❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|Getting somewhere yet so far away|

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The next morning I wake up by my alarm clock ringing softly and I smile as I feel Adam's strong arms around me. "Good morning, baby. Sleep well?" He asks me. Adam, my fiancé and I were together for five years before he proposed to me. Honestly, that day is the best day of my life but then again I do have a long list of good days, most of them with Adam. "With your arms around me, always" I say as I turn around in his arms to be facing him. His blonde hair is so messy and all over the place, but I think my hair is like that too.

"You're so adorable" He whispers into my ear as he starts to tickle my stomach. Laughing I push him away or at least attempt to as he is a trainer and he does have muscles and is much stronger than me. "S-stop" I say as I try to pry his hands off me, but on the other hand I don't want his hands to go away. "Fine, but you owe me a kiss" He says and chuckles, music to my ears.

I smile as I get out of bed once I've made it out of his arms and walk out of the bedroom and into the bathroom but before I close the door, I turn around. "Make breakfast and then I will consider kissing you" I say with a laugh as I close the door and don't allow him to answer to that. I hop into the shower and once I'm done I dry myself and brush my teeth. Taking a hairbrush I brush the tangles in my caramel colored hair. Heading out of the bathroom in my bra and panties and go back into the bedroom.

Adam is in the kitchen as I smell cooking, I would guess eggs and bacon for breakfast. I dress myself into black skinny jeans and a baby blue blouse. Looking into the mirror to see that I look perfect. When I'm dressed I head to the kitchen to see him wearing a too small apron. I smile when I sit down. He turns around and puts a plate in front of me. "Breakfast is served, my lady" He says but is trying to hold in his laughter which I am too. "So, now you're my servant?" I ask him with a friendly chuckle.

He only gives me a smile. "For you, I'd be anything" He says. Picking up another plate he sits down next to me and we start eating. I notice that he has already made smoothies for us. Looking at the clock on the wall to see that the clock is only half past six in the morning and the sun is already coming up with grace and it brings nothing but a smile on my face and happiness in my heart as I am here with the man that I love.

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Walking into the prison after being let through the gates I head for the staff lounge where I put my stuff into my locker and then get a cup from a shelf, heat up water. I make some green tea to take with me to my office where I unlock the door and walk inside. The flowers still stand there but they are getting a bit weaker, but the scent still lingers and it keeps them alive. As I was about to close the door it is pushed back and someone enters my office. Trina dressed in her guard's uniform.

"So, how is he?" She asks me and I raise an eyebrow at her as I don't know what she is talking about. "Who?" I ask her as I sit down by my desk and take a sip of my tea. "Silas" She says as if it is the most obvious thing in the world. "You know I can't talk about my patients" I tell her and she rolls her eyes as she throws herself in my brown leather chair. "Boring... You do know who he is, right?" She asks me but I shake my head. "I don't know and I don't want to know" I tell her.

Trina should've already known that by now because this is how I work. "Anyway, you're coming to game night on Friday?" She asks me. Swallowing the sip that I took before a smile rises on my lips. "I wouldn't miss it for the world" I tell her and she laughs as she stands up. "Great!... Well, my shift is starting and I will be coming in only a couple of minutes because I'm on duty to bring you your patient" She says to me with a half smile on her face but her eyes show me happiness.

She leaves and I prepare for the patient that I'm going to be having in a few minutes. Taking one last sip of my tea (even when it's not finished) and then going to take the folder where I have her record. In minutes the door opens and Trina walks in with a woman in chains and chains her to the chair and then she leaves. "Good morning, Ms. Rosa" I greet happily but she only groans and rolls her eyes, almost scoffing at me. "What's so good about it" She says and I smile to her.

"Well, It's good because of a lot of things, happiness, health and love" I say to her as I caress the ring on my finger, tracing it and feeling the happy feeling inside me only grow. "If I didn't know better, I'd say you were a hippie" She says as an insult but my parents were hippies so I don't get offended by that. "Why do you think it's such a bad morning?" I ask her and I'm ready to write down anything that she says. "Hello! Have you looked at this place?!" She says and does some hand gestures. "Sometimes, you just look past what you want and see what you do have" I tell her and she lets out a groan.

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The office is silent as Silas sits across from me and doesn't want to talk at all. Only seventeen minutes have passed and not once has he spoken to me, even when I've tried to ask him something. Though the silence is always comfortable but his kohl black eyes are only looking at me, never gazing away from me and that however makes me feel a bit uncomfortable but I don't say anything about it.

His gaze is intense and I can't tell what is hidden inside his eyes, I'm not sure if he is even feeling anything about now. When studying his face I notice a bruise on his jaw and cheek and dried blood on the side of his right eyebrow, his knuckles are also bruised and with a couple of small wounds. "Did you get into a fight?" I ask him after a small silence. I write down that he did get hurt and where his injuries are. I also add a question mark because I don't know how he got them or why.

"What if I did? It's not illegal and if it were, I'm already in jail, what else can they do?" He asks, though I don't believe that was a question that he wanted answered. I write down that Silas seemed much more open yesterday than he does now and I also add a question mark because I don't know the reason for that. In truth I need to put a question mark everywhere because the reasons are unknown to me, for now. "Getting into a fight is perfectly normal human behavior. Evidence have shown that not even the first humans liked each other and their response was violence" I say to him.

He rolls his eyes at me. "Some even entourage fighting in different matters like boxing or ninjas..." I trail off with a goofy smile on my face. Raindrops land softly on the window as clouds had taken it on themselves to fill the sky. "Do you have a nerd answer for everything I say?" He asks me. I smile and nod. "Knowing facts is knowing the universe" I say to him but it doesn't seem that he understands it. "You are different" He says, the words that he spoke the first time we met yesterday and the first words that he said to me.

I write that down as I continue to study him, he's bored but it somehow seems like he enjoys being here, perhaps it is better than the jail cell but still. "Is there anything you wish to talk about? Anything at all. I'm here to listen to you and guide you" I say to him, crossing my leg over the other one. "Speaking to you is like speaking to a child" He states. I'm not sure if this is a insult or a compliment because I actually like the inner child within me.

I makes me only smile to him and that makes him give me an odd look then he shakes his head. "Whatever you are on must be strong" He mutters before he leans back on the chair. It actually makes me giggle a bit but then I clear my throat. "Now, you don't have to tell me but I would like to know why you got into a fight" I say. I need to work on being firmer with people because Silas seems to have picked on the fact that I'm not pushy.

Also he is pretty defensive when I ask him things, always directs the conversion to somewhere else and passes the time that way. "Why does that matter to you?" He asks me and I lightly shake my head. "To me it means nothing except for the fact that I don't like violence but Silas, you getting into a fight does no impact on my life, only on yours" I speak. His face turns into one of shock before he smirks but I did see his shocked expression, even if it was only there for a second.

"Disrespect" He says, that one word says more than he knows. I write that down and I know he's not saying it to me, he's telling me the reason why he fought. "What words or actions compelled you to do fight or fight back?" I ask him as I look down at the paper as I continue to write how he has a big ego and he must have some kind of reputation that he wishes to keep. "I don't remember" He softly speaks, his voice low that I could barely hear him but I did. Nodding I write it down.

"Often the reason behind violence is forgotten because it is so small, yet it is strange how one little trigger can cause such behavior. Still that reason that did because it is often the most important one for if you know the reason why you get angry and lash out, you can control it and become one with it" I tell him. His look on my face never changes, the mixture between confusion and annoyance. "You might not understand now but I'm here to help you become one with yourself, even the parts that others have deemed bad and evil" I say finally.

"You are different" He speaks after a couple of moments have passed by us and were filled with nothing but silence yet this time the silence came at us with open arms. "How come you believe me to be different?" I ask him and he shrugs as the door opens and guards enter, even more than were yesterday. I get the feeling that is because of the fact that he did get into a fight. "See you on Thursday" I say to him as he's being taken out the door and soon it closes and I'm alone.

Writing down a few notes on how I think this session has gone and I realize that he has opened up. He might not have noticed it himself but in the second session he has already opened up. Opening up does not exactly mean talking about their lives or past or even future but it does also mean talking in general and holding up conversation and that is progress believe it or not. Silas is going somewhere, a long way that he has to go but soon he will get there. As soon as the motivation hits him he will not want to stop walking on his journey.

Once I'm done with writing down all the notes I put them into the folder before I put that into the drawer but before I lock it I take out another file for my next patient because he will be coming in a half an hour. Just in time for me to get myself some tea as my throat is feeling a bit sore and talking to my patients does not make it better. I walk out of my office and to the staff lounge with the cup in my hand.

Heating some water and not before long I have my green tea to make me feel better and because I like it. "Not a coffee person?" Kate says beside me as she is drinking coffee. Kate is another therapist in the prison but we've not really bonded that much because we have different methods of doing our jobs. "Yeah, I tried it once, did not like the taste of it" I tell her as I take a sip of my tea but my tongue does get burned a bit from the heat of the hot water as I forgot to blow on it to cool it down.

"I tried tea once and it is just too gross" She says with a hint of a giggle. I sigh a bit. "It's not for everyone, I suppose" I tell her but after that we really had nothing else to say to each other and silence took a hold on us and not long after she left. It doesn't matter because I need to get back to my office, walking down the hallways and greeting the guards as I walk past them, I start hearing some noises on my left.

Confused I walk over to the noise to see the prisoner cafeteria. Guards are running past me inside it as the noise is coming from over there. Slowly I approach but I've never been there so I have no idea what I will be facing. However, the element of surprise is always the greatest in life and especially when you're going head straight into the unknown. I walk over to the bars that are the only thing that are standing between me and the prisoners. Then I see the thing that I never thought I would see in my life. Silas fighting another inmate in a real physical fight.