I wash my hands and before I even finish the door is opened and Drew comes in with a first aid kit.

I meet his eyes through the mirror and he doesn't look angry anymore, I don't know if I can describe it as.....guilt?

"Sit on the counter," he mutters and I do as told

He takes out a few things from the kit and starts cleaning up my nose, we are silent for a bit before I finally break it, okay Xavier was right I can't shut up,"I'm sorry,"

"I suppose its not entirely your fault, I for one shouldn't have mixed up those bags,"

"Is that your way of saying you're sorry?"

"Yeah take or leave it," I'm taking that shit

"Where's Damon?"

"He should be back right about now," he says handing me something then motioning for me to hold it tightly

"Try not scream," he says before holding my nose and popping back to place all in one go, and I open my scream but he quickly covers my mouth and its muffled, a lone tear falling down my face

"Fuck that hurt," I say right when Damon gets in the bathroom and motions for Drew to leave

He comes towards me and stands in between my open legs and stares at my face well mostly at my nose.

He slowly grips his hoodie the one I'm wearing and takes it off me, its ruined, my blood got all over it and its white so.

He starts looking at me everywhere probably checking for other injuries.

"You smell like fire?" He mutters, I can't tell if he's angry though maybe he's not? But then again Damon's the suffer in silence type

"Oh yeah he burnt my car," I say shrugging it off as if its nothing, I feel like crying out though....I won't, I can't

He places his hand on my cheek and I lean into his touch,"How about you take a shower while I get you food?" I nod excitedly at the food part and hop off the counter and start removing my sweats.

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"What happened?," It didnt take a genius to sense how tense the atmosphere in here was

"Well he took me to a chair and we were in a room just the two of us, I found out what his name is and uhh erm he burnt my car and shit— oh and he kinda knows my name and knows the fact that Damon's my boyfriend," I ponder if I should just tell them who Xavier is to Damon but there's also the fact its not my place to say and if I tell them it might put them them and especially Damon in danger.

I wonder if Damon's parents know, maybe they're all part of the gang......you never know.

"Whats his name?" Damon mutters

That's the first thing he has said since this whole 'scolding' thing started

"Xavier," I say studying his expression more intently but all he does is nod as if its just another name to him.

That makes me furrow my brows, how doesn't he know? Unless Xavier was lying to me and them looking alike was just a coincidence or Damon has no knowledge of an older brother and his parents hid that from him.......but why would they?

"Erm Drew?" I'm tired of not knowing shit,"are you a stripper— No sorry I mean stripp— fuck dammit," I take a deep breath before slowly saying,"are you a street fighter"

The way everyone just froze and looked at me as if I had discovered a new hole to put a dick in.

I zone in on his hands that are actually bruised and slightly purple, it quite doesn't make sense for him to be anything else unless he does get into tons of fights on a daily.

He looks at Damon who has an unreadable expression before looking at me,"Yeah," he mutters

Well atleast I was right,"Anything else I need to know?"

"Well Damon does street racing and he used to fight like Drew but got ba-" all their eyes widen as they turn to Josh before Connor and Adam the closest to him hit him on the back of his head.

"She's not supposed to know that,"Connor mutters

"You race?" Why is it like there's so much I don't know Damon.....about all of them in fact

"Occasionally,"

I don't know why I'm getting pissed at this...I sound as if I'm entitled to know but then I'm his girlfriend so shouldn't there be no secrets between us? Fuck this is confusing

"Everyone get out we'll talk about this another time," Damon finally says

Why does he always want to prolong these things, why can't he just be honest about it all and we can move on with our lives

"Never do that shit again," Drew says to me whilst standing up

"I promise," I say giving Josh a side hug then I stand up and give Drew one too but instead of a normal one I first hold him by his shoulders at arms length and make a dead possum face as I wait to be pushed off, but nothing happens so I slowly put my arms around him though he didn't put his arms around me and seemed tense but hey baby steps.

"I should get hurt more often then," I say nodding my head and looking accomplished but drop it when I see their unimpressed faces

It was funny though

"It was a joke, where you have to laugh you know," I say turning to Connor and Adam to hug them too, Tyler wasn't there and by now everyone must know what happened, Damon completely shut down the topic when I brought it up earlier

"Stop overthinking things and go to bed," Connor says kissing me my forehead before he says his goodbyes and leaves then they all go and I turn to look at Damon who looks irritated

If only he knew I felt way more than irritation

"Whats wrong,"

"Your life was not this complicated before I came into it," he mutters seemingly in deep thought

"Whats that supposed to mean?"

"You could've died,"

"But I didn't," I counter narrowing my eyes at him wondering where he's going with this.

"You don't even seem to care about it, you just shrug it off as if your life wasn't in fucking danger today," his voice increasing in volume with each word

"I do care I'm just very good at keeping it in!" I suddenly yell....okay so I'm not good at keeping it in

"Oh right just like you're very good at hiding behind stupid ass jokes so that no one finds out how truly broken you actually are!" I'm left speechless as he says that but only for a few long seconds

"Or really? At least I don't fucking need to get a new tattoo all the time to hide my fucking scars!"

How did we go from being alright to arguing this quickly......maybe it's because we were never alright

His eyes widen only a bit before they darken considerably and there's angry Damon again

"You know you get so frustrated when I don't tell you every goddammit thing but yet you yourself will not even attempt to tell me about what happened to you," he says

"That's because nothi-,"

"Oh my bad you got scars on your back from doing random shit as a child is that it?" He doesn't let me respond as he continues,"I know your family were shit to you but thats as far as it goes you want everyone to fucking assume you're fine but in retrospect you're the one who needs the most help!"

"Atleast I tell you something about my family all I know is that you got a famous mom and dad and a fucking little sister! You know I got bullied, you know my dad loved my brother more than me you know my brother was a fucking dipshit and the spawn of literal fucking Satan, you know my best friend fucking chose him over me, you know she went on to fuck my boyfriend only to just leave him for my brother even after all he has done to me, you know so much more about me than I know of you," I say my voice cracking at the end as tears spill out of my eyes

I hate that when I argue I just start crying out of no where fuck dammit

He stares at me momentarily,"You didn't ask about my family, you never do. How will I know you want to know about all that because all you seem adamant on knowing is about this dumb ass shit that keeps on happening to us,"

Fuck dammit he has a point

"My question is what will you do if you found out huh? What will you fucking do when you find out that Connor's parents were into some really dumb shit and got a lot of dangerous people mad one of them being this Xavier guy and when they died the debt went to Connor when he was just 16 years old and given he was now with Josh he got mixed up with it

And it didn't fucking help with both Drew and Tyler used to fucking deal with drugs so they got involved into that debt somehow and where there was Tyler..... Adam was not too far behind....these gangs got blackmailed with sjit that could well on land them into prison even though most of it was fake they had connections, far too fucking many.

We were all not really friends we fucking hated each other even but we all had the same problem so we had to work together to solve it leading Drew and I to get into street fighting and me getting banned from it then there was street racing so I got into that. All so that we could get the cash to pay them all. We tried using our parent's money at first but got too risky when we would take big chunks of it so that's one of the reasons I quit football to focus on school and that shit while Connor, Adam, Josh and Tyler don't ruin their lives for it with Drew not having much going for him. We were doing so well until it finally came to Xavier who just always seemed to want more no matter how much we gave him," he finally blurts out.....and I know he didn't mean to tell me all that with how his eyes widen only a fraction

I stand statue like as I face him not knowing what to say, I mean how do I respond to that?

I open my mouth to utter something, anything but a knock on the door cuts me off.

I stare at him for a long second before going to open the door and come across some random guy causing me to furrow my brows at him

"Oh sorry for coming this late I was told to give this to you but kinda forgot so uhh here you go," he say handing me a white envelope with our university's address before sauntering off

I furrow my brows at it before closing the door and begin opening it.

"Who was that?" Damon asks and I mumble an I don't know

Vanessa Walker blah blah blah........it's come to our attention your assault against Isabella........yada ya da ya da......and since you're one of our smartest students we were lenient enough to blah blah blah...........you are banned from the dormitories and are too be gone by the time this break ends

"What the actual fuck is this?"

Damon quickly comes and stands next to me before taking the paper and reading it himself his brows furrowing

"But that was months ago this doesn't make sense?And why the fuck would she choose to do this now?"

Why is it problem after problem?

"So I'm definitely going to be a hobo," I say trying to make a joke out of it only for Damon to look at me unimpressed.

It wasn't a funny joke anyway

"Fuck dammit, why does today have to be so shitty!"

"I came back, is that so shitty?"

"Yeah and look what that brought! I have a fucked up nose, I have to leave later today going back to my fucked up family and I have to start looking for a fucking place to live in, in just two weeks and I can't even begin to think of how I'll pay for that cause we well on know none of my parents will willingly pay for me and to make matters worse the one thing I held so close to my heart from the person I ever loved in my family whose is fucking gone so please enlighten me Damon, what do you think you coming back did?"

You know those moments when you're not actually angry at the person but rather the situation but because you're so fucked up, here you go blaming them when all they do is care for you

It was only after I poured it all out did I see how bitchy I was but it was too late to even attempt to do anything because.......he was already gone

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I used to make scenarios in my head of how I will come back here being all bad ass and shit, I mean I did cut my hair and got prettier in my opinion but still even my confidence though amazing just crumbled the moment I stepped out of the taxi

Doesn't quite help that I left while Damon and I were still fighting and it also doesn't help that he didn't even say goodbye to me or even come with me to the airport but hey I fucked up not him so understandable

It's quite painful realising how I need him so fucking much right now but I can't have him because I had to blow up on him just because random kept on piling up way too fucking quickly for my liking.

The door opens rather slowly and I meet the eyes of the person whose tormented me for years........I guess it's too late to back out now

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Dedicated to

So I first want to apologise, I take so long to give y'all a chapter these days (or is it these past few months💀)

Anyway I'll try updating more frequently and thank you for those who are patient with me and genuinely love this book, a huge shout out to y'all❤

So here's the chapter hope you enjoyed 🥰

Until next time💋❤