Tickling the table while waiting for Tin to came. I was sitting alone in the cafe, I keep wondering what makes him long to came? I'm already here about fifteen minutes ago. This is the first time I'm going to meet him because I've been avoiding the whole gang for almost weeks. And also I didn't hear anything yet from Ae. I just don't know how to cut my ties on him. I have no enough courage to do that.

Sighed while my eyes wondering in the front door of the cafe. But my eyes almost fell when I saw Ae suddenly came in. I was too late even I immediately pick the menu book and cover that to my face. Our eyes met already. I was wishing I was the only one who saw him. Then I should just get myself out of here.

"So this is how you spent your vacation Pete?" I'm doomed. There's no use to hide myself from him. He was already seated on the vacant chair in front of me.

I slowly put down the menu book and trying to compose myself. This is not what I'm expecting seeing Ae again. No. I really don't want to see him that yet.

I cant even look at him and keep looking to the other direction but in my peripheral vision. He was staring at me with his emotionless face.

"Its been a long time huh?" whats with his tone? Is he being sarcastic or just mad at me. He can directly that to my face. Because I was busted already.

"What are you doing here?" I ask him without even budge looking at him.

I'm really anxious right now. I don't know but I'm having a self panic. My fist were shaking on my knees were also tremble under the table.

"You know we should get an order first" didn't mind what I'm asking instead he just pick the menu book and reading the menu.

I don't know whats gotten me, but I cant just stand up, stormed off and leave him like that like I wanted to be. But I remain silent and numb sitting here.

But I'm going to admit I do miss him.

After we ordered drinks and cakes that he decide alone. I was out of myself for doing this so I let him order what he want for me.

While waiting for our order, we didn't talk we just remain just like that. But then..

"By the way Tin cant make here so he ask me to come instead" then I realize Tin was fault of all of this. Now my suspicious were right. It was really weird that he asked me to go out when he can just go to my place for talk.

Tin why are you betraying me?

"Disappointed?" he asked me that made me taken a back.

"Ha?" I was in my thoughts.. but then he just crept a little smile on me.

"You really want to break up with me?" I was just stunned and cant get myself sane.

"Ae.."

"You can just told me right away, you cant just disappear without my notice" this is what I am afraid of. Seeing him mad and at the same time get hurt because of my stupid decisions.

I bowed my head as my eyes blur because of the liquid formed into my eyes.

"Pete.." I raise my head and meet his gaze.

"Yes, I want to break up with you. You don't deserve someone like me. A someone who lies and made a lot mistakes of you. You can just find someone who will love and treat you better than me. Leave Ae, leave! We shouldn't meet anymore" not giving a damn how loud I stated those and those sharp eyes of other looking at us. Murmuring and gossiping between us. I let out my feelings and emotions here. I cried so weakly in front of him. I don't want him seeing me like this for the last time. I don't want him to pity me because I cry. I want him to hate me to be able to get over me. But what can I do, I'm such a weak faggot.

"Are you done?" this is it. We are literally breaking up. Its hurt for me as hell but this should be done a long time ago.

"Here's your orders sir" the waiter just came up in the middle of our momentum. He give me a worried look because I'm still crying. Before he leave he give a me a box of tissue.

"Pete.." I jerked at him. Look at him he wasn't that look so sad or getting affected on what I said. He smiled on me instead. I feel so frustrated.

"You are smiling, so it means you are okay with it?" and I really asked that? to torture myself.

"Can you let me finish? Pete do you think I will allow you to do that? And also did I agreed breaking up with you? No. I'm here to get you back to me" he said snickering while taking a bite of sliced cake in the plate.

"Ae.."

"Tin told me about it. How can you just did a decision without talking to me?" I wipe my own tears by the tissue.

"I did a wrong thing Ae. How can you say that? You supposed to hate me" I'm trying to make up his mind.

"Why should I hate you? Because you did that with him?" he asked back at me.

"Yes and I cheated on you. You should disgust at me because if you asked me, I disgust myself even more"

"I love you Pete. And I always believing on you. I'm not considering it as cheating. That Trump leave you no choice to do that. Its not your fault" he said then I break down again. I don't know what to do and to say anymore. I don't deserve Ae.

"Ae its a same thing" I saw him stand from his seat and rush on me. He hugged me, he place my head to his belly and I sob there. Then I felt his head place to my head. He caressing my back and comfort me while I'm crying.

"You've done enough Pete" now caressing my hair. I hug him back and cry even more.

Mom leave after two weeks of staying here. She said she's only leave for vacation. I thought she would be staying for good here. But then she promised us that time when she come back she wouldn't leave our side anymore.

"I miss mom" Lei just sighed while moving the spoon she handed on the plate.

The house began to be quiet and lonely after she left.

As usual I prepared the breakfast for today. And I know Lei was extremely sad but she didn't showing it literally, she acted cool but I know how she act is really pretending to be okay.

I just let her how to cope up her sadness. Cause in the end we are going to accept the reality where we are.

I fish out my phone and I expecting to receive a message from him but wondering he is not yet texting me.

I feel little upset. Then I text him.

Are you going to pick me up?

Waiting for his response its like a forever. My eyes never blink and stay on the screen until he replied.

Sorry I had to go somewhere first before going to the university. Sorry Can.

I pout and about to throw a tantrum but I just calm myself. Text him back in a nice way.

I see. So see you there.

Again I waited for his response but its almost 2 minutes past and my message remain read by him. Whats him today? What he took so busy that he cant give me lift me for a school and bothering to reply to my messages.

I put my phone in the table with all my force and that made catch the attention of my sister who soundly eating.

"Tin.." there's a lot things running in my head. Call me paranoid but you just cant help me not. I feel strange. Not even today but I feel strange even the past days.

"Whats the matter Can?" she asked continuing eating her cereal.

I was about to rant and complain everything on my head but I choose not this time.

"Nothing" she throw me unconvinced look.

"You cant fool me Can. You just mention his name. What is it this time? Having fights? What?" great how nosy my sister. I just straight drinking the glass of milk in the table. Then I pick my bag beside of me.

"I'll go ahead first" I said without looking at her. I didn't budge to hear her response and I went out to the house and preparing for a walk to the university.

Someone just bumped me but I'm not in the mood so I just plainly ignore it.

"Can?!!" ow?

I look back at her. "Dae?" she waved her hands at me with her brightly smile. Whats with her? But then she changed her expression when she realize I look bored at her.

"Having PMS?" she tease me. I just shrugged.

First of all I'm not in the mood and second I don't know the word PMS.

But she clings on me and I didn't bother of that we continue walking to the university.

When we finally reached the university. We are currently waiting for the others because they text Dae to wait for them. I was just crossing my arms, lowkely raising my eyebrow because of our friends didn't come yet. The class will start so soon.

"Dae why are we still here? This is not we used to do right? We didnt wait them here in front of our campus?" I finally realized this crazy thing we doing.

Dae was just busy to her phone and feel like he didn't hear me. I was losing my patience here. When I saw in peripheral vision, I saw Tin from the across the street not so far away where I am standing. When I look to that direction. My mind went into confusion.

I saw him with a girl, that girl were about my height. Have a long hair, have a skinny body and seems so pretty. My attention draw on how Tin escorted her to her car. Whoever will saw them can jump into conclusion that they were a couple. Plus how they share laugh before he send off finally the girl.

I don't know how to think anymore. Now I lose my little patience in me. I just stormed off and leave Dae there. I hear Dae calling my name but I didn't mind and walk straight to the class.

I'm concealing my tears that formed into my eyes. I know Tin but I never saw him with a girl since we met but I know his record before. He is kinda cassanova but he changed already after meeting me. What is this all about??

Is this somewhere he told me that he had to go?? Aish I don't want to jump to any conclusion but how can he just explain that thing I saw to me.

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a/n : we will see how Can will be jealous freak and possessive wifeyhmmm.. btw im sad i didnt get any feedback from last chapter but it was okay, it was a so-so update and im sorry for being almost hiatus authornim. btw thank you for always leaving votes in every chapter i posted!!

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