Everything was right........well not entirely, but things were finally... finally falling into place slowly but surely. My mother's condition was drastically improving and on top of that, the doctor assured that it's only a matter of time until she's completely healed, awake and fit to pack her bags and meet her new found freedom. Walking out of the Florida State prison to recollect her life again. And thanks to Attorney Trovatto's efforts, Brianna's parole has been extended due to the previous deadly assault done to her. And I can't wait to be with her once again, there's so much I want to share with her.

I have to stay in Orlando longer, to make sure everything is settled in court and that my mother is taken care of.

Enos.

The man is turning into the most complex puzzle I'd ever come across. I'm getting the impression that there's so much more to him than he lets out. Following the incidence that left me naked in his livingroom and covered in evidence of my repulsiveness when drunk, surprisingly, Enos and I are actually growing closer rather than drifting apart.

You'd think upon practically embarrassing myself.....dear God, by tempting his justifiable willpower with my naked drunken body, that Enos would most likely stay the hell away from me..... as he probably should. But quite the contrary, Enos has refused my apologetic shy and sincere apology and instead.... Returned the apology by blaming the liquor and his own inability to fight his desires. I couldn't believe it. That made no sense and I felt worse than relieved that he hasn't called me out on my behavior.

After my mild panic attack at his place-- and him discovering my level of eruptive paranoia, Enos is constantly checking up on me. And he probably thinks that I haven't noticed how watchful and careful he is when it comes to me. But truth be told, Enos is really bad at hiding those true intentions...like very bad at it.

For starters, Enos visits me on the evenings....and not just occasionally, No, I'm talking of-- almost every single day. And since he's...... as I initially said, bad at coming up with excuses that always give him away______ I just walk pass his awkward excuse of "let's hangout for a short while."___ Scratch that, For hours and hours of each day as though we're a married couple, I mean...why don't we?

To be honest, Enos trying to get close to me and frequently showing up on my door step makes me kinda happy, less lonely and safe....safer than I'd ever felt my whole life. Knowing that someone is right there, ready to look out for you.... is something that I've been lacking for years, and Enos, no matter how hard I've previously worked to push him away..... He remains to be the only person fully willing to provide that. Though I'd never ask for it nor thanked him either.

And I'm not oblivious. I can clearly see pass all his efforts on masking his feelings towards me.....(probably because Enos thinks that he's gonna scare me away by bringing up the subject of being In love with me).....that he wants me.

Enos once uncautiously revealed..... That he wanted so much more with me but I was always running away from him. Everything that Enos is doing for me right now... It lays on the fact that he loves me. It shows even though he most certainly assumes that he's being discreet, his actions speak louder. SO LOUD.

I don't know how to feel about it____ and where to place myself at. But what I'm a hundred percent sure of is....I won't be pushing him away any longer. That's not happening again. Cause it wouldn't be fair at all.

Enos is a good man. He doesn't deserve to be tossed aside just because I'm afraid of falling in love again.

Tomorrow, Enos and I will be paying a quick visit to three of his youngest siblings in town. He didn't want to go alone, and April is grounded for some reason I didn't bother to ask. So, in less than twelve hours, I'll be meeting part of Enos's family.

Its normal right? We're just friends, I guess.

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