growl.

"what are yo-"

"strengthening his teeth, also known as playing!" he answers and he grabs me when my hold gets so tough it's close to penetrating his skin, "huh, your weaker then you used to be!" he says looking down at me, i growl as he begins to look over me, i wriggle out of his hold and he glares, "if theres something wrong i need to know!" he calls running towards me as i run away, Nathan and Aidan laugh, i growl at them when i jump up into Aidan's arms, knowing he'll protect me, but then he just smiles, "i need to look you over!" he says very possessivly....oh my god, i'm just like dad with mine..... i glare at them both, they both give toothy smiles as dad begins to lift up my legs looking over me, he moves to my face and opens my mouth, pulling on my teeth, "how many times a day do you brush your teeth?" he asks and i groan a two to him and he lets out a sharp breath, "start brushing them after dinner too, and meat? how much meat do you eat?" he asks, looking up to the twins and their parents.

"with every meal, of cours!" mum says.

"oh really? what meat?" he asks and she looks slightly worried.

"bacon, sausages, steak, pork chops, chicken, nuggests-"

"sausages and nuggets are processed meat, not proper meat, he needs proper meat-" he says turning back to me, "Have you had KFC?!" he asks distantly like he's going to throw a fit, so i say no as best i can and he looks me dead in the eyes, "No KFC, it makes you fat and can cause many many problems-" oh god, what is this life? "now get running, you two ate too im guessing? shift, come on, lets get running!" he says and i grumble as i get down.

the twins look between each other, "are you serious?" they say suddenly, looking to their parents.

my dad gives them a strict look, "Do you think i'm serious?!" he asks sternly.

"yes, sir!" they pout as their parents laugh, enjoying the torture. my dad and the twins shift as i begin a slow jog, i then feel my dad bite my tail, i yelp and me and my mates begin running quickly to get away from my dad.

i fall to the livingroom floor completely out of breath, "Oh, that was a good run!" my dad says with joy, he comes over to me and pulls me up, then looks over me, he starts pinching at my skin, "huh, i guess!" he says critically and i groan out loudly while the parents laugh and drink wine, he snaps his head in their direction and they turn away and continue drinking, "you guys have a gym?" he asks, looking to them and they nod vigirously, "good, every morning at five o'clock you will be in the gym with me to do a daily work out, then when you come home, you will have dinner prepared already, you will eat all of it, an hour later we will be doing stretches and yoga to work on your muschle health and joints, then you will be going on a run with me, every saturday we will be doing an exam to see how much you've improved and you will keep improving until you can beat...." he thinks, "not me, i'm too easy and i'll be scared of hurting you.....Alpha can do it, he keeps up with excersise right?" we all look to him looking like his life just flashed before his eyes, "your all lazy, no wonder the kids aren't healthy, fine, you will be going up against the pack trainer, you will attend his lessons every monday and wednesday for fighting lessons too!" he decides before leaving the room, "come and get a drink, you need to stay hydrated, where's your brother? he'll be joining you!" he adds and i pretend to cry while everyone just turns to me.

Aidan and Nathan go to comfort me but i push there arms down, "Why did you buy KFC? i knew this would happen!" i say and my eyes widen, "he's gonna kill me, all the junk food i've eaten, all the fatty gamon- "

"What gamon?!"

"Oh dear god!" I go to crumble to the floor when i feel him drag my backwards, "HELP ME!" I scream as he keeps dragging me.

"let's go for another trip, you need more work then i thought, your getting heavy!"

"PLEASE!" I scream as he places me down carefully as if what he is doing is hurting me enough!

"Shift, i'll stand here and time you!" he says and i begin to run as quick as i can, the quicker i am the quicker it is over....

three fucking laps of the territory later, "this took you five hours and fourty three minutes and fifty four seconds..." he looks at me like i just smashed his favourite vas, "three laps of this territory should take you an hour!" he snaps and everyone who just came around to watch, including the twins look at him like....is he for real?, "you used to be able to run around this town in the space of an hour with me!" he says like his disapointed, "now what happened?!" he demands the answer and i growl.

"living with wolves, being bed ridden for months and pregnancy!"i say to him in our fox coded language...it's weird, hard to explain but it works.

he laughs, "i'm sorry, son-" i let out a breath, "but-" i tense, taking back the moment of relief, "wolves are very active creatures so they should have kicked your lazy ass in the but, being bed ridden for months wouldn't have been if you excersised like i intructed and kept to the plan i had us all in, even when i was gone, and pregnancy never stopped me, it actually made me work harder because i knew i'm the one who has to protect my pups!" he says and my heart breaks. i drop my head.

"does this mean i'm a bad parent?" i wine out to him and he laughs.

"no, it means your not trying hard enough to do more then just be a good parent, now shift, go get dressed and drink plenty of water!" he says, pointing his hand for me to go, i walk past and Aidan and Nathan go to follow, i snap a look of panic to them, they freeze but tense futher when my father starts, "no, i'm 44, not 2!" he says and they both growl.

"he's our mate-"

"and i'm his dad, even if i have been gone for a while, you rather join in on the fitness or but out, when he isn't doing fitness you'll get all the time with him, you can watch, but no slowing him down, Go!" he snaps the last part at me, yeah, i got it, yay, did you see? did you see?

i run down with Nathans shorts and Aidan's hoodie and jog into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water i begin to chug it, "Are you insane!" he shouts and i spit as much of it i can back, seeing them all watching as i then begin to sip slowly, all of them enjoying my suffering with how much of my bitchiness they have to cope with, "good boy!" he pets and walks out, i put the bottle down and slide to the floor.

"you love your momma, yes, that's right, you LOVE him!" i say to myself sternly, "just be fucking thankful your not thirteen again!" i grumble and look up to see the twins, i smile.

"what's that about?" they ask and i roll my eyes.

"i need to excersise, we all need to excersise, i wanna live till at least you guys live, i am not going ot be the first one dying!" i growl and sip the water, i hear my dad coming and i jump up and jog on the spot, looking very tired.

"ah, theres my boy, for your effort you can go off now, bed preferably, your up tomorrow for your first fittness!" he says and grabs some more water and leaves again.

i stop jogging and smile in victory while everyone gives me impressive looks, "don't worry, it took me way too long to figure that trick out!" i say and they all laugh, Aidan and Nathan hug me tightly and i hug them back, feeling very healthy, "it's bullshit-" i say and they look to me, "i bet i could do three laps in fourty minutes!" i say with pride and stretch my body, "oh i'm gonna enjoy this!" i say, jumping and clapping my hands.

"you looked like you were suffering!" Aidan gasps, looking at me like....are you for real

i give him a dead look, i lift up his shirt and bite his arm, he looks down like what am i doing.........it's actual muschle...i pull away, "huh...so you say when you excersise.. you don't look like your dying half way through?" i ask and he looks to Nathan who is giving him and you even try to lie face.

"no...." he mumbles.

"yes...." Nathan mocks him.

"you can't say anything, it's a job to get you off the ground when we work out!" he retorts back and i raise a brow.

"it looks like you two need this more then me!" i say, crossing my arms and they look at me.

"no, we will just be distractions to you so it wont be fair to pull you down!" Aidan smiles and i laugh.

"i'm gonna tell dad!" i say and he growls, playfully.

"Don't you dare!" he says, challengingly.

"DA-" he pulls me to him and Nathan as they pick me up, i yelp and laugh as they drag me through the house.

"Did someone call?" my dad calls, seeing my hanging upside down with two Alpha's holding my feet up. he gives a dead look, then his face lightens, "um....try touching your toes, i wanna see if you can still do it!" i look up to them both and growl at them as they hold me forwards, i do it easily, "eh, your back is looking strange!" i growl, going floppy, "even Derak's back looks better then yours!" he says and i growl.

"why are you picking on me?!" i grumble, "he's the alcoholic!" dad gasps.

"WHAT?!" he screams and if i wasn't upside down i would be pale.

"raden-what-did-you-do-" Derak whispers from one of the corners, looking over his phone.

"i'm so sorry!" i say.

"on your toes Derak, on your toes!" he points his finger, giving him his warning as he exits the room.

i climb down and Derak comes over, i turn around and he lifts my shirt, "Raden, how little have you done?!" he gasps and i jump about a bit.

"I was focused on not getting glasses of wine thrown on me!" i say and he drops my shirt, i turn to him and begin to egamin him in our little way, "you don't do anything do you?!" i gasp and he growls.

"i run about on a daily!" he says as if it helps.

"Derak, i run about when i'm looking after nine pups!" i snap at him and he shakes around, "okay, it's okay, as long as we can get through yoga, he'll not push us too hard!" i say and Derak goes pale.

"theres yoga?!" he whispers and i freeze.

"are you looking at dying before the age of fifty?!" i growl at him and push him back, he growls.

"well maybe-"

"shush, no arguments!" i gasp and he takes a deep breath.

"it's alright, we have all night to deal with this!" he says, clapping his hands. we shake hands and i run upstairs into my room.

i go through the twins's clothes to find some fitness clothes, "Raden?" Nathan asks carefull, "you are not pulling an all nighter, it can't be that bad!" i turn around and take a breath.

"my dad is scared of dying, he has Thanatophobia and when you have that as a phobia, in fox terms it means you and your family WILL live forever!" i say and they just look at me.

"i think this is bad dude!" Aidan leans over and whispers into Nathan's ear.

"he'll snap me in two during yoga!" i yelp, shivering at the thought, "do you have leggings?" i ask them and they shake there heads.

"oh wait, Aidan does!" Nathan says, running in while Aidan goes pale.

"no i don't there yours!" he says walking towards the door.

"he thought it was cool to show off his muscles so he wore leggings like...all the time!" Nathan laughs and i shrug.

"Aidan?!" i call and he looks to me, "turn around?" i ask and he smiles, turning around, i look him up and down, "oof!" i say and grab the leggings, putting them on, "Right, and shorts?" i ask and he throws me some, "thank you, and a top!" i say and take the first one i see, "okay, this is okay!" i say and jog back through the room, "Aidan, i sware i will get you into those leggings!" I say, pointing my finger and he winks, i turn back to Nathan, "your not getting away from it either, your two's asses are sexy!" i say and bolt out the room, down to the living room where Derak is doing basic, human stretches, "Basic!" i scoff and he rolls his eyes.

"now, how much can you do?" he asks and i pic up my foot and put it over my shoulder, "a lot, so, i can-" he lifts his leg up into the air, and thats it.

"derak-" i put my hand on his shoulder, "i will give you a good speach at your funeral!" i say and he pushes me back, i laugh and he rolls his eyes.

Aidan and Nathan come in and sit down, "how much can you two do?" Derak asks, crossing his arms and Aidan goes pale while Nathan goes red.

"you have to show us now!" i say giddily as they both groan and stand up.

"Nathan's the gymnast, i'm just poorly trained!" Aidan grumbles while he goes into the splits with a scrunched up face.

Nathan does the same, but with ease, "Now what?" i ask and Aidan looks up to me.

"Now What!" he asks shocked, "this is now what!" he snaps while Nathan moves his legs forward and puts his chest to the carpet, he lets out a breath and looks to Aidan.

"i thought i gave this up?" he asks and i laugh.

"forget it, your joining us, both of you, your both around Derak's level, i'll be able to get you to mine!" i smile.

"you find it easy because your skiny and small!" Derak grumbles and i roll my eyes.

"your a fox shifter too!" i say and do a back bend, kicking my legs over and standing back up, "anything's possible for us!" i shrug and he sighs.

"i'm waiting for when you catch dads fear of death, your too much like him!" he grumbles and does the same, standing back up.

"yeah, but i'll be able to get even these two wolves to live forever!" i say, putting myself to a hand stand and leaning my legs forwards until they are past my head, to which i continue until i can't breath easily.

"yeah, i think that alkie stage ruined that possibility for me!" he says while pressing my legs down softly, "breath dude, breath!" he says melloly and i remember to control the breathing, "hold it!" he says, taking his hands away, "i'm doing well tho, i think by the end of the week i won't even want to drink!" he says and taps my leg to tell me i can move.

i get out and stand up, doing some basic stretches, "yeah, but in a month, your body will be back to normal, we'er foxes, not humans, once they drink they fucked it-" i hold his legs steady when i see him struggling to balance, "balance!" i say and he corrects himself, "we'er foxes, we heal, we reset!" i say as i let go, allowing him to slowly lower himself, "i think, now dads back, we'll eventually get back to our old routines, and now your out of your alkie stage, we'll get you to finally attend, but i think we'll outlive everyone!" i say with pride as Derak touches the floor with his feet, "Damn, Derak, i thought you were struggling earlier?!" i say shocked, "nah, i can beat you!" i say and join him, "under?" i ask and he gives a breathless laugh.

"no!" he says and i scoff, walking my legs back, "your creepy!" he grimices but joint in.

"ew, have you seen some of the stuff dad does during yoga, i bet he can just move his joints out of place like a lego person!" i laugh, as we flip our bodie up so we are now standing out of the little thing we did.

"yeah, but he's living forever, even with his heart thing, he went there because he was scared of dying and as unorthodox their ways were, they were the only ones who had the guts to mess with a fox shifters heart!" he says softly and goes to put his hand on my shoulder but i move away, doing a summer sault, "he tried to pay with money you know!" he says and i look at him.

i sigh, "i know!" i look to my feet and take a moment, "shit happens!" i croak out before we both take a breath, i hold my arms backwards and stretch them over my head, popping them out of place as i go right over my head, popping them back into place when they get into normal position.

"ew!" Derak says but does it anyway.

"i need to take a break!" i say, feeling slight pain, "i'm not good for this shit!" i stop, tensing, realisation hitting me, i turn around and look at him.

"what?!" he ask carefully.

"i could get out of this!" i say joyfully and he goes pale.

"no, please, don't leave me, i'll never go on a little streak thing again, just don't leave me!" he cries and i scoff.