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"i'm asking if you came alone without you husband?" the doctor repeated her question.

this is so awkward. should i tell her that i have no husband? that i am an unwed mom?

"ah..well.." what do i say? should i just tell her he's waiting for me outside or something? this is more nervous than anything in this world.

why is she asking me that anyway?

"you know that we don't provide abortions here, right?" she asked again.

huh, what kind of question is that? again?

"what?"

"this clinic doesn't do abortions, so if that's what you're thinking, i'd suggest you go elsewhere. you should make the decision quickly." the doctor said.

what is she saying?

"do you have any other questions? if you don't, then i'll just-" she added.

she's boiling me.

"you're incredibly rude." i said to her face.

"what?"

"i know that getting pregnant while unmarried is nothing to be proud of. but as a gynecologist, who is supposed to help bring new life into this world, you shouldn't bring up abortion so easily to a patient that has come for a check up." i kept on blabbering. she needs to be teach a lesson.

"miss, now see here, i-"

"this child inside of me. even if i'm not ready to welcome this baby with open arms, there's no need for you to speak of this new life like that. am i wrong?" i just cannot contain myself anymore. this is so heart breaking as i looked at the ultrasound on the table.

"yes, well..i think you misunderstood. what i meant was-"

i stood up and just walk away before she could finish her sentence.

the nerve.

an abortion?

how could she bring it up so casually like that to a pregnant woman? this is so annoying, she was so rude.

as i left the room, someone called and asked, "miss park! are you all done now? miss park, are you okay? i was waiting for you to come out." i looked up to see ji-hyo.

but then, i saw her uncle.

what?! why is he still here?!

"are you okay, chae? what did the doctor say? is everything okay? no issues?" asked jennie.

so many question. i wish i just could go home and have some rest.

"w-well..uh..why are you guys looking at me so seriously? there's absolutely nothing wrong with me." i clapped my hands once so that they could stop asking me some weird questions.

"r-really?" asked jennie.

"yes, i told you i could come by myself. you really didn't have to come all the way here for a uterine cancer check up. anyway, thanks for worrying about me." i can't tell my student that i'm freaking pregnant while being unmarried!

"you didn't come here for uterine cancer-" at this point i could smack taehyung out of this world. why is he such a loser?

"ah, you come here for that?" ji-hyo asked.

"yes, and my loyal friends wanted to come with me. they follow me to simple health check-ups and everything. i'm so lucky to have such loyal fri-" i explained to her.

yes, i can get out of this!

"park chaeyoung! don't forget your baby's ultrasound picture!" why is that nurse always come into my way? there's no way i can get out of this.

"baby's ultrasound picture?" ji-hyo asked, a little bit blur with the situation.

nothing's going my way.

but why is that man, jeon jungkook, still here?

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if i said anything that so awkward before, i lied. and now here i am, in front of jeon jungkook at the clinic's cafe.

just the two of us.

this is so freaking awkward, i might lose my mind.

just to end this unwanted moment, i took a glass of water i ordered just now and drink it.

"do you feel better now?" jungkook suddenly asked.

"i'm sorry?"

"you seemed anxious, so i thought you might be worried about something." did he can read what's on people's mind?

"i'm not nervous about anything." i said.

"i see."

"as ji-hyo's uncle, i know what you're worried about. i know there's no way to justify my acti-" before i could finish, he interrupted my word.

"park chaeyoung-sshi, my name is jeon jungkook and not 'ji-hyo's uncle'." he explained.

that was so annoying of him.

"ah, yes. i know. is that important right now?" i asked back.

"it is."

why is that? is he really this annoying?

"what? ah..well.." he is acting so arrogant too.

it seems like he's mocking me. is he really the man from that night? am i misremembering that night?

"anyway, what i want to say is i'd like you to keep my private life and my life as a teacher separate. no matter what my personal life is like, i always do my best to teach my students. i understand that you might take issue with me on an ethnical standpoint, but that was just once in my entire life." what else to say? i am so nervous.

"i'll make sure to speak with ji-hyo tomorrow. i also understand that you might worry i'll be a bad influence on the students, but i'd like to ask for your help in keeping this quiet so i can take care of things myself." i added some more.

he just sat there with his stoic face. did he only put that face all the time? at least say something?

"if you don't have anything further to say, i'll be taking my leave."

he hasn't said a word.

why am i being treated like i'm the only one at fault? why does he get to act like everything is okay?

it's not entirely my fault, so why do i have to feel so miserable like this?

but i don't have the energy to wait for his response, too many things happened today. i'm exhausted.

i just want to run away from this situation.

i took my bag to make a leave.

"chaeyoung-sshi, is it my child?" he asked that as he looked at my flat belly.

why is he looking that way?

"n-no, it's not! it's my baby!" i exclaimed while trying to cover the way he looked at.

"is that so? i'd like to talk now. are you going to leave?"

i sighed. what is he going to say?