I sighed when my phone went off for the hundredth fucking time. All I wanted to do was get some good sleep, but muthafuckas don't wanna see me win. Seeing that it was my mom calling, I hit the answer button then put the phone up to my ear. This better be a life or death situation that she's calling me about.

"Sorry to wake you baby, but Yesenia's water broke. She's been having contractions all night. We're at the hospital right now, and they said she's already seven centimeters dilated" my mom said.

I just stared up at the ceiling with a straight face.

"What does that have to do with me?"

"What do you mean? Your sister wants you to be here. You agreed to be in the room" my mom said.

"That changed when she tried to get me sent down the road."

My mom sighed, "she regrets that Jeremiah. After that Samantha girl told her about Travis, she's been regretting what she did to you. She didn't know that Travis was willing to kill her and Nayeli just to get back with his ex. She thought that Travis loved her. Yesenia is your sister, forgive her for her mistakes."

"Don't call my phone until my niece is here, respectfully."

I ended the call then put my phone back on the nightstand. Why the fuck would I forgive Yesenia? Before all this new information came to light, Yesenia wasn't willing to forgive me for killing Travis. Her and my mom constantly throw my past mistakes in my face. They never forgave me for my mistakes, so I'm keeping that same energy. All I care about is my niece. She's innocent in this situation.

"Who was that?" Genesis mumbled.

"Nobody, go back to sleep."

Genesis sighed then turned to face me. I knew that she could hear the frustration in my voice.

"Talk to me" she said.

"Not right now Gen. We'll talk later."

Genesis climbed on top of me then looked into my eyes. "I SAID, talk to me" she said.

I instantly stiffened up. Fuck talking, I wanted to break her back in. I can't get enough of her. I love how she's always here for me, I love how she forces me to talk shit out even when I don't want to, I just love the fact that she's always down for me. God really sent me an angel.

I let out a loud sigh before speaking up. "Yesenia is about to give birth. Before we fell out, I agreed to be in the room with her while she gives birth. I don't wanna do that anymore. Shit changed when she switched up on me. Now she wants to apologize after finding out that Travis didn't give two shits about her, as if that shit wasn't obvious as fuck already."

"I think your sister is an evil, messy, dizzy bitch, but I'm all for forgiveness. You can forgive her, but you don't have to forget. You don't have to fuck with her. Forgive her for YOURSELF. Once you actually forgive her, you'll be more at peace with this situation. It's fucking your mental up right now because you have so much hate towards her. You're still not over the situation, and that's understandable baby. Let go of this shit for YOU" Genesis said.

Gen's advice will probably go over a lot of people's heads, but it stuck to mine. I knew exactly what she meant by "letting go". I have a lot of pride, so that shit won't be easy. This situation ain't worth holding onto anymore though. My mind ain't built to deal with stressful ass situations like this because I'll lash out at any time. Sooner or later I'll forgive Yesenia, but I'll never forget what she did. I will never fuck with her as heavy as I used to.

"You're right Gen. Ima take your advice."

"I know. Now give me some of that good lovin' that you gave me last night" Genesis said.

I laughed then flipped her over. She was 'bout to get some good lovin', alright.

"I fucked up badly bro. She blocked me on everything" Zander said as he shook his head.

"That's your fault."

"Facts" Kareem added.

"Fuck both of y'all. Harmony don't mean shit to me anymore" Zander said.

"Yeah, she doesn't mean shit to you. She meant something to you when you had her up in your crib though. You're dumb for even trying to fuck with her and Sammy at the same time. You know Harmony be running her dick sucker too much."

"I planned on doing right by Sam though. I wanted to make her my wife. Do y'all know how good her pussy is? How good she cooks? How freaky she gets? Man, she's a Jhene Aiko vibe" Zander said.

"You fucked that up bro. You should've did right by her the first time. If Harmony wouldn't have crossed you then you would still be fucking her. You just dumb as fuck" Kareem said as he shook his head.

"On crip" I added.

"Be honest, do y'all think I can get her back?" Zander asked.

"Hell nah" Kareem and I said in unison.

Zander smacked his lips then waved both of us off. I don't blame Sammy for cutting his ass off. He allowed another woman to have one up on her. That's bad business. Your woman is always supposed to have the upper hand on a bitch. That's why you gotta keep it real with your girl at all times, even if it hurts her.

"I'm finna go. Weirdo ass niggas" Zander mumbled as he walked towards the front door.

"He finna go cry in the car" Kareem said.

We both busted out laughing.

"Nah, I'm finna go cry at yo bitch house" Zander said as he walked back into the living room to grab his phone.

"What nigga?" Kareem asked as he mugged Zander.

"You heard me" Zander said.

Kareem nodded then bucked at Zander, causing him to flinch.

I laughed, "scary ass nigga."

"Shut up bitch" Zander said as he mushed my head.

"Aye nigga, don't touch me. I ain't Kareem. I'll really get up and beat yo ass, word to mommy."

"You act like a old ass, grumpy ass man. Fuck both of y'all" Zander said before walking off.

We fuss like this all the time, but we'll be cool again tomorrow. This is what brothers do.

"Anyways, you and Kelis straight?"

"Yeah, we're good bro. We been spending more time together and shit. We never really took the time to get to know each other, so we're doing that now. We ain't got a choice now that we have a kid on the way. You and Gen good though?" Kareem asked.

I smiled just from hearing her name. "We're always good."

Kareem laughed then shook his head. "Yo, you a cheesy ass muthafucka. Niggas wasn't even smiling like that at first, now all you do is smile" Kareem said.

I shrugged, "I got a reason to smile now."

"That's a fact. I really fuck with Gen. She changed you and gave you a reason to live. Before this you felt like you ain't have shit to lose. She came into your life and changed you within two months. That was God" Kareem said.

"Facts cuz, he sent me an angel. I'm forever grateful for her and Kaiser."

I been had the money, hoes, jewelry and etc. My life didn't feel complete until God brought Gen and Kaiser into it though. I have parents and a sister, but I never felt like I needed to live for them. I always felt like they didn't need me and that they'd be straight if I left this earth. Gen and Kaiser make me feel NEEDED. They need me, and they won't be straight without me. Financially? Yes, they'll be okay. Physically? Yes, they'll be okay. Mentally? They'll be shattered because I'm everything that they were missing in life. They give me a reason to live, and that's why I move a lot differently now. They really changed me for the better.

I stood over Nayeli's cot, just watching her sleep. She looked like an angel. She definitely had me thinking about making a baby. I know there's more to having a baby than just looking at a cute face all day, and that's why I'ma chill...for now. Kaiser's lil busy ass is enough for Gen and I right now.

"You can hold her if you want" Yesenia said.

I ignored her then continued to watch Nayeli. I could've told her ass to shut the fuck up talking to me, but I'm trying to take Genesis' advice.

"How long are you gonna stay mad at me? How many times do I have to apologize? I'm sorry J. I made a mistake" Yesenia said.

"Aight mama and pops" I said as I hugged my mom then dapped my dad up.

I was about to walk out, but I had one last thing to say.

"Yesenia" I called out.

She looked up at me with tears in her eyes.

"I forgive you, but I'll never fuck with you again. Maybe one day we can be cordial. Shit will never be the same though. I rarely ever get hurt, but you hurt me with that one. I wish you a speedy recovery."

I said what I had to say then I walked out of the room. I feel like my response was mature. I could've said a million other fucked up things to her. I'm making progress with this "forgive and forget" shit.

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