hi felix?

how are you?

are you feeling ok?

you weren't at class today,

do you want me to bring you my notes?

are you mad at me?

felix, i'm sorry...

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why'd you block me on the message app?

c'mon felix

you weren't at class, do you need today's notes?

sigh (a.n. yes, he just sighed over texts)

you aren't gonna reply and you probably going to block me here too

if you're really gonna ignore me then bye!

take care and eat healthy foods!

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hey lix

are you ok?

(14:24)

why are you not at school?

how are you feeling?

(14:37)

felix, c'mon, you are making me worry

(14:58)

lix?

i know you are not replying to anyone, but can you make an exception for me? i just wanna know if you are ok

felix, please tell me what's happening...

can i come over, please?

(15:07)

oh you replied!

yes of course

are you ok though?

do you want me to come and take you here by car?

or are you at home? do you prefer that i came over?

i'm fine, i just wanna see you

i'm not home

i'm near your dorm anyways

oh ok, i'll wait for you

take care

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jisung heard the doorbell ring and immediately run to open the door.

"hey lix, you are here!" he smiled at the aussie boy and get away from the door to let the other get inside the dorm.

while entering the house, felix suddenly hugged jisung, taking him by surprise; the other hugged back immediately though.

"i'm so stupid," says felix putting his head on jisung's shoulder.

"what happened, lix?"

"i-i told hyunjin that i l-like him,"

"and what happened?" they were still hugging so jisung started to caress felix's back.

"nothing much, hyunjin said that he doesn't like me, i should've expected it,"

"heartbreaks must hurt a lot, right?"

felix mumbled a small 'yeah' while hugging jisung tighter.

"but you are strong,"

"i am not,"

"yes, you are! getting heartbroken hurts a lot," jisung parted from the hug to take felix's face in his hands, "but you'll get through it,"

"have you even gone through a heartbreak?"

"yeah, the guy i like, likes somebody else, that's life, you can't control what people feel,"

"i'm sorry,"

"it's ok, all that matter to me is that he's ok,"

felix looked at jisung right in the eyes, pouting a bit, "that guy should feel really lucky,"

"yeah?"

"yeah,"

"mhm anyway," jisung hand went to the other's shoulder "since you are here, wanna watch a movie with me?" he smiled.

"oh yeah sure,"

hey hyun,

felix is ok, he came to our dorm

but kinda...

he doesn't want to see you

so if you could not come home

OK I GET IT, YOU LIVE HERE,

but felix is scared to see you so you better find a place to stay for today, sorry

the two boys were now in jisung's room, watching a random movie that felix choose.

jisung was sitting on his bed, with his back on the wall, and the other boy was resting his head on his legs. he took advantage of the position they were to play with felix's hair.

the boy wasn't paying much attention to the movie; the boy that he had liked for the longest was literally laying on his lap, he won't waste this moment focusing on a dumb movie, of course. he passed his time looking and felix's beautiful face and caressing him; since the start of their friendship he learnt that felix was like a cat, he needs a lot of affection, and he was willing to give it all to him.

"jisung," felix suddenly say, tilting his head to look at the other.

"mhm? what's up?"

"it hurts,"

"what hurts?"

felix put his hand on his chest, right were his heart is, "here..."

jisung took felix's hand and held it tight.

"it's about hyunjin?"

felix nodded.

"i know it's hard, but you shouldn't think about it, it will just hurt more,"

"i'm trying...."

"i know baby..."

"do you think there will ever be someone that would like me?"

"i'm pretty sure someone already likes you,"

he smiled warmly at the other,

"how do you know?" felix got up in a sitting position.

"he told me,"

"and who is he?"

"i'm not telling you~"

"but i wanna know," he pouted.

"you'll find who he is really soon, don't worry,"

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this is becoming a jilix fanfiction 😭✋

i'm sorry

*crying*