What do you want from me?

Why don't you run from me?

What are you wondering?

What do you know?

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I am officially ready to kick some ass. Okay so in the scale of one to terrible, how good am I at defending myself with a sword, am less terrible. Am on five if we try to scale how quickly I can get The Elsword out of my body. Am on a scale of terrible on how to control my power.

I actually controlled my soul self when it separated from body while fight Sensei yesterday, it acted like my eyes and ears. I don't know how to describe the feelings but it was amazing, not like anything I have ever done or experience before, it's like being in two places at once, my physical body was there and my soul self was there. Out of the body experience is the best.

Well, not as best at Damien beach house. I don't understand this island at all, am not even sure if we are still on Earth and I didn't bother to ask. When I first set my foot on this Island I thought it was a deserted island until I started seeing people. The buildings are old, really old stone buildings and there is Damien's modern beach house.

After my unfortunately encounter with Lady Treta, Damien carries me all the way to his beach house and offered it to me, I didn't think twice before saying yes.

I have been really busy with training and more training, I haven't even had time to talk to Jessica, which is what am trying to work on. I really miss her and Nate, I wonder how they are doing, it's been two weeks and the only thing I have manage to improve here is my strength and endurance.

Am currently sitting inside on the floor of the room, actually am sitting on a pentacle diagram. I love the room Damien gave me,, speaking which Damien and I haven't reestablish contact, we talk normal but I will not let him make fun of me again, I appreciate what he doing but I won't let him treat me like trash again.

Living with him made me realize how mysterious he is, after Sensei woke me up with a bucket of cold water, my body has accustom to waking up early, and whenever I wake up he is never here and if I ask, he always gives me the same reply 'I went out' no explanation...nothing except the stupid frown he always wears. I know I sound like a really broken vinyl but my mind is telling me that he is keeping something from me, I know he is keeping something from me, people keep something from each other a lot but this time it feels like he is keeping something that can actually hurt really bad.

I push all thought of Damien away from my mind and replace them with Jessica, I need to talk to her now if I don't want to lose my mind.

I have never done anything like this before but I have read somewhere that Astral Projection is actually quite simple, interesting and fun.

I place candle on each side of the circle and open the spell book in front of me, I don't know any spell by heart the one I thought I knew are gone. In front of the spell book is a gem object that will help me stay in my Astral Body.

"Ichkic bynder ha afuro oh beay me gahash mi," I cast the spell and snap my fingers.

I appear in my room in The Vale. It worked. Of course it did, I can't believe it worked. I can't wait to tell Jessi-

Oh crap. Actually on second thought, I can wait to tell Jessica after I ask her about what's going on.

I clear my throat to make my presence known but neither of them acknowledge me. I shut my eyes really tight and regret my decision to Astral Project today of all days.

I wish I could just go there and slap the life out of them but I can't because this is just the half version of me standing in front of them. I sigh and snap myself out.

I take a deep breath and open my eyes. Pointless.

I stand up and destroy the circle. Today is my free day and there is nothing for me to do except stare at the beach all day. I could make use of the beach.

I change from my pajamas to a tank top and baggy sweat pant. I don't need a Sensei all the time, I can do this myself. I take my time walking down the stairs and stepping outside the house.

It feels good to be outside, I can feel the ocean calling for me, literally. I push all thought away from my mind and take a sit in front of the ocean, I cross my leg and tuck it under my butt, doing the Buddha pose.

I pack my hair in a messy bun and place my palm on thigh. Focus. I breath in and out, I can feel my mind blank.

Minutes into my meditation, I feel everything around me, the waves of the sea, little things like the flight of the birds, I can feel them in slow motion.

I open my eyes and notice that am somewhere else, well am still where I am but my soul and spirits are somewhere, they are not detached from my body, I can still feel myself.

It's like am inside my head. Everything around me is dark with shiny little stars all around me.

"Hello?" Am not sure why I said that but I wish I can just see someone that can tell me about where I am.

This feels like the times am conscious in my dream and wander around until I find something terrible to push me back to the real world.

"Is anybody here?" My voice is a little louder this time.

Am about to make another loud announcement when I hear a hum. Am I still in my head? I follow the hum to a door, it's a wooden black door. I hope whatever is behind that door is me.

I place my hand on the doorknob and wait a moment, the humming continues, the song sounds familiar. Of course it does, I am in my own head. It would have made better sense if I know the song but it seems impossible because I don't think I have ever heard it before.

I hope I don't get trapped in my own head. Whatever happens, I'll find a way back to the real world. I turn the knob and open the door.

Everything around me changes from the skylight to the living room of an apartment, there is a woman holding a baby sitting on a rocking chair.

I don't have to look around to know that am in Sabine's apartment. I walk to her front and watch as she hums to her baby while wiping her tears, no doubt that the baby is me.

I look so peaceful and cute sleeping with my thumb in my mouth. Didn't know I was a thumb sucker. Why did I forget everything before I met Richard and Corrine?

Sabine stops humming and stare at me, I must have loved the lullaby because I started tearing up. Sabine smiles and places me on her chest, soothing me in a very motherly way, I feel my heart heavy watching this.

"I know baby, I miss him too," She whispers and rub circle on my back.

I fall on the chair and pull my leg to my chest. I promise you Sabine, I will avenge you.

"Camille!" A distance voice calls for me. I close my eyes and swallow hard. Focus.

I open eyes to real world, except the real world is sinking. Am fl- Am losing balance, am gonna-

Oh crap, am going to fall.

I scream as I descend and fall. I close my eyes as am about to land on the sand but instead I feel someone catch me.

I open one eye to be sure that I am dreaming, Damien's blue eyes is staring at me. I swallow hard and chuckle nervously.

"So that just happened," I manage to say without letting my breath get in the way.

He nods. "Yes, you just flew congratulations, you should add it to your powers list," He places me on my feet and take a step back.

"Okay," This is awkward. "What's up?" I ask casually.

"I have three news; the good, the bad and the worse new, which one do you want to hear first?"

That's a very tricky question, of course I want to hear all news. "The worse news will be a good start," I shrug.

He sighs and places in his pocket. "I-" I cut him off.

"Let me guess, you have captured George, Sebastian and Theo for me and you want me to kill them, thank you very much, let's go," I joke in a serious way, I won't mind at all.

"No and killing a soul will damage you forever," He says randomly.

I shrug. "I don't care." I really don't give a fuck a shit about my soul. I have three plans; Find the bastards, kill the bastards, make sure it hurt.

"You should."

I roll my eyes. "Don't tell me you haven't killed anyone before," He seems all dark and broody but I know that deep down, he is ruthless.

He chuckles. "I have killed more than a hundred thousand," He announces.

My mouth drops open. "That is a lot of kills. How old are you?" I ask curiously, I mean he just told me he has killed more than a hundred thousand people.

"Twenty Earth years," He answers.

Wow, he looks sixteen. "Your real age, I mean according to Di Hipsodat?"

"Thirty thousand years old."

Oh my God! I had a sex dream about a old man. He is fucking old.

"Wow... How old is Dean?"

"I don't know," He shrugs casually.

"Where is your Mother?" It feels like am interrogating him.

"Is there a point to this pointless conversation or are you going to let me finish what I was going to say?"

I purse my lips and shake my head. "You are no fun," I mutter. "By all means, knock yourself out."

"Thank you. The good news is that both your parents are alive. The bad news is that we don't know where they are. The worse news is that your powers are getting stronger and Sensei said he can't help you anymore," He says everything in one breathe and I can't believe he actually said that in one breathe.

"I assure you that they are dead, I got a call from their attorney. Did you that Richard and Corinne are filthy rich, no wonder my pocket money is that much, they left everything to me and both their net worth is more than a billionaire dollars, am a billionaire. Can you believe it?" I ask playfully.

Damien is looking at me like I have lost my mind, maybe I have. "You know the parents I mean. It's okay to feel overwhelmed with the news I just told you," He says.

"Overwhelmed?" I chuckle. "Am not overwhelmed, am fucking livid. I came here thinking I might make a good sense of myself and now they are all giving up on me like I am some equation they can't figure out," I lash out.

"Calm down Camille, let me finish. Ever since you step foot on this island there have been strange things happening, I didn't want to tell you about it because you didn't have to know but after what happened today I need to tell you or rather show you," He explains.

"I don't understand a word you just said," I reply.

He scoffs. That's new.

"Follow me," He orders. He turns to the side and start walking, I follow behind him.

I stop when he stops, I look infront of me to see birds, not just any bird, dead ravens. "What happened here?"

"You happened," He tells me.

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I lick my bottom lip as I listen to Damien explain what happened with the bird, we are back inside his beach house packing for our departure.

Apparently I have been killing ravens since I got here, which doesn't make any sense to me when he first told, Ravens aren't supposed to be on this island but somehow they are. I remember first time I lost control, it was at a WestHigh, The Vale game, I almost killed everyone with the ravens.

Earlier today when I was meditating, when I was watching a beautiful memory. My soul and spirits was inside my head but was body was conjuring the ravens and they died after I snapped out of my head.

I don't have any explanation for it, Damien can't explain what happened either. Sensei politely kicked me out of the island.

There is one thing am sure of, it is that something dark is inside of me waiting to unleash.

"Are you ready?" He asks behind me.

Two weeks ago he asked the same thing, then I was hopeful, now am hopeless. No one can help me.

I nod. I actually had fun here and I'll miss it, am just sad that I won't be saying goodbye to Sensei and Treta.

The Vale, here I fucking come again.

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💗,Milia.