The day passed slowly and today would be her birthday.

I'm still laying in bed and it's about 11 am, but I have brushed my teeth and showered.

Lauren walks into the room and sighs.

"Can you please get up?"She asks.

I shake my head, afraid that if I speak I'll break.

She lays down on the bed next to me and pulls me into her.

"It'll be okay. I understand that you're grieving. Honey I do, but it's not healthy to spend an entire day on this bed without moving. You haven't even eaten yet,"She says stroking my hair.

"I can't. Not today Lauren. Please. Leave me alone,"

"No. I'm here. Listen Lisa is coming over to pick up the twins-"I cut her off.

"Why is she picking them up? Why didn't I know?"

"I think you need a day off, from everything. I set something up for tonight. Is that okay?"She ask.

I nod.

"Yeah. I need to get my mind off of it,"

"How do you feel about adopting a child?"I ask.

She looks at me confused.

"I thought you didn't want anymore,"

"We only live once. I want another. When I'm more stable mentally,"I say grabbing her hand.

"I would love to adopt,"She says and connects our lips softly.

I reciprocate the kiss and she pulls me closer and climbs on me.

She trails down my neck and starts sucking and running her tongue over my skin.

"L-Lauren. The kids are here,"I moan, as my hands go to her hair as an instinct.

She smirks against my neck and continues leaving marks on me.

She kisses back up to my mouth and a knock breaks us apart and Lauren quickly gets off of me.

The front door opens and shuts.

"Mommy. Auntie Lisa is here,"Electra says opening the bedroom door.

"Okay well be up in a second,"Lauren says.

We get up and I put on an oversized shirt and walk downstairs.

"I'll take them for the day. Can they stay the night? I know today is hard for you,"Lisa says.

"Yes please. Thank you for caring Lisa. In high school we had a love hate relationship,"I say.

"We still do. Don't get ahead of yourself,"

I roll my eyes and Lauren comes downstairs with the girls.

"Don't spoil them to much,"Lauren says as the twins walk over to Lisa.

"I don't spoil them,"

"We have receipts. Literally,"

After she leaves with the kids Lauren opens the fridge and I look at her.

"Are you hungry?"She asks.

"No"

"You need to eat,"

"I got out of bed don't push it,"

She sighs and sits me on the counter and stands between my legs.

"Princess, I know it's hard. She was a mother to me too. But you can't let this consume your life. You have let go someday,"She says.

"She was one of the only good things in my life before I met you. I can't let that go,"

"I know but bottling up your emotions isn't healthy at all. You have to let it out you can't hold it in. It kills me to see you like this-"

"Like what?"

"Broken. You never have the motivation to leave the house let alone get out of bed. You won't eat, you've been locking yourself in the bathroom more- I just- I'm worried. You won't talk to anyone about it. Seeing someone is the best thing you could do right now,"

"I already said no,"

"I know, but think about it. It could help you a lot"

"I don't need help,"

"Honey I'm worried about you, my family, your family is, the twins are. I know you don't want help, but please. Think about it at least,"

I gently pushed her back so I can get off of the counter.

"I don't need it,"

She sighs and I look in her eyes.

"I'll think about it,"I say.

"Really?"She asks smiling.

"Yeah,"

She connects our lips and I reciprocate the kiss and she pulls me closer to her.

As she pulls away I lean back in and she picks me up, holding me up by my thighs.

She walks up the stairs and to our room.

She lays me on the bed and takes her shirt off.

I grab her waist pulling her back down so she's hovering over me, holding herself up with her hands.

She smiles as she connects our lips, god this is a much needed alone time.

She slips one of her legs between mine and pushes it against my heated center.

I break the kiss and moan due to the contact.

My hips thrust up.

"Do I need to get the handcuffs?"She asks.

I shake my head.

"Good. Now listen to daddy and keep your hands to yourself and no moving unless I tell you to. Understand?"She asks.

I nod.

"Good girl. Sit up, arms up,"

I sit up and raise my arms and she takes my shirt off followed by my bra.

She pushes me back and kisses my neck.

My hands go to her hair instinctively and she pins my arms down.

"What did I say?"She asks pulling back.

"No moving,"I mumble.

She grabs my jaw and forces me to look at her.

"What?"

"No moving without permission,"I say louder.

"Mmm. So why did you move?"

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. Lauren please,"

"Please what princess?"

"Touch me,"

She lets go of my wrists.

"No touching, no moving, no noises,"She says.

She continues marking my neck and then trails lower.

She massages on of my breasts and takes the other into her mouth and I roughly bite my lip, drawing blood from it.

As she presses her thigh against me again I moan and she pulls away.

"What was that?"She asks.

"Nothing,"

"I heard you. Did I say you could make a noise?"

I shake my head.

She continues her attack on my chest and I manage to hold in my moans as she kisses down my body.

She skips over my heated core and to my thighs.

She finally lick up my center through my panties and I moan and grip her hair roughly.

She pulls away.

"I didn't say you could touch. And I explained what would happened if you moved didn't i?"

I nod.

She walks to the nightstand and opens the drawer.

She grabs the handcuffs and climbs on the bed.

After she cuffs my wrists to the headboard she goes back to the nightstand.

"What else are you getting?"I ask.

"No questions princess,"Is all she responds with.

I look at her and notice the blindfold in her hands.

"Lift your head up,"She says and I do it.

She places the blindfold on me.

"Is that to tight?"She asks and I shake my head.

I feel her lips on mine for a second.

Then I feel her hot breath hit my covered center.

She grabs the waistband to my panties and takes them off.

I hear something moving around and then Lauren speaks.

"Pick a number one to ten,"She says.

"Why?"I ask.

"Don't question it. Pick,"

"6"

"Thats the amount of times you're going to cum," my breath catches in my throat.

Six times!

"That isn't a problem is it?"She asks and I shake my head.

I feel something in between my legs and then it pushes into me making me groan at the size. She got the strap.

As she starts thrusting the toy in and out of me I wrap my legs around her, pulling her more in.

She picks up her pace I feel a hand on my throat.

I tug on the handcuffs and push my head further into the pillow.

"God you're so tight baby,"She grunts as she thrusts.

"You can speak now babe. I want to hear you,"She says.

"Fuck Lauren,"I moan as she slams into me.

My moans progressively get louder until I approach my climax.

"Lauren I'm gonna cum,"

"Let it out baby,"

I release on the toy and she pulls it out, lowering her head.

About a few hours later we showered and I'm back in bed because she took my walking rights.

"So how do you feel?"Lauren asks coming in with a water bottle.

"What other than sore?"I ask.

"I mean in general,"

She sits on the bed next to me and I put my head in her lap.

"I'm fine Lauren. I promise,"

She plays with my hair and because of how tired I already was it's helps me fall asleep.