❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|A tragedy|

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"The prison is under your control? I don't see how that can be possible" I say. Somehow I feel this intense amount of fear run through me, but it's fear as in fear of him but the things that my mind comes up with. I don't think I can ever be afraid of Silas, not really at least. He said the prison is under his control and that brings me thinking. "You're a clever girl, I suppose you can find that out on your own" He tells me, breaking me from my thoughts.

I can't figure it out on my own and that is why I asked. Silas is a riddle that I can't seem to be able to crack and the more I get the know him, the more I realize that maybe this riddle is just so hard for me that it's not even possible to crack it. You might think that getting to know him would help me solve it but it has only brought me back to square one. "All right, you control the prison. Then why are you not a free man out in the world?" I ask him which only deepens his smirk.

"All in due time. Everyone has their script. Now, all we have to do is wait for them to read their lines and the play goes on" He says. I notice that his eyes run over to the clock on the wall and I turn around to look too and see that we have less than five minutes left of our session. A pang forms in my heart for some reason as the seconds tick by and our session will be over. "Since we have little time, I want to ask you if there is anything you'd like to add. Anything at all?" I ask him.

His smirk turns into a grin before he stands up and walks over to the door or halfway to the door where a guard is watching inside my office. "I've got nothing more to say. You've heard all there is" He speaks and then the door to my office opens and the guards enter and take him away in chains. As soon as he and the other guards are gone, Trina walks into my office. "I still can't believe how you can have him in your office without the chains" She says.

She comes over to me and hugs me which I happily return. "He won't hurt me" I tell her. I truly believe that Silas won't harm me in any way. He might seem like he's someone that is tough but he's actually rather sweet, once you get to know him a bit better. "I can't let you get hurt again" She tells me and we break the hug. I smile at her, telling her that I'm all right. "I know" I tell her. "Trina, what is going on with you and Kaden?" I ask her.

Since he's not here I can ask her as I already know that there is something going on with them. She sighs as she sits down on the chair that Silas sat in while I take my chair. "Wow, so this is what it feels like to be in a session with you" She says, referring to her sitting in the chair and me asking her questions. I give her a look and she rolls her eyes. "There is nothing going on with him and I" She says but I get the feeling she's not being entirely truthful to me right now.

I raise an eyebrow at her which I know she can't resist. "Didn't look like it at lunch when you were glaring at each other like you wanted to hurt one another" I tell her and she sighs as he looks at me. "Fine, there may be something going on but I'm handling it" She says but I only deepen my look so she'd tell me. "Kaden isn't the person that you think he is" She begins and I smile at her. "At first no one is but with time you learn the things they hide" I tell her.

She doesn't know it but she was like that before and I've seen how when she meets new people she puts on a brave face, showing them that she's not one to mess around with. "That is true but his name isn't even Kaden" She says and I furrow my eyebrows at her. "What are you talking about?" I ask her and she stands up. "I can't, I've already said too much. I have to go" She hurries to say and before I could even stand up she has walked out of my office. Leaving me confused and unsure of what had happened here.

Sitting back down I go over the things that have happened today and how confused I am. It seems that everyone is leaving me in the dark about everything and I don't really like it. A couple of minutes later a knock on my office breaks me out of my thoughts and I stand up as the door opens. The warden walks in with a sorrow look on his face. "Dr. Russell, I fear there is something I need to tell you" He says. The guards that he had with him close the door so t's just the two of us.

"What is it? Is there something wrong?" I ask him. He looks up at me. "No, nothing's wrong with me. However, your patient, the one that attacked you" He begins and I nod, allowing him to continue. "He was found dead in his cell this morning. He was murdered" He finally says after a moment or two. My eyes widen when those words have left his out and I'm shocked at what he said when the information sinks in to my mind. "What?" I ask surprised. That is so horrible that someone would hurt another one.

"How did this happen?" I ask him shocked. I just can't believe this, I can't believe that this could happen. I thought prison was a safe place to be, sure I did get hurt but that man did not deserve to die. There was a way to save him and Iw as going to help him. "We don't know. The cameras were turned off before it had happened and they did not come back live until he was already dead" The warden tells me. Why would someone turn off the cameras? And why not let someone out? I'm sure that this was not done by someone who is in prison but someone who works in the prison.

Then I think back to Silas' words and how he said that he controls the prison but he did not know of what had happened to me until when he came to my office or did he know sooner? All if this is just so hard for me to think of and wrap my head around. "I understand that you may want to take a time off and that is all right. A death like this, especially when something like what happened yesterday took place is hard and you can have whatever time you need" He tells me.

I know that I did not know this man for long but he was my patient and even now I can still feel his hands on my wrist as if he were still holding me but he isn't. I shake my head. "I don't need time" I simply say, not knowing what else to say. Because of all of this I'm getting sick to my stomach. "I also came to make sure you were all right. In my time I've seen how the second day after being attack is always the worst" He says.

"The bruises have started to show and the adrenaline is gone from your body. The shock has drained and all you have is the truth and the memories of what had happened" He finishes as he looks at me in the eyes. I think he's speaking from experience with it himself but he is still right. "I suppose I'm just trying to forget that it ever happened but I know I won't be able to" I say quietly. It is true, I keep seeing it in my mind, playing over and over again in my head for no reason at all.

I wonder what happened to him? He doesn't look like the type of person that has suffered something. "Ah, I see you have figured out what I could've possibly gone through" He says and I furrow my eyebrows at him. How did he know that? I'm confused right about now. "Sit, I'll explain it all" He says to me and I do sit down in my chair and he sits in the one across from me and I wait for him to say something. The warden is the type of man that people don't know much about.

Some say he's just a cruel man but I think that he's gone through a lot and now that I know that something must have happened in his life, I know why he is the way that he is even when I don't exactly know what happened but I am about to find out. "I had a wife once, a beautiful woman. I loved her with all my heart. She was everything that I was not, she was kind, innocent and sweet" He begins and I see tears form in his eyes but he doesn't allow them to fall.

"We were happy together and we planned on starting a family. A year later we were blessed with a child, a baby girl" He says as one tear slips down his face but he's quick to wipe it off. I listen closely to what he's saying. "In my youth I was not an honest man and I got in with the wrong sort of people. Even then I owed them money so when I was at work they went to my house where my wife and daughter were inside sleeping soundly in the night" He says.

I reach over and take his hand to comfort him and I give him a sad smile when he looks at me. "That night they torched the house and burned it to the ground. My wife and daughter... could not make it out" He says. My heart feels for him and them as they had a such horrible fate. "Their bones were found the next day, she held her as they burned alive in there" He finishes and I don't need to hear more of the story. My cheeks are wet from crying as this story hits me hard.

Feeling pain for him and what has happened to him. "But that isn't all" He says to me. I had thought that he was finished with it but he wasn't. He looks at me with sorrow in his eyes and I can tell that this is so hard for him to say. He's having a hard time even saying this to me. "I buried them in the cemetery and in the funeral the men who did this to her came to me and they beat me until unconsciousness and only then I realized what they had done when I woke up" He says.

He lifts the pants up his leg to show me. I gasp when I see it and the tears are running down my cheeks. On his calf are white scar marks that looked to have been deep. They are in the shape of fire. I didn't know what I could say in the matter and I don't know what I can do to help him. "I'm sorry" Is all I could even choke out of me. He has suffered so much but he still stands there. He shakes his head. "It is not your doing" He whispers and gives me a sad smile.

"When the heart is hurting those words often feel right to be said for both parties" I tell him and he lightly chuckles. "You therapists always know what to say, don't you?" He asks me and I nod. For a moment he looks to be thinking then he turns to look at me once again. "Would you mind if I went to you for sessions? I could of course pay for them" He asks me. I nod. "Of course but I don't need money from you. Consider it a favor for a friend. You've been so kind to me these past days and I want to do something for you" I tell him.

He gives me a shocked look but then he collects himself and smiles at me. "If that is what you want. On what days do you have an empty spot?" He asks me. I think for a minute but then I remember. "Well, since he died, his sessions are no longer required. You could be in the times that he was in. I can send you the schedule and if you can't make it then I suppose I can move something around" I tell him.

He is the warden and he must be busy during the day. He stands up and walks over to me and puts his hand out. "I think it will work out in the end" He tells me as I stand up and take his hand and we shake on it. "It will be an honor to be in your sessions" He says to me with a smile on his face which I gladly return. "And it will be healthy for you to know that soon you'll become the man that is deep inside" I tell him with a smile.

The warden walks to the door of my office. "You know, you remind me of my wife" He says to me but before I could ask him why he left my office and I smile as I walk to my computer. Making a file for him and also writing down the things that he has told me as I am sure that he doesn't want to repeat those words again, I could see the wounds are still deep and they have a long road to go to heal, he does too.

I also put in my schedule before I send it to the warden as I'm sure he would want it right away and since he had taken this session, I only have one more for the day. It sees that no one is following the schedule since two times this day I've had a session that was not planned. As I was about to stand up I look outside but under the window I catch the sighting of another note. I roll my eyes as I wonder how Silas got a note there without me seeing since I was always looking at him. The world is a mystery I suppose.