❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|The fear sinks in|

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Wednesday is my busiest day of the week for I have seven patients and I only get one break and that is the lunch break. Despite having so much to do, I always find myself enjoying the day like never before. Something about the middle of the week just puts me in a good mood and as I sit in my office sipping on some tea because my throat is still feeling a bit sore and it might even be worse than it was yesterday but I am also with a patient sitting across from me.

"I loved him, why would he do this to me?" She asks me and I give her a sympathetic look. She fell in love and the two of them got into trouble and he sold her out and now she's here. "When greed plays nothing else matter but as soon as the greed is gone the love will surface and he will realize what he did wrong. But, tell me, how did that make you feel?" I ask her as I write down. She is finally opening up to me after a month of keeping it to herself.

"Angry and I don't want to talk about it" She answers as tears form in her eyes. I get a tissue paper from my desk and give it to her to wipe her tears but more keep going. "To be able to get through it, the pain you have to accept how it made you feel and you need to understand the feelings and become one with them. Only then will you find closure for the things that he has done" I tell her and she nods. "You might not know why he did what he did but sometimes you need to push the anger aside and ask, ask for the reason because then you might see it clearer" I continue.

Her tears make me ache as I don't like seeing others feeling pain or sorrow. Though dealing with the pain and feeling the pain in the heart is necessary to be able to heal and become the person that is deep inside, only hidden because of the sorrow and pain. "I feel betrayed because he was the one that wanted us to be together, he told me that we were going to move in together and start a family. He wanted that and then he left me to be arrested" She begins.

The tears are running down her face and her voice cracks but she doesn't stop. I write down every word that she says and make sure to get everything because this is important. "I was happy that were going to have a family and a life together. I felt sad because his job kept making him do dangerous things that I did not want him to do. I felt confusion when he wanted me to come along with him" She explains to me but somehow I get the feeling that she's missing a couple of part but I don't question it.

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"Just two days and then I will be beating you in everything. I've been practicing" Trina says as we are eating lunch in the cafeteria. I laugh as I eat my pasta leftovers from dinner last night. Surprisingly when Adam and I were cooking it went perfectly as the two of us aren't exactly the best at cooking. "I don't know about that, I mean I have studied the human behaviors" I tell her and she rolls her eyes at me. "You and your studies of humans annoy me" She says groaning.

Trina thinks it's a bit creepy how I can sometimes predict what people are going to do next based on their feelings, behavior and personality. "I'm still winning" She then says and I let out a laugh. Trina is the most competitive person that I've ever met in my life, when she's in the zone she will do whatever it takes to win which sometimes can be rather predictable. "Yeah, but only because I allow it to happen which is not going to happen" I tell her and smile an innocent smile to her.

"Oh... it's on" She says. Both of us are thinking how much we are going to win on Friday in just two days and then we will know who is the best. Every month we have a game night, where it is just the two if spending time together, doing something that we both enjoy. We have been doing this for about three years now and it has been working perfectly. "Adam bought me a cake yesterday and we watched Titanic" I say dreamily to her as I remember how romantic it was yesterday, just the two of us with a cake and Titanic.

She smiles at me. "Again? Haven't you watched it about a million times?" She asks me and I shake my head. "Only about a thousand times which is a whole lot less than million" I say to her and she groans as she rolls her eyes. "You're so childish" She says and I giggle but somehow that reminds me o Silas, because he called me a child which I'm not offended but it does feel strange to be called that even when I know that I act like a child sometimes but I like that. And now I'm only confusing myself over here.

A proud look rushes to my face when she says that. "I know" I say as I finish my pasta and drink water with it. "Now, what is going on with you, I notice that you're wearing lipstick and you're shifting in your seat a lot, so, is there something you want to tell me?" I ask her. Trina's eyes widen when I ask that as she did not expect me to say that but that only makes me raise an eyebrow, she definitely has something to say to me and I would want to hear that.

Giggling she looks around us to see if anyone is walking past out table or if anyone is listening to us, my eyebrow gets raised once again. "Trina" I say as she finally looks at me but I'm not sure what her look is telling me, embarrassment it a mixture between happiness and sadness. "I had sex last night... with Mike..." She say and I nearly choke on the water that I was drinking as my eyes widen by her words. "What?" I ask, much louder than I had planned and now a couple of eyes run over to us.

"Shhh" She shushes me and I roll my eyes as I take her hands. "Tell me everything, but skip the... you know..." I trail off as I don't want to hear every last detail. Mike is a guard that she has been crushing on since she started working here which have now been four years but not once has she nor he made a move. Though I had come up with the conclusion that he likes her too for he always grows awkward around her like she does him and it has been hard to watch them like this.

"There is nothing much to say, we met in the hallways and one thing led to another and soon we're in the janitor closet having sex and let me tell you, he's a beast and now I'm so sore after being attacked" She says. I make a disgusting look. "Trina, less information please" I tell her but she only rolls her eyes. "Sex is natural. I'm surprised that you did not learn that in your creepy human studies" Trina says. She takes a bite out of an apple that she has with her now that she has finished her hamburger that she had with her.

"I wasn't really learning about pleasure, more like strategy and the brain and human movements" I tell her, trying to shut down this conversation for I am blushing madly even talking about this now. Trina laughs as she is chewing. "Yeah, movement aka sex" She says and I roll my eyes. I think she can turn every conversation back into that. "I think I'm going to go now" I say smiling as I stand up from the table and start walking to my office. "Lea, wait" She calls after me as she runs over to me. "Here, take this" She says.

Handing me a taser, I frown. "Trina, you know how I don't like these things and I have nothing to do with it" I tell her and she groans. I try to hand it back to her but she wasn't having it and puts it in my pocket. "Just in case, I don't want to see you hurt and one of your patients is the most wanted criminal in the world" She says. Trina has a pleading look on her face and it makes me feel guilty. "Fine, but only today" I tell her with a grin which makes her nod.

She doesn't know that I don't have a session with him today. "I really must get back, my next session is starting in a couple of minutes and I need to make this ready for them. I have a busy day ahead of me and I'm pretty sure you have someone to guard" I say to her as I really need to get going. I really should not be late for this session, they really hate it when someone is late. "Fine, but we're meeting up before we go home" She says and then we go into a different direction.

Heading back into my office where the silence greets me but the flowers from my fiancée are always there to help me feel better and put a smile on my face, even when I smile because of everything yet I can't help it, I just love smiling and I love smiling all the time because of everything because life is great and it just makes me happy. I walk over to the window to look at the sun and even the sun is smiling on this beautiful and happy day.

Sighing with happiness as I look down at the ring on my finger that I just love playing with as a knock on my door started me and breaks me from my thoughts. Guards enter without saying a word but that isn't what scares me the most. The person that was supposed to be in my session today is not being taken inside my office but Silas is. "Wait, what is going on? He isn't supposed to be in a session today?" I ask one of the guards but she shrugs. "I don't know but we have our orders to take him here" She says and then she along with the rest of the guards leave.

Confused I look at Silas who is only smirking at me. "Trying to get rid of me so soon, Dr." He says but I only sigh as I go to my drawer to get his file. Shaking my head I sit down. "Of course now, that would not be kind to you and I see that you have been through so much which does remind me, how are you feeling?" I ask him. He does have more bruises on his face that makes it so sad that he is in pain.

Darkly chuckling, he leans back and crosses his leg over his other one. "Just skip the part where you play the concerned Dr. and just do some of that talking" He says and I raise an eyebrow at him. His dark hair is so perfectly messy that it should be a crime and it does make me want to put my hands in there for a reason that leaves me confuses and it is unknown to me. "I'm not playing concerned, I am concerned. You are my patient and I care about you" I tell him with a smile, speaking only the truth in the purest form.

His face hardens at my words and it is hard to understand why. "You're even more naive than I thought you were" He speaks and I feel a bit offended but I don't let him know that. "Tell me, Silas, what is the reason in hour opinion why you are heaving a session with me today?" I ask him, controlling the conversation because it always seems to be his greatest hobby to divert it somewhere entirely else. He shrugs but never takes hie eyes off me.

His kohl black eyes that always are as empty as they were when I first met him, however I know there is something inside his eyes. "I got beat up, reason enough" He says, completely trying to avoid this and I won't have that. "Yes, I know and it was quiet... gruesome. Being humiliated in front of everyone and then dragged away like if you were nothing but a marshmallow" I speak, trying to act tough but that isn't exactly my strong suit. Silas lets out a chuckle. I write down that he is trying to not attack me because his fists are clenched and there is anger in him, that I can feel.

His ego is large and I suppose that is because people tell him to be the most wanted criminal of all time but I just can't find myself believing that, he is trying to hide something. His feelings and who he truly is but I will help him let that person out into the world. "I'm not one to cross, just remember that when I get out of here" He tells me in a dark tone that sends shivers down my spine, like his husky voice always does.

Silas nor anyone know how much just his voice makes me feel and the shivers are annoying yet I find myself enjoying them for some reason, which I will find out soon enough. "And what would happen if someone were to cross you?" I ask him. I never knew that I would not be prepared for the answer that he was going to give me. His eyes only darken and this twisted look comes across his face that makes me tremble in... fear? Not know why I feel fear for him, my mind is trying to make sense of this whole thing.

His eyebrows furrow and the look he gives me is so scary that I feel afraid of him, afraid of someone that I've not known for more than three days and yet I feel fear. I don't know what he has done but something tells me that what he has done is not rainbows and unicorns. "I will have to my favorite activity in the world and it would be the most spectacular grand show anyone has ever seen" He tells me, his voice is so dark that I barely recognize it anymore. My heart speeds up. "And what is that?" I ask as I write down the words that he said. "" Silas says with a twisted grin.