I can feel their eyes on me and shiver again, since earlier I have caught them all just staring at me, but its Topper's words that send me running, hiding in the hallway in the dark till he brought me a candle so I could see.

When I had returned to the common room. I had said goodnight and headed for Topper's room, only for him to remind me not to shut the door, and now I lay in bed listening to the murmurs of their voices as they moved around, the glow from the fire making a weird red glow around the half open door.

Then there was silence and I was left with just my thoughts. Thoughts of them all, they were nothing like I imagined, nothing like any of the boys I usually had to deal with and definitely nothing like Callaghan. Eventually sleep came but it was full of bad dreams, Callaghan holding me down and fought him, but couldn't get him off me...

"Per, Per, come on sweetie, wake up, its just a bad dream... Per" I voice kept repeating my name and I felt soothed as I woke, chilly from the sweat of my nightmare in the cold room but feeling safe as Thad whispered to and rocked me.

"Thad... What?" I croak out and he pulls back a little to stare down at me, his hand coming up to brush the hair off my face.

"Good, you're awake, you were having a bad dream, It was my turn to check the fire and I could hear you crying out" he pulled me close again, still rocking me softly and he voice dropped. "I'm sorry we must have brought up the memory of what happened, we pushed you to tell us, its our fault"

I lean back so I can look up into his face, knowing I need to be honest with him "No, talking about it helped, the nightmares... they come most nights... since the attack, its why my parents let me come here, they couldn't cope with it at home, didn't want to acknowledge what had happened to me" I whisper out to him and his arms tighten.

"Fuck, Your parents suck" he growls out and I let out a little huff agreeing with him. "Go back to sleep" he orders pulling away but my hand latches onto his.

"Stay... Please" I whisper, closing my eyes in shame at the need for his comforting arms.

"Okay" he whispers back and I feel him moving away, a protest forming but he hushes me, before lifting the top layer of blankets and sliding into the bed beside me, pinning me down with the sheet that separates us. "Sleep" he orders, pulling me back into his arms and I close my eyes and do just that.

The next time I woke it was to voices in the hall and I burrow down into the warmth surrounding me, only to come awake rapidly, as that same warmth chuckled in my ear. "AAAHHHHH" I shrieked pulling away and hearing a thud and ooff sound as the covers unravelled and expelled him from the bed.

"What the hell!" I heard groaned from the floor and I nervously turned and holding the covers right up to my neck, peered over the edge of the bed to see Thad lying flat on the floor groaning.

"What?" I spluttered out but then the memories of last night hit me. "Oh damn! I'm so sorry" I whisper out looking down at him. His gaze finds and catches mine and he grins up at me.

"Not a wake up, I can say I like, but how are you feeling?" he asks.

I groan this time, hiding my face in the covers, realising he had done me a favour, not only waking me from my nightmare then staying to comfort me when I asked him too and then I did this. I peeked at him again. "Are you hurt?" I ask but the chuckles from the door distract me, as Ivo pushes the door wider open and steps inside his pyjama bottoms hanging low on his hips and I swallow, blushing as I tear my gaze away.

Ivo sticks his hand out to Thad " He's made of rocks, he's not hurt, don't worry" he laughs and pulls him up , both of the stood over me now looking down and I feel not fear but a nervous excitement rush through me as I just stare up at them.

Thad in his pyjamas, the soft jersey material not hiding anything, the ridges of his abs clearly outlined, my gaze dropping lower and I almost scream again, flushing bright red as his pyjama bottoms... move. Oh my god, did he...

My eyes raced up to his face and I flush at the grin on his face and Ivo just laughs, his arm coming round Thad, and I scolded myself as my eyes, now rove over his bare chest, his abs on clear display and I groaned and buried my head under the pillow.

Ivo laughs again and lifts the pillow I had pulled over me "Come on Per, its time to get up, Ru is making breakfast and coffee"

"Okay"

"Then you can explain what Thad was doing in your bed this morning" he teases and I grab the pillow again to block out his laughter as Thad pushes him out of the door.

All four boys are sat at the table by the time I join them for breakfast, I had taken some time to wipe my self down but there was only so much we could do with only cold water. Surprisingly a stack of toast sits in the middle of the table and Ivo laughs at my confused look, "The fire and a fork and a bit of trial and error" he explains, pushing a chair out with his foot next to him and setting a coffee in front of me.

"Well?" Topper questions looking between Thad and I, as Ivo and Ru watch our reactions.

"Well what?" Thad counters reaching for the toast and putting a slice on my plate before buttering his own.

"Thad" Rupert growled but Thad ignored him, passing me the butter.

I kept my eyes down, not fully understanding what was going on, I got they wanted to know how Thad ended up in my bed, but why did they all sound so interested?

I heard a thud and Thad laughed again, holding his hands up to his friends, "She had a nightmare, I heard her crying in her sleep and went to check, I stayed till she fell asleep again but fell asleep too" he explained and I looked at him, knowing he had just lied to them, why? I asked him to stay, I held onto him... he was protecting me?

"I asked him to stay, he made me feel safe" I rush out and they all look at me, I can feel the weight of their eyes on me but continue anyway. "I have nightmares after... well after, and its most nights, last night I asked Thad to stay because he made me feel safer and I slept, probably the best sleep I have had in a long time" I look up at them and see the understanding in their eyes. "I felt safe" I whisper.

"Then from now on one of us will sleep at your side" Ivo said into the silence and as the others all murmured their agreements, I looked at him in shock.

"I...I..." I just didn't know what to say.

"Per, is it just Thad" Ivo voice wraps around me and he takes my hand in his, "Do you feel scared when you are with us?" I shake my head, my eyes locked on his. "Do we scare you, when I pull you onto my lap, when I hold your hand?" he continues and all I can do is shake my head silently.

"And if Rupert holds your hand, or Topper, do you want to run, to hide, to escape?" his voice keeps drawing me in and I bite my lip, nervous flutters now in my stomach, but I cannot look away from Ivo.

He moved closer, I could feel the heat of his body, "What if we kissed you?" he whispered, his lips now only inches from mine.

I swallowed but didn't know what to say, so stayed silent, my eyes locked with his.

"Can I kiss you?" he asked and with my slightest of nods his lips met mine.

OMG I was kissing Ivo and his friends were watching, I felt the nerves inside my chest rising, what was I doing, I should stop... I should but I couldn't, I wanted this, I wanted him, and... I wanted them to watch.

I shivered as he pulled back, a soft smile on his face as he brought our joining hand up to his lips and kissed the back of it. "Perfect" he praised breaking the trance and I looking round at the others, expecting to find pity, derision, buts that not what I saw, I saw heat, interest and acceptance.

"What's happening?" I question them all. They exchange looks and as a group all look to Ivo, who I had already worked out, was their unofficial leader.

"We like you, all of us and we would like you to consider, well if you would consider all of us as a package deal, date us all, don't chose one of us, take all of us"

My gaze flicked between them all and I could see they had already discussed this, I shivered again, it sounded too good to be true. Was it? "Could they really share me"

"Yes, we could" Ivo replied and I realised I had said my last thoughts aloud. My face flamed.

"Can I, Can I think about it?" I ask them nervously, again searching their faces for some sign of discord, that someone wasn't happy.

"Take all the time you need, but we will keep showing you, why we think this will work, whilst you are thinking" Rupert told me and they all nodded.

"Thank you" I whisper and lean back.

Ivo sensing I need a bit of mental space, changed the conversation and they continued to talk about finding staff and getting contact with the outside world whilst my thoughts raced around in my mind.

Share...

Share...

Dare I, Could I, God I wanted to scream yes, after all its not everyday you get an offer like this, these guys were alphas, top of the food chain and all heirs to big businesses, and I have no doubt if I brought one of them home my parents would suddenly be proud at landing such a catch, but four of them... hell.

My reeling mind thinks about other families I have heard of that have a similar lifestyle, The Kingswood's I knew had had a lot of press, especially when the one daughter had bonded with three men as well, and The Rose's it had happened there too with both sets of male triplets. They had managed the press and public speculation but could I, could we?

"Go and curl up by the fire, I'll bring you a fresh drink" Topper said, his hand on my shoulder bringing me out of my internal musings. "We will clear up, just relax" he pulls me up and leads me through to the common room and gently pushes me down into the armchair, draping my blanket over my legs, his hand coming up to cup my jaw as he smiles down at me, silently.

"Thank you" I say my hand covering his and he smiles, leaning down to drop a kiss on my forehead before heading back to the others.

I watch him go, feeling the warm glow inside me getting bigger as I relax and let them into my heart.