When I woke up this morning the last thing I thought I would find was a Facebook message from Lacey saying Cole has been arrested.

To say I am pissed is an understatement. What was the last thing I told him before he went to that party? Behave. And what does he do? Punches a fucking police officer. According to Lacey, the party was being shut down and Cole was shitfaced so he decided to argue with one of the officers and it ended with him in a cell.

It's been two hours since I got the message and I'm still fuming. If he was my sub I'd have him bent over my lap and spanked him until his ass was bright red.

Unfortunately though, he's not my sub. So I'm currently ignoring all the texts he's sending me as a punishment. well more of a half-punishment because if he were mine, I would ignore him and pair it with a rough fuck. It seems to be working though as Cole's messages are getting more and more needy and annoyed at me.

I look up from my desk when my classroom door opens and Natalie walks in.

"Hello handsome."

"Please leave me alone," I groan.

"Don't play that game with me, I know you lied when you said you were gay."

"What? Why would I lie about that?"

"Because you're playing hard to get," she says with a shit eating grin.

She can't be serious?

"Natalie, no. I don't want to sleep with you and I am definitely not playing hard to get. I suggest you leave me alone or I'll report you for harassment," I say with a determined face. Unfortunately, she doesn't falter. In fact, this seems to make her more confident as she sits on my desk in front of my chair—making me pull it out to make room—and makes sure I can see the lace panties she has on under her skirt.

"Who will the headmaster believe, the woman whose worked here for three years or the new guy?"

I feel my jaw tick as a surge of anger courses through me.

Calm down Nathan. She's just winding you up.

"Leave," I seethe and she just laughs, showing off her impeccably white teeth.

"Darling you know I could ruin your career in a second." If this were a cartoon, devil horns would be sprouting from her head and red smoke would be swirling around us. "So if I were you Nathan, I'd keep quiet about this and reconsider your thoughts about getting with me."

With that said, she leaves and slams the door behind her. I release the breath I was holding and rest my head in my hands.

What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I can't go to my boss about the harassment. I can't sleep with her. I can't get away from her. This is a huge fucking mess.

Just then the bell rings to signal the beginning of the day and students start filling in.

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Today has been a disaster. Cole's been calling and texting me non-stop to the point I had to temporarily block his number and to top it all off I had to take another teachers class because he was off sick on short notice. His students are unbearable. They wouldn't sit down and be quiet or do any work so after ten minutes of chaos I gave up and put YouTube on for them to pick out videos while I did some lesson planning.

Now I've got a free lesson at the end of the day and I've decided I'm going to the club tonight. I need a sub to relieve my stress and calm me down but sadly, I've got an hour left until I can leave.

"Sir?"

I look up and see a small girl stood in the doorway.

"Hello," I reply and she stays where she is. "You can come in."

She shuffles into the room and stops a few feet away from my desk.

"What do you need?" I ask as calmly as I can, she looks very skittish and I don't want to scare her away.

"I'm in your English class and I- and I was wondering if you could... um- Nevermind," she blushes furiously and turns to leave but I quickly stand up and put a gentle hand on her shoulder. She flinches and I quickly pull my hand back, realising that was not a good idea.

"I'm sorry if I make you nervous. Do you need help with anything? It's no problem, I've got a free this lesson," I tell her with a kind smile.

"I don't under-understand the homework," she says barley audibly.

"Oh. Come sit down and I'll go through it with you," I gesture to the nearest double table and she sits down, putting her backpack on the table and pulling out her English books.

We spend the next hour going through the work I set. I asked my students to write an essay about the book we are currently reading but I wasn't specific enough and Jessica (I finally learned her name) didn't understand. I write a few examples and help her write a plan to write the rest by herself at home. Thankfully, it goes very well and I send her home at the end of the day fully understanding what I asked her to do.

"Thank you so much Mr Murray," she says quietly before she leaves.

"No problem, come back anytime you feel unsure about anything during the lesson," I say and she waves as she leaves the room. She's the first person today to put a smile on my face and I couldn't be more grateful.

I stay back at the school until 6pm so I can finish up all the work I have to do. When I'm finally done I gather my things and walk out to my car. I'll head straight to the club because I've got leathers in my private room I can change into.

Once I'm at the Club Sin, I park and go to Marcus' office so I can say hello before I go get changed.

"You look stressed," Marcus says as I go inside his dimly lit office.

"I am. Cole got arrested last night," I say and I see Marcus tense and look a bit angry. "It's all been sorted, he was drunk and fought a police officer so nothing too bad," I cringe at how bad it sounds when I say it out loud.

Marcus sighs and continues typing on his computer. He nods his head to the couch next to the desk so I sit down and wait for him to finish what he is doing. Finally, he turns to me on his swivel chair and crosses his muscular arms across his chest.

"If you want him to be your submissive I expect him to be properly trained. Any bad behaviour and he won't be a member of my club," Marcus says sternly. I understand where he is coming from. If I was in his position, I wouldn't be too happy about someone like Cole joining my club.

"I promise you he will be the best behaved sub you've ever seen."

"I'll believe it when I see it," he grumbles. "Go get ready now, I'll see you in the main room."

I leave the office and go to my private playroom where I take a quick shower in the onsuit bathroom and take out my contact lenses. Tonight I plan to fuck a sub then go to bed and I don't want to be messing around with contact lenses so I put my glasses on my face and go into the playroom to get some leather pants from the drawer.

Checking myself out in the mirror before I go into the main room helps me to feel more confident because it gives me a chance to see that I do in fact look good and I'm worth being here. I straighten my back and head of of my playroom and into the corridor that will lead me to the main room.

I love this club so much. The music, the dancing, the subs trying to get a doms attention and especially the sex. I feel like I belong here among the other doms and subs all here for a good night whereas I don't usually feel like that anywhere else.

"Hey, I didn't know you were coming tonight," says Lucas as I approach our usual leather couch. He has his submissive, Joey, kneeling beside his legs. Joey is very obedient and doesn't look up to greet me until Lucas tells him he can.

"I've had a stressful day and I needed to unwind," I reply as my eyes wander to a beautiful sub called Will. He's dancing with other subs and is sandwiched between two blondes who are grinding on him as he moves his body to the music. Me and Will have a history together as we usually get together for the night. We both have very similar kinks and he understands that I don't want to sign a contract.

"Go tell Will you want him for tonight before someone else grabs him," Lucas tells me with a smirk as I see another Dom called Henry getting closer to the group of boys dancing.

I walk to the dance floor and the two blond boys move away from Will so I can swoop in and snatch him up for the night. His face lights up as I stand in front of him and gently put my hands on his hips.

"Are you free to play tonight?" I ask him bluntly.

"Yes Master Nathan." He replies respectfully and lowers his eyes.

"Good boy, come with me to watch the show now," I order and he follows beside me. I sit on the couch and he kneels between my parted legs so his face is level with my crotch.

I look down at the beautiful boy with dark skin and plump lips and can't help but imagine Cole there. I know it's wrong but I can't get that boy out of my head and not messaging him all day has made me miss him dearly.

I glance up when Marcus joins us and I see Thomas kneel beside his legs. It looks like the master Dom has found his submissive for the night. He greets me and we chat until the lights dim and the music is turned down.

The show starts and a sadist and a masochist walk on. The Sadist is called Andrew and the submissive is called Mason. I've spoken to Andrew a couple of times and he seems like a lovely man; in his early forties but still in good shape. Mason is a sub I have never interacted with as I don't usually go with masochist subs. I'm known as a soft Dom here so the hardcore members tend to stay away.

Mason gets tied to the punishment bench and Andrew prepares his skin with a light flogger. The scene gets more intense when Andrew uses a whip to leave dark streaks across his poor sub's ass cheeks. Mason's screams and groans seem to be turning on Will as I see him shift a few times to get comfortable. He seems to be getting restless as he gently pushes his face into my crotch and looks up at me desperately.

I... can't do it.

"Excuse me for a minute Will," I say quickly and go to the bathroom. I see Marcus give me a worried look as I leave but I ignore him and get into the bathroom as quick as I can. Once I'm locked in a stall, I slide down the wall and take deep breaths for a second.

Why can't I get him out of my head? I can't get myself to have fun with Will because I keep hoping that it'll be Cole in between my knees, ready to follow any command I give him but it's not. I don't know what to do! I can't have Cole that close to me, all my past boyfriends have hurt me and I'm not ready to go through that again. I'm already terrified of the way I think about him already and getting closer to him is not going to help me at all.

I need distance from him. I need to stay away for a while and see if I can come back to him and have him as a short term submissive so I don't catch any feelings.

But what if he wants more than that? What if he wants to be my boyfriend aswell as my submissive? Will I be able to have a relationship like that? I know Lucas and Joey have a great relationship and their bond is growing everyday but what if it's not like that between me and Cole. What if he cheats on me? Or I'm not enough for him? I don't think I could handle that rejection again.

Or maybe I could make it work? Maybe I could try it out with a permanent contract and just see where it goes from there. I can always terminate our agreement if it doesn't work out so I'm not trapped. I'll make it very clear to Cole what I want. We'll discuss the rules very thoroughly before signing so he knows how I feel about all of this. That is if he wants it.

I need to call him. I need to go home and get him to come over so I can talk to him. I need to be clear with him straight away.

With that thought prominent in my mind, I get up from the floor and go back to the main room where Will is kneeling still. I motion for him to follow me as I head out of the room and into the corridor.

"I'm sorry Will but I have to head home. I really wish we could have continued our night but I just can't do it. You were perfectly behaved however and I'll be telling Master Marcus so he can reward you in my place," I tell him and his face drops but his smile comes back at the prospect of a reward.

"Okay Master Nathan, I hope you feel better soon," he says with a smile and kisses my cheek before heading back to the main room.

I go back to my playroom and get changed back into my normal clothes before texting Marcus to say I'm heading home and to tell him how amazing Will was tonight.

With that sorted I get in my car to head home. As I'm driving I use the speech to text in my car so I can text Cole to ask him to come to my house. He replies instantly saying okay and it makes me feel better knowing he wants to come over. But the nervousness still stays.