"The truth is..."

He turned back to see Y/N sitting beside Jungkook. Her expression already explained everything. Shocked, fear and embarrassed by his sudden move. He knew she's just faking up her smile a moment ago. She wore a thousand faces all to hide her own. She was suffering but no one knows that because she hides that someplace deep inside. Because he knows the last thing she wants is pity from him and everyone in this room. She literally doesn't want to receive any help from Mark and chose a crueler path.

She, from the beginning, will never choose him. Never. It was always Jungkook who won this battle, no matter how terrible she had been treated. Y/N was the girl who had no problems, she was the girl who always laughing and could make anyone smile. But those were five years ago, the innocent Y/N who didn't know yet how dangerous a man could be, a girl who drowns with sweet and false hopes that given from a man.

And now she was the girl who was slowly breaking, the girl who was drowning in her mind and she also was the girl who kept it bottled up inside. The reason why she wanted to marry Jungkook after all of this still remains unclear but he knew this was not what she wanted in the first place. She just has to... for her child...

"I'm the father of this baby..."

How he wished that he's the real father of this baby so he could hold Y/N tight on his side. So that Y/N will never get herself hurt and spend most of her days crying all over again. Every day he always prayed for her, hoping that one day she will feel the same way as he does. Mark is the one who is always there for her no matter what happened even though it's one-sided love, even though it turned him heartbroken at last.

He looked towards the journalists who started to noise themselves, shocked by Mark's sudden statement. So were Y/N and Jungkook. Maybe they never expected that he will blow up this kind of controversy. He moved a step back and joined both Jungkook and Y/N who sat on the chair. Jungkook gave him a death stare when he walked past behind his back and pressed his shoulder hard before sitting next to Y/N.

"Is it true? Are you the real father of this baby?"

The journalist started to attack him with questions after he dropped a bomb statement. He turned aside and noticed that Y/N keep looking at him with her pouty eyes while her mouth started to whisper him something. 'Please, don't do it, Mark...'.

He sighed painfully. The whole people in this universe are always saying that if you've never felt your soul being torn apart, you've never loved anyone with all your heart. How he wished that she will love himself as much as he does. But unfortunately, she didn't, and that hurts more than anything in the world.

And now the moment when he tried to help her, still she was stubborn enough to face Jungkook alone. Mark willingly to say that this baby is his, but he knew once this blow out of his mouth, it will make Y/N more suffering. People out there will torture her with some hurtful words she couldn't handle, not while her still pregnant.

Mark lets out a fake laugh while his hands slowly grip Y/N's hand under the table, trying to calm her down.

"Did I say that? Of course, Jungkook is the real father, the biological father of this baby... Am I right, buddy? Hahaha..." he looked at Jungkook who already rooting his jaw. He seemed obviously mad and didn't give a damn to hide it for the sake of the media.

"But you just did," said another journalist.

"Well, I'm saying that I am also the father of this baby but that couldn't make me the real one. Jungkook and Y/N had chosen me as a godfather to their child so automatically I already have a responsibility to take care of him even he's not been born yet. So to anyone who is curious about what kind of relationship that we have together, let me explain to you. Y/N and I are close friends, back in 2012. We went to the same university and even in some classes. I am also close to Jungkook since we were in the same industry for the past five years. So, guys, it's not weird at all if you been seeing me with these two..."

He looked at Y/N, staring at her eyes after he said those words. She got the eyes of innocence, the face of an angel, a personality of a dreamer, and a smile that hides more pain than someone else can ever imagine. How can he crush this beautiful and amazing woman's heart just because of his selfishness to make her stay by his side? He literally cannot force her feelings to change towards him anymore.

I wish that I had never met you, Y/N... Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you. No need for loving you. No need for crying over you. No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears. No need for forgotten memories. No need for rejected hugs. No need for crying myself to sleep. No need for acting as you care. No need, for everything you've done to make me feel like I absolutely nothing special for you, Y/N...

After the press conference ended and all the journalists had already gone out from the hall room, leaving Mark, Jungkook, and Y/N alone still wanted to digest what had happened just now. For Mark, the saddest kind of sad is when his tears can't even drop and he feels nothing. It's like the world has just ended. He doesn't cry, he doesn't hear and he also doesn't see. He just stays there. For a second, his heart dies.

Y/N is going to marry Jungkook soon and he already revealed himself as a friend to both of them. Just a friend. Meeting her was a fate, becoming her friend was a choice but falling in love with her was beyond his control. Days will pass and turn into years but he definitely will remember her with silent tears.

I hope I cross your mind once in a while just so that I won't feel pathetic for thinking of you all the time, Y/N...

But then suddenly Jungkook came punching his face and making him fall down to the floor. Wow, this scumbag really a coward. He gave him a real hard punch without giving any warning. Y/N who was so surprised right now rushing towards Mark who had already laid down on the floor. They both looked at Jungkook who glowering now.

"What was your plan exactly? You wanted to ruin everything right, you son of the bitch!"

Jungkook grabbed his shirt and lifted Mark to get up.

"Do it again! You pathetic coward!" said Mark after spitting the blood from his mouth.

After Mark challenged Jungkook to punch him again, he didn't think twice to punch him for the second time but Y/N quickly blocked his way.

"I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH MARK AGAIN! We had a deal about this before!"

Mark already read about the marriage contract last night and one of the agreements that Y/N put was Jungkook will no longer be able to get involved in all kinds of relationships between Y/N and Mark anymore. He knew Y/N did this for his sake, not letting him get hurt by Jungkook.

"Well guess what Y/N? It only works when we are already married later. But not for today..." Jungkook smirked, still not letting go of Mark's shirt.

"I DID! I did ask him to be a godfather for this baby, okay! So leave us alone!"

Y/N never knew about his plan today but she still wants to back up him from Jungkook. After Y/N said that, Jungkook lets go of Mark's shirt and went out from the hall room. He knew Jungkook also didn't want to argue with Y/N, not in front of his employees.

"Are you okay, Mark?"

"Y/N... You did everything that you could do. You tried everything that you could try. You did what you were supposed to... You stayed loyal and stuck by him even through the worst times. I watched it all, Y/N... You gave him your best... your all... and maybe that right there should be your closure. Maybe that right there should be enough for you to realize that you're better off without a person who doesn't appreciate or respect your love, Y/N. But what happens? You still choose him at the end,"

Mark also walked away after saying those words to Y/N, leaving her alone. His heart was too hurtful. Has Jungkook ever noticed the bags under her eyes? Or the anger issues that she has? Her hollow cheeks and cracked lips still forced into a smile. Struggling to show everyone... That she's a fighter, that she will be alright. No one bothered to hold her close, to tell her that it's okay not to be fine. So she breathed through her life as it was a battlefield and wished that one day she would live, and not just survive. Some say it's painful to wait for someone. Some say it's painful to forget someone. But the worst pain comes when Mark never knew whether to wait or forget her.

The first time I met you it wasn't love at first sight. My love for you formed gradually. Your personality, your voice, your hair, your eyes, your humor, the way you looked away and smiled. Gradually it all came clear to me, you were exactly what I was looking for. Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... The problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you...

After he left JK Group building, he went straight to Raymond Hotel. He just got a message from his dad's assistant once he stepped out of Jungkook's office. His dad wants to see him now. As soon as he arrived at his dad's office, he saw his dad already waiting for him, sitting on the sofa while reading the newspaper. Mark came close to his dad and bowed his head down.

"What are your excuses now?"

Mark knew his dad was asking for his act in Jungkook's office a moment ago. His dad, Raymond Tuan folded the newspaper and looked at him with his straight face. The President of Raymond Hotel was aware of his relationship with Y/N and he has to admit that his dad was not quite agreeing when he knew that his son has a crush on a woman who has an unclear family background.

"I have no excuse and willing to take all the responsibilities what I had done,"

"Responsibility? Hahaha... Now you want to talk about responsibility? Did you ever realize what is your responsibility as the CEO of Raymond Hotel when you gave that stupid confession? A godfather? Hahaha..."

Raymond Tuan was laughing hysterically when he heard his own son dare to talk about responsibility to him. Mark knew his dad is an enemy of JK Group and he never liked it when Mark was involved between Y/N's pregnant controversy and Jungkook's scandal. He doesn't want Raymond Hotel's image will get damaged later.

"I will forget her..."

"How many times have you promised this kind of nonsense?"

"I am serious, dad. This time is real. Y/N will be getting married to Jungkook soon,"

"Fine if you said so. But remember once I hear another scandal about you and her one more time, I will not going to stand still, Mark. Either you or Y/N will get the punishment..."

It's already two weeks after that press conference and today is the day. The wedding day of Y/N and Jungkook. And this is the last time he will be seeing her as he already promised his dad that he's not going to touch Y/N any longer. It's really hard to let go someone goes, especially if that person you've always wanted in your life, but that's the thing. Wanting her is hard to forget, loving her is hard to regret, losing her is hard to accept, but letting her go is the most painful that he needs to deal with. Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be, Mark.

Till death do us part

That Jungkook said to Y/N, in front of the media. But for Mark, he really wants to say this once to her... Just once...

I will love you till this life to the next. And if next life won't grace me with you, I will still love until the next one, and the next, and the next... Till death finally gives up on us, Y/N...

He looked at Y/N who was already in her wedding dress. She is the most beautiful bride he ever saw but yet it's too painful that she is not his bride. Marrying her was just a daydream for him now.

"I'm sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it, Y/N. I will do miss you, but I'm trying my best to stop it..."

"Don't say such things like this, Mark. You are always my precious man..."

Seeing Y/N cry was always his weaknesses. He didn't stop loving her, he just stopped showing it. Because no matter how hard he tried, she just wouldn't see and get it. Mark knows everything about her, except she loves him or not. She also doesn't know anything about him, except the thing that he loves her for the whole time.

The worst feeling ever is knowing from the start that it does never gonna happen. Knowing from the start that she was just too good, way out from his league. Feeling so conscious about how he looks and what he does and yet, he tried it anyway. Having daydreams and imagines and just wished even though he knew that she will never like him back. But the absolute worse is when she just tells him directly that she only sees him as a friend. And somehow his heart just won't listen. But today he needs to let go of her for real even though it took him to cry the whole night long last night.

"I used to care so much about you, Y/N... I used to fight for this. I tried my hardest to hold on and keep you but you didn't want this as much as I did. I didn't lose you. Let's be honest, you lost me..."

Why does it feel like I've lost something that I never had...