When it ends, the little things will haunt you the most.

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"H-hey Doctor, you're going out already? "

My assistant asked, noticing me packing up my things

"Well yes, because I'm done with here already. " I tell him

"But Doctor you still have an interview. " he said

"An interview? "

I ask him, startles about having an interview

"Excuse me Doctor Y/ln but there is a couple of students outside your office who are asking to have an interview with you, will I let them in? "

My assistant, Ryan, ask me while I'm about to leave for my afternoon break

"I -uh Doctor Y/ln I'm sorry for bothering you, I can tell them to just go."

Ryan speaks again, noticing my crease brows

"Oh no, it's okay let them in. " I tell him

"Oh my god. "

"God indeed! "

"What are you girls saying? Please have your seats. "

I said to the two students who just entered my office

"I- I mean your beautiful just like what they told us. "

says the girl with red curls and brown freckles

"Yeah, Doctor Y/ln you're a living goddess! "

the blonde-haired girl with a cool personality exaggerates

"Are you guys just saying that because you need me? But thank you ladies you both are very beautiful too. "

I tell both of them

"No, of course not and you're really pretty, Doctor. "

the red-haired says

"And hot. "

the blonde added

"Okay I get it, stop hitting on me ladies, and please proceed on what you want to tell me. "

I say smiling at them

"Oh yeah. I'm Xenia and this red-haired girl here is Brave nice to meet you Doc. "

the blonde girl says and got a slap in the arm from the red-haired

"Hi Doc I'm Elise not Brave and we are both psychology major students under Dr. Mcdauff "

the red-haired say, clarifying her name

"Nice to meet you too ladies, so you already know that I'm Doctor Y/n Y/ln an optometrist and oh quite a tough teacher you got eh? "

I say and they both nod their heads in approval

"You know him Doc! "

Elise says and we all laugh at the thought of the terror teacher

"So.. what brought you girls here? "

I ask when they become silent, just sitting there looking at me

"Oh. "

they both let out and I raise an eyebrow at them

"Oh yes, wait! Okay, here it is. "

Elise says, setting a camera and recording me.

"Is that okay Doc? "

Xenia ask mentioning the camera that Elise is using to record the interview

Me having no choice because it's already set, I just nod yes at them.

"As you already know Doctor Y/ln, we're both psychology major students. The purpose of this interview is to know whether what is the majority of the interviewees are likely suffering from, is Love or is it Lust? "

Elise says sitting beside Xenia

"We're here to ask you a few questions which include your love life and or heartache? Which I highly doubt you had, I mean because they would be the broken-hearted one and not you because god looks at you! Doctor."

Xenia says, rumbling her words

And here I am taken aback by her question.

"Uh, why me? Why not interview someone younger or someone in your age? " I ask

"Because you're still young and you are the best option for this interview." Elise say

So twenty-five is young then.

'I even threatened my classmates for attempting on asking you for an interview and your assistant for not letting us in. ' I hear Xenia mumble

"You did what? (!) "

I ask directly at Xenia

"N-nothing. I'm harmless I promise! " she defends

How I want to laugh and roll my eyes at the same time, I can't. I just can't and you can't too. [A/N: ( But I can! ) ]

"So.. have you ever fall in love? " Xenia ask

"I did. "

..and I'm still am in love. I answer

"Judging your answer, you are not any more or at least not with that person anymore. Can you please tell us something about this person and why did you fall in love with him? "

Xenia ask, now more focused on what I'm about to tell

"This person.. well she, was my best friend since we were nine. We're from the same school but I never noticed her until we went camping together and that's when our friendship started and my feelings for her developed. She was very positive and sweet to me. I loved how she listened to my problems and solved them with her. How she asked for my forgiveness even if it was mostly my fault all the time. Oh and how she would laugh at my jokes even no one else would understand it. How we would always argue at small things but would never attack each other. How she would always surprise me by picking up my favorite treats on her way home. How she held my hands whenever I'm sad or scared or just because. And how honest we were with each other even if it hurts. "

I finished saying, smiling as I speak my heart out.

"Oh Doctor Y/ln, I didn't expect this but that is very beautiful and I'm sure was the girl that you are talking about. "

Xenia says and smile at me

"Yes Doctor, it's just sad that ended without having us a chance to know or ship the both of you. I would have been the best captain for you two! "

Elise says, enlightening my situation

I giggle at both of them for their sweetness and cuteness, they are just like my sister. I miss my baby sister, Yiannah.

"Doctor Y/n, Uh can we ask when was the last time you both saw each other? " Elise ask again

My smile fades as I remember the last time I saw her.

"It was when.. when I came here to study my medical course. " I say

"That long. " they both say

Yes, that long.

"Well that's all we need to ask and Doctor Y/ln thank you so much for your time. "

Xenia says and Elise turns off the camera

"Thank you, Doc! "

Elise said as she turns to me, I nod and smile at her

"You are both welcome. " I say

"Umm Doctor Y/ln? "

Xenia says as they are about to leave my office

"Yes? " I ask her

"I hope you figure it out yourself and I know even just a bit.. you still love her, you may deny it but your actions can't. "

she says and left

I smile sadly at what she said.

I look down to fix my shirt and see I had a mark on it. It was a tear that has escape from the corner of my right eye which slides down to my teal blue-colored shirt under my white coat, it stays there and left a mark.

I know Xenia's right but I don't know if I'm ready yet.

But it has been eight years! Wake up Y/n maybe she already forgave you or.. forgotten me.

"Gosh, I don't have groceries left! "

I say as I remember my meal this morning.

It was just an energy drink and bread. I run my way down to the parking lot because it's already almost six in the afternoon and the grocery store is just open until seven and I'm lucky if there are just a few of them who'll grocery tonight.

I reach my parking spot but I don't see my car. My car! Oh god, where is my car? (!)

"Fuck. "

I say as I slap my forehead.

Damn, I'm so stupid I didn't have my car today because I had it car washed this morning! Ugh. But I don't have time to get it now the grocery will close at seven.

Right now I'm outside the hospital building where my office is, waiting for a cab. I look at the sky and it feels like it will rain at any minute. Why am I so unlucky right now?

"To the Grasencia please. "

I tell the cab driver mentioning the name of the grocery store near my condo unit.

The rain starts to pour at least I have my umbrella with me, I'm not that unlucky you know.

I lean on the window of this cab looking outside to see people hurrying to wherever they are going because the rain's beginning to heavy and even I can hear it from the inside of this cab. My eyes found the two little girls on their uniforms playing in the park with their little umbrellas. I smile thinking how cute and lucky they still are living without worries and just full of happiness on their faces. I would love to go back to the times I was just like them.

I was sitting under a tree sulking about how I didn't get into the game, they said that I can't because they are already full and I'm the excess so I can't join them and then they said that it's okay if I can't join them because I'm just gonna make their team loss if I joined.

"If you don't want me then I'm not joining at all. Do all you want I'm just gonna sit here and enjoy my day. "

I said like a lonely child looking at the sand pouting my lips in a habit whenever I'm sad.

"Hi! "

I creased my brow as a sign of thinking. I looked up to see a girl my age wearing blue jogging pants and a white shirt that has a logo of our school the same uniform as I was.

"Who are you? "

I asked the girl

"Hi again! I'm Kendall Jenner and you are? "

the girl whose name was Kendall said smiling big at me

"I -I'm Y/n. "

I told her

She sat beside me and I scoot away from her.

"W-what do you want? "

I said nervously because I didn't know her and I just saw her today.

"Don't be afraid... I'm here to be friends. "

she said

"I don't have any. "

I said

"Then I'm your best friend from now on. "

she said cheerfully

"They don't like me and why would you? "

I told her

"Is that why you are here instead? "

she asked and I nod yes at her

"C'mon! "

But before I could think to say anything, she had to hold my hand and dragged me away from the tree we were sitting in a while ago.

"Wait.. "

I told her

'Hahahahahah..' she laughed as she was still holding my hand.

"C'mon we are going to play with my classmates, don't you worry they are friendly as well. "

she told me

I smiled at her the kind of smile I never thought I had.

Then the rain poured unexpectedly. I worry about myself because my mom said that I can't get sick because we can't afford it.

I was ready to cry but when I looked at Kendall she was still smiling and it felt like I wanted to smile too then I remember about the rain, and before I knew it I had a big cloth-covered my body.

I looked at her again and she was still smiling even if the rain was pouring down at her. I wanted to thank her because she helped me not to get sick, so I pulled her in me for us to share the big cloth as I hugged her.

"Come on we need to hurry back! "

I yelled through the rain.

I smile sadly as I look at my left side where I'm sitting on the back seat of the cab. It feels so lonely and I don't know why but maybe, it's because I used to ride a cab with Kendall to school when we were in high school.

"Kenny? "

I said removing my head from her shoulder

"Yes, love? "

she looked at me and smile

"I'm cold. "

I said shivering

"Come. "

she said and embraced me again, now her hands were holding mine while my head was leaning on her chest.

Feeling her breathing and listening to her heartbeat throughout the ride.

I smile sadly at the memory still looking at the side where Kendall used to sit beside me as I exit the cab.

"You need help with that doctor? "

Mrs. Green says, noticing my hands full of groceries as I walk past her condo unit

"No, thank you Mrs. Green I can handle it. "

I say and greet her

I get into my unit and put all my groceries on the kitchen table. I start putting all the groceries in places and I notice the Pocky Sticks, usually, I won't get sad by eating those or by the thought of it but this time all the things and all the memories I had with Kendall come hitting me like a truck, again.

"Why did you two had to remind me about loving her.. about Kendall. " I whisper to no one

"See I told you not to go in the rain with me. "

Kendall told me as I'm sneezing continually in an uncomfortable manner, whenever I get a cold

"But you were there too, why aren't you sick? " I reasoned

"I dunno hmm maybe I'm just too beautiful to get sick. "

she said while I just looked at her stoically

"Wow. Don't be so conceited babe~ "

I teased her, rubbing my nose because of cold

"I'm just saying the truth. "

she then raised a brow at me

"... "

"Kiss me. " she demanded

"W-why? "

I was surprised by what she said

"Just do it, kiss me. "

This girl was pretty damaged on the head, she's lucky I love her

"Where's my kiss? "

I just looked at her, smiling evilly in my mind

"Hello, I'm sick, in case you forgot. "

I reminded her

"So I don't get a kiss, Y/n? "

she said making a cute face

"Nope. "

I kept myself strong not to gave in to her cuteness

"Okayyy then... "

but before I can process what she meant I was already pulled into a forced kiss

Uhh because you know, I didn't agree with it...

Hours later I was already okay but I heard a coughing and sneezing sound from the guest room, then I saw Kendall lying on the bed sneezing the hell out of her.

"See, look what my kiss did to you. "

I told her, a little mad about myself too because I let myself gave into her kisses

"It's okay as long as we're sick together. "

she told me with her cute face smiling drowsily at me

"I'm not anymore. " I told her

"Kenn you look awful.. "

I said again as I noticed her face

"I know Y/n/n... I want a Pocky. "

I squint my eyes at what she said

"But it's midnight... " I told her

"Babe~ I need my pocky now! "

she whined like a baby

"Fine, I'll get you your Pocky.. "

I kissed her forehead as I go

"Y/n/n, that's not the pocky I want... "

she told me when I came back holding a chocolate Pocky Sticks

"How is it not? it is a Pocky stick. "

I'm confused, I don't understand because it was a Pocky Stick I'm holding

"I need the strawberry one.. stro- be- re, strawberry~ "

Kendall told me as if I'm a three-year-old kid who was learning to pronounce a word

I smiled at her because she was so childish

"We don't have strawberry flavored anymore, Kenny. "

I told her because it was true we don't have that flavor anymore

"Y/n/n~ "

again she whined like a child

"Okay, okay! "

I gave up, remembering how funny I found a way just to turn her chocolate Pocky Sticks into a strawberry one

I smiled at how cute and childish she was with me. Is she liked that until now? Like the old Kendall? Can we be liked that again? But I doubt that, I don't know any more after I gave her all the heartaches and made myself invisible from her for almost eight years. It's like I'm also dead to her.

'Do you think she'll just forget that easily?' I groan as I give myself an eye roll

"What the heck Y/n, you can't just say that and leave me! "

Kendall said, shook about me breaking up with her

"I don't have a choice, Kendall. "

I said in devastation

"Yes you have, you have a fucking reason to deny that offer Y/n, and just stay here with us! "

She yelled out of anger

"What Kendall, what choice do I have? My mother's situation is too much proof for me to take that offer! "

I told her

I had no choice my mom was sick and my father couldn't afford to pay for my university, then my aunt offered me that she will pay my tuition for the whole college if I took care of her house in Kildare

"I'm not a reason for that then huh? " She huffed at me

"Don't play with my words Kendall, don't make me liked you Kendall because I'm not like that, I'm not you. Don't stop me for what I want just because you don't want to study for college because you already have a job for being a model, I'm not saying I don't want you to or I don't support you with that but I want this Kendall, I need this for my family, for my mother, for us, for me.. for my future and our future! "

I told her already crying, I know I had hurt her so much for saying those but my emotions were too much to handle

"Baby I'm sorry.. but I don't understand why do you have to break up with me. "

She said, hugging me and crying as well

"B-because, because being your girlfriend I can't fulfill your needs anymore b- "

I said but she cut me off

"I don't care. "

She said and getting about what she meant, I glared at her

"No, I mean the time there is different. There will be a very big gap between us now. If I go to sleep because of school or chores, just then you will wake up in the morning or the other way around and baby, please don't worry about me I will just go there to study and to reach my goals in life, including you. "

Looking at her with full of admiration and love the whole time I was saying

"Okay... if you want that, I will not gonna stop you now. I told you before that I will support you in whatever you want and I'll be there for you whatever may happen. I'm just saying that you don't have to go away to study, there are many schools here to go to so you don't have to study in another country. You know how much I want you here with me Y/n and you know how much I love you. I just can't take you being away from me, even just by the thought of it. "

She said. I know it was hard for her to let me go and it was hard for me too, hearing that she was letting me, and even if it was my wish

"I love you too Kendall but I have to do this to help my family.. my mother. "

I told her truthfully

"I know Y/n, baby I know... that's why I'm letting you. "

She said. Caressing my face while looking at me with love

"I'm so sorry.. you know this is hard for me too as much as I don't want to leave you and my family, this is the only chance I can help them. "

I said. Closing my eyes, savoring the sensations of her touched

"Kendall please, look at me.."