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Anakin and I are best friends, nothing more, and nothing less. Although, I wish we were something more, but I know he doesn't want us to be nothing more than just friends.

I fell for Anakin, it was hard not to fall for him, his smile made me smile, and his laugh made me melt. I kept these feelings locked away, but it was hard to not show them when he would flirt with me. He sometimes would give me mixed signals, he would flirt with me, and I would just play along.

I was sitting in my room, when Obi-Wan walked in. Obi-Wan is my brother, and I was sitting there contemplating whether I was going to talk to Anakin about these feelings.

"What is troubling you, dear sister?" He asked, and sat down next to me.

I started to mess with my hands, "Uh, well, uh- I like this guy." I say, and instantly Obi-Wan looked up at me,

"Who is this 'guy'?" He asked, and I chuckled.

"Ben, down worry about it. But, um, were friends, and I think all he sees me as is a friend, or maybe in a sister kind of way. And I'm confused." I said, and he brushed his fingers over his short beard.

"Why are you confused, Y/N?" He asked, and I look over at him,

"He sends me mixed signals and flirts with me all of the time. And it's confusing, he's leading me on, and I'm falling for him." I say with a sigh.

Obi-Wan turns facing towards me,

"Y/N, the only way you will find out, is if you ask him. There's really nothing else you can do, but to ask. Do you love him?" Obi-Wan asked, and I nod my head,

"I do. I really do love him, and I'm scared for the answer he's going to give me." I say, and Obi-Wan nods,

"Well, that's love for ya little sister. Love is a strange thing, Y/N. It can make the weakest person strong, and the strongest person weak. Just remember that you can't be wise and be in love at the same time, okay?" He said, and I couldn't help but to smile,

"Pfft. Master Obi-Wan.. More like Philosopher Obi-Wan." I say, and he chuckles, "Thanks, Ben." I say and hug him, then I walked to the door.

"No problem." He replied.

I got onto my own speeder, and started to go to the Jedi Temple.

After I arrived I thought if all of the places he could be, and I thought, the meditating room.

I was going to go into Anakin's "meditating" room in the Jedi Temple.

I turned the corner, "Anakin I-" and then I seen something I couldn't even believe. He was sucking face with Padmé. Within those few seconds my heart shattered into millions of pieces, "Y/N, wait-" Anakin shouted, after I caught their attention.

I ran out of the room, and went to my own apartment. It was a good thing that Obi-Wan had left, because I slammed my door shut, and slid down against the door. I pulled my legs up to my chest, then rested my head on my knees.

After an hour of crying, I was sitting on my couch when I heard a knock on my door, "Go away." I said, but the door opened anyways, revealing Anakin.

I looked up and wiped my face, and Anakin walked over to me, "Stay away from me, Anakin." I say, and he sits down next to me, "What's the matter, Y/N/N?" He asked, and I jumped up from the couch.

"What do you mean what's wrong?! I just found you sucking face with Padmé!" I say, and he looks down at the floor, "Listen, I know that it is a lot to take in at once, but-" he began to say.

"I don't want to hear it Anakin." I say, and started to walk to my room,

"What's wrong with you? You're supposed to be my best friend, you're supposed to- I don't know, at least listen to me!" He shouted, and tears are now streaming down my face,

"You are such and idiot." I say, marching to the front door, "Why am I an idiot, Y/N?" He asked, and grabbed my hand.

I turned around,"You're so blind! Can't you see that I'm in love with you?!"

His eyes go soft, and he stares at me,

"It sucks, Anakin. Liking someone you can't have. Seeing them every single freaking day, but knowing that they'll never be yours. It's the worse feeling ever, cause all you can do is dream about them and wish for them, but you can never ever have them." I say choking on my words, and he stand there speechless.

"Some days I ask myself, 'Should I smile and be grateful that were friends, or cry and be sad, because that's all we'll ever be'." I say, and he has a tear going down his face.

"Anakin, you led me on, flirted with me, and sent me mixed signals for years. Have you not realized how much it has hurt me?" I ask, and I look down at the ground.

He pulls my chin up, and looks me in the eyes, "I-I'm sorry Y/N. I didn't mean to hurt you." He said, and he wiped a tear off my face.

I shook my head slightly, "No, you're not. Anakin, " I say, and the tears start streaming again, "Y-you should go." I say.

"But-" I stuck my hand up in the air, "Anakin, please. Just go." I say, and it's barely a whisper, he nodded his head.

He began to walk to the door, and hesitantly went through it and left. I sat back down on my couch, and cried some more, then I just sat there staring off into space.

Obi-Wan walked through the door, and he sat down next to me,

"So how did it go?" He asked, and all I did was lean my head on his shoulder.

Maybe Anakin was the 'love of my life' and I just won't ever be his.

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