《Dying to be thin》Chapter 3
Advertisement
Six stone Two, 86.2lbs.
These pro ana websites were amazing. They helped me get to the weight I wanted and carry on dropping on the scales. However, I was still fat. I was still disgusting, nauseating and vulgar. I hated myself. All of the words my father said, friends said and even people I didn't know were circling round in my head and wouldn't stop. 'Don't eat that, you're too fat to eat' and 'Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels' I had gotten to the point where I couldn't stop. Everything revolved around food. Some days I'd eat something with as little as 25 calories and I could feel the weight of it in my stomach, that was when I knew I had to purge. Some days I'd eat nothing and my mum would worry, but she would never ask me why.
"Lauren?" she shouted whilst letting herself into my room.
I quickly shut my laptop as she walked in.
"What are you looking at on there that you're so eager for me not to see, hey?" she laughed. "Your dinner is on the table!"
I walked out of my room and immediately regretted not getting off that website. I should've closed it down as soon as I heard her scream my name.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
-Mum's POV-
What was she on? Why was she so eager to not let me see what she was looking at? I wouldn't be a bad mum if I was to look would I?
I opened up the screen of her laptop to a nauseating site of a website open called 'Thin Intentions' there were 58 tips on how to be Pro-Ana, I had no idea what this meant. There was tabs on the right side one called 'thinspiration' what my eyes seen was devastating. This so called beautiful society is twisted and crooked - a labyrinth of hunger and despair. It's a far cry from perfect. Why was my Lauren looking at this? What is wrong with her? How could I have not noticed this, the not eating, saying she's not hungry, constant illness. Why is she doing this to me after everything. She's so beautiful, she leads such a precious life, she doesn't need to be doing this to herself.
Advertisement
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Lauren what is this on your laptop?" she called whilst storming down the stairs.
"What are you on my laptop for? Don't you trust me or something?" I said sarcastically.
"Yes I do but when you're looking at stuff like this what else am I meant to think?"
"Well actually it was for homework, mum." I stuttered.
"I'll be ringing that school tomorrow to ask about this, it's vulgar, Lauren."
She couldn't ring the school, they'd know I didn't get it for homework. I felt sick, properly. For once in my life I felt like I could be sick without forcing myself. I couldn't help myself this time.
Advertisement
- In Serial106 Chapters
The Legendary Ghost Hunter
Thousands of years ago, the First Expungement came. The world changed, and humanity was nearly wiped out. Thankfully, with the paracausal power of Angelicas, humans was able to push back the Ghost tide and rebuild their civilization.Now, however, it was time for the Second.Finn Thresher was just a normal university student at first. He, like the rest of the public world, had no idea what was coming for them — but sometimes, just because you don’t know, doesn’t mean you can’t be harmed.His family… his sight… his purpose. All lost to the paranormal.It was time to abandon his beliefs. To throw away his morals.After all… if these creatures weren’t human anyway, there was no point in showing them humanity.In the first battle of this war, the Ghosts won, nearly driving the human race to extinction. In the second, the humans fought back with the power of Angelicas and managed to secure a victory.Now, the third and final round was approaching — and this time, it’s personal.
8 816 - In Serial8 Chapters
Life of a Core
After a disembodied voice had told him he was what amounted to an exceptionally talented rock, it had been hard to not let it go to his non-existent head. Until, random chance had decided to give him a square kick in the minerals. Which had in turn forced him to fend for himself in an unknown land, all while he attempted to make sense of his place in the world. Truthfully though, all he had really wanted to do from the start had been to bury himself a hundred feet below the ground and be left to his own devices. Yet, for one reason or another, nobody ever seemed willing to leave the dungeon-building core alone long enough to actually make one. Each chapter will average around two to three thousand words, the release schedule is still a WIP but you should expect the first six chapters to be released over the next six days. This is planned out as a dungeon building fiction, but don't expect it right off the bat! The story is a depiction of the everyday adventures (alongside an overarching plot) of what I imagine a dungeon core would experience when thrust into a random environment where everything and everyone tried to covet or eat him. I also really enjoy reading the comments and reviews people leave and would love to get some reader involvement with the story itself, likely through polls at the end of each chapter. I hope you enjoy my story! (If you feel like some of the characters seem familiar, you may have read some older work I wrote a while back under a different account. If you happen to be one of my old readers and recognize the similarities, I'm happy to have you back!)
8 114 - In Serial73 Chapters
Basic Skills
Dix, a man whose entire name was a bad joke, thought he’d died and gone to heaven, until reality kicked him in his name again. Sure, he would have a whole new world to explore, one full of magic and adventure, but first he would have to be tested by the gods. They promised the tests weren’t deadly, just painful. If he does well, they might even give him prizes that will make him a target amongst the population of his new world. And the tests of the gods are just the beginning. Follow along as Dix falls back on his tried and true method of making it through life, letting his subconscious do all the work while he looks for girls. It’s not like that led him to his death once before, or anything. And what do you call a life after death anyways? A man too smart for his own good, he is woefully unprepared for what’s coming his way, no matter what he thinks. Trainers, friends, even gods won’t give him enough of a head start for the things people will ask him to do. Despite the odds of survival, he’s got a job to do. Time to get to work.
8 166 - In Serial6 Chapters
The one above all
A king. An Emperor. Called many names, Emperor Vale controls his empire of Marsa. After his death, life goes on. Centuries later, Vale awakens to find himself alive in a world different then what he left it as. Join ex-Emperor Vale in his journey across Marsa searching for answers to his sudden reappearance and his desire to fix the Empire he was proud to call his. Or is it still his? Hello. I'm a new author starting out so I wanted to try something I've always been a fan of.Since I'm new, any criticism is welcome. Uploads will vary and will have no set time margins. I do not own the cover image BTW. Hope you guys enjoy!
8 112 - In Serial11 Chapters
My Angel
Rosalie Hale. Forks High's ice queen.Hayden Taylor. New girl.Not exactly Romeo and Juliet.
8 58 - In Serial30 Chapters
The Son of Artemis Book One
Book one of an unknowingly how long series. I started working on this when I got bored on working on my first series Olympus Reborn.Basic summary: An AU were Poseidon thinks Percy is dead, and never wanted him in the first place. He also never loved Sally. Artemis Witness Sally's death and adopts a baby Percy.
8 395
Prev Chap
Next Chap
Chap List
Boy
Girl
