i sit in the lesson on the tall tables with my legs hanging freely while the teacher, as bubbly as she is talks about the greatest show man........ever since it has come out we hear every time when she watches it again, she also makes us learn the lyrics to the movie, "now, who hasn't heard the songs?!" she says and i let out a sharp breath before raising my hands, "don't you have kids?" she asks and i freeze, every fiber in my being freezes.

"no-" i trail off, slowly pulling my hand back to my side.

"oh, they would love the movie, what, they'll be about one now? yes, i want you all to watch the move with your whole family, get there reactions of the movie and i want you to describe what each song made you feel, the tempo, the melody, the lyrics, everything!" she smiles and claps her hand, she then goes to the pile of papers on her desk, "you'll all be sent off to one of the practice rooms to practice a song, i have assigned teams based on who would do better with what song and who would work best together-" she passes me a million fucking dreams, oh do i dream i never took music. "now go on, have fun, you'll be preforming to me once you are finished, but you have by the end of the week, you can do this outside of lessons too now, go go!" she smiles and i stand up, slugily walking to the door where Derak is sat on his phone.

i lean over and look at what he's doing, "what is he doing?" i hear a snob ask and i roll my eyes.

"what do you want?!" he asks grumpily and i pout.

"we've got to go to practice rooms, and your suposed to be standing watch, not with your nose in your phone, where's Josh?" i ask and he looks up with a dead look.

"Raden, i get that you hate this lesson and i see the exact reason why-"

"oh, your Derak, Raden's brother?" the teacher asks and Derak looks like he's questioning his life choices, "i'll be looking for a personal review of the movie Raden get's you to watch, you'll love it!" she smiles and pats him on the head before running away.

"Josh went to the toilet, i'm playing red ball run and i am supposed to be standing watch, now go to your fucking lesson, Raden, get this over with, i'm tired and i'm not even in the lesson!" he growls and i slug to my assigned room.

"you could have at least come into the room to cheer us all up!" i grumble and he snorts.

"yeah, like i would do that for you!" he laughs and i let out a frustrated sigh before opening the door to people already playing music.

"hay, Raden, nice of you to come, can i ask, what are you suposed to be doing here?" Mary, Mary quite contrary, how did your garden grow, cos you sertainly don't look after it.

"singing, and you? oh, sorry, the piano right? yeah!" i sit down and play a few random keys, "click, click, click!" i say and she growls, i stand up, personally, i love the piano, it's so classic and the type of music you can play on it is beautiful, but she's a bitch so i'm gonna be the bitch i am to beat the bitch she is, cos i'm petty and i know it.

"it's more then that you dick!" she growls and the others just groan in annoyance.

"yeah, i get you hate me and everything, but we all have grades to get, even tho we know you don't care, now lets play!" i snobishly say to her and she growls again, "all this growling!" i complain as she sits down.

"okay, we have it nearly ready for the vocals, just listen and we'll go again when your ready!" Kyle says, holding his guitar and playing a few strings.

theres a moment of silence and he begins to play again, the instruments working together perfectly as they balance their sounds through the song and do something new, within the song to make it their own slightly, i nod, listening to the speed and the main beats until they finish, "can you remember the lyrics, or do you need to read them?" she scoffs and everyone groans, "yeah, i know, we have to listen to his horrible si-"

"Shut up!" they all shout at her and she just sits low in her seat, i roll my eyes.

"i have them remembered from last time she went on a greatest show man moment!" i say and they all give knowing looks.

i look over them one last time to make sure and nod, putting the sheat down before they begin, i caugh a slight bit and control my breathing.

"i close my eyes,

and i can see, a world that's waiting up for me,

that i call my own,

through the dark, through the door, through where no one's been before,

but it feels like home!"

i don't like to sing that often, like, never, the only reason why i chose music in the first place is because i wasn't interested in any other subject, i wasn't going to jump into a course i know i'll be shit as from past experiences, but...oh well, i'm stuck now.

"Cause every night i lie in bed

the brightest colours fills my head

A million dreams are keeping me awake

i think of what the world could be

a vision of the one i see

A million dreams is all it's gonna take

for a million dreams are the ones we'er gonna make!"

i take a steady breath when it done, everyone placing there stuff to rest, "that's it for now, we'll work on tweaking some other time!" Kyle says, i take a sip of water and smile.

"i think you all did amazing!" i say politly and we all tell everyone what we all think about each others parts, we all get called back to the classroom and we sit down quietly.

"i hope we all had fun, now, i'm afraid the head master is being a bit of a let down, so i'll have to put it as your homework, it will go to your grades so make sure you do it, i suggest going to each others homes if needed!" she explains as the bell goes and i walk to the door, only to be met up by the rest of the group.

"so, who's house are we going to?" Nick asks and i look to him.

"well, my mum doesn't allow people over when she isn't there!" Mary says, "i think we should go to Raden's!" i glare at her.

"that's not my choice!" i say to her, i look to the rest and they all seem to give me that look.

"well, my house is too small and my naboughrs are shit so i can't!" Kyle says and they all just give excuses.

"what's your excuse?" Mary asks and i roll my eyes.

"it's the pack house of there territory, no unothorised visits and it's currently housing nine one year onld pup-"

"it's a big enough house, there won't be noise complaints, plus, i'm sure your parents, or Alpha and Luna would love to hear you sing!" Mary smiles and i give her a wtf look at her''kindness''.

i look between them and my brother comes up behind, "Alpha said you can!" he smiles widely and i growl at him.

"you little bitch!" i growl, jumping at him but the teacher comes out.

"eh, Raden, Derak, no fighting, go to lesson!" i growl again, bardging roughly past him. i hate singing in front of people i don't have to sing in front of, thats including my parents, to everyone else i simply don't sing, i can't sing. i don't want the fucking attention unless i have to.......me showing off to the class was a have to, i had to prove i'm worth something. even tho it annoyed me afterwards.

i walk into the boys changing room in a mood, my head down, my hood over my head, grumpy.

i feel someone grab the top of my hood and pull it down, i growl at the person, seeing it's John, "woah, dude, what's up your ass?" he asks, his hands up in surrender.

i let out a sharp breath, "nothing!" i grumble, i throw my bag down and sit down, taking a breath as he begins to get changed, i drap my hands down my face, "i really hate PE!" i say and he scoffs.

"your really good at it tho!" he says and i mumble something random as i begin to get changed.

while i'm getting changed i notice people keep looking over to me, i take my tops off and i hear mumbling, i turn around and see them casually look away, i look down at my scared body...trailing over my back, my arms, to my now shaking hands, i change as quick as a fox can and rush out of the changing rooms to the lesson at hand.

Aidan and Nathan are already talking to coach about something, they turn around and smile to me, Nathan's the first to notice my rainbow of emotions, "what happened?" he asks and i shake my head.

"nothing!" i say lowly and they both hug me, they wait for an answer and i shake my head, "it's nothing!" i repeat and they pull away, looking streight at me, i wrap my arms around me as if i'm trying to cover myself when Nathan catches on to my subconsious and self concious actions.

"is it the scars?" he asks carefully and i look away.

"no!" it's stupid, i don't even know why i'm bothered by the way they all keep looking at me, there is no need for anyone to get involved with it, at all!

they both let out breaths, "well, we heard your coming home with extras today for music homework, is that part of the problem?" Aidan says....impressive Aidan.

"yes, it is-" i say too quickly, trying to cover everything up when they roll their eyes, "no, it is, i don't want them over because....Mary's a bitch, Kyle is nosie, and the others are so damn annoying-" the Mary part was true, and the Kyle part too, he can't help it with a guitar tho, "i don't like music either!" i finish and they both let out long breaths.

"well, if your not going to tell, we can't force you to tell so let's just meet our problems when we get to them, okay?" Nathan says softly as he hugs me, Aidan hugging me from behind as the class starts.