Friday, 11th May 2019, 9 am KST...

A day before meeting Y/N...

He walked past the heavy gates and closed it so no one would suspect that he has entered this place. Gravestones lined the eerie graveyard, some recently placed, whereas others, cracked and crumbling. Gravel paths weave through the maze of graves, allowing passersby to pay their respects to the people lined up in the earths embrace. In his hand, there was a bouquet of flower, white Canterbury Bells, his mother favorite. He walked over to his mother's tombstone, under her name Eun Yeong was an engravement, her last words...

Son, I closed my eyes for but a moment and suddenly a man stood where a boy used to be. I may not carry you now in my arms but I will always carry you in my heart. You have given me so many reasons to be proud of the man you have become, but the proudest moment for me is telling others that you are my son. I love you now and forever...

Today is the second death anniversary of his mother. Jungkook kneeled himself in front of his mother's gravestones before prostrated onto the manicured grass. He gave his mother a tradition respect whenever paying a visit to the graves. There's no expression on his face. Happy? Sad? No one can't describe how he was right now.

Your son comes to meet you today...

He exhaled his breath slowly while staring at his mother's tombstone. Today's weather is so cold, dark clouds covered almost the blue sky from shining, from giving him light and played along with his sorrowful heart. He sighed painfully.

"I'm sorry that I can't bring her again this time, mom..."

Since he married to Jennie two years ago, his wife herself never step into this graveyard visiting her mother-in-law. She always came out with some excuses that sometimes Jungkook found it ridiculous and doesn't make sense. But she was not the one he meant just now. Not his current wife, Jennie but his long lost daughter that he never met since she was born. Where is she now? Only God knows...

"And I'm sorry too... I can't keep my promise to you..."

Funny isn't? Or maybe it's embarrassing isn't? His life was all jokes. The most successful man who can manage a huge company easily can't even run a family. Perhaps maybe some of them out there still make a joke on him about divorcing his previous wife and leaving his newborn baby just only to get married a gold-digger. Even though it's already happened two years ago. If only they knew about his mother who also died because of him then it will be a completed drama. This ungrateful son who only knows how to cause troubles and breaking all the beloved people around him.

"Can I cry in front of you, mom?"

Honestly, he tried to hold it a lot from the start he stepped into this area. But today, he was too drowning with his own emotions. He wanted to burst it all out just only for today. Only at this moment. When he was alone, with no one guarding him, watching each of his moves. He might seem tough in front of the other people but no one ever knew how painful he was for the past two years. Jungkook started chewing his lower lip and his eyes already welled up with tears. His eyes bleed with pain, staring at his mother's tombstone. Everything happened in the past; keep appeared in his mind over and over again. The rain fell softly as if it knew of the hardships both behind and ahead. Each droplet alighted on his skin with just enough coolness to command his mind to the present, to pull him away from the pain of the past and the uncertainty of what was to come. He looked up to the sky who willingly to cry with him too.

"If you are really with God now... Can you help me, mom? Ask Him where is Y/N... Where is Eva now? I really really want to know..."

It's not like he already gave up on searching them. He will and always tries every way to find the one he loves so dearly. Even it takes a lifetime. He wanted to make up all the mistakes that he had done to both of them. Why was he so stubborn back then? Why he took Mark's challenge without thinking about them, about Eva's future? And why he prioritized his company over than his family? Now no one stays by his side, leaving him suffered this life alone. He divorced Y/N heartlessly just to save JK Group which was the biggest mistake he ever did. He even lost Eva afterward.

Why did you leave me before listening to my explanation first?

It was more than crying, it was the kind of desolate sobbing that comes from a person drained of all hope. He sank to his knees at the grave, not caring for the damp mud that dirtied his trouser. His tears mingled with the rain and his gasping wails echoed around the gravestones. The suit that he wore now all soaked but he didn't care about it. Or about the meeting that he needs to attend later. It doesn't matter anymore.

I wish I could turn back time so I could fix each mistake and be with you. I wish I could turn back time, Y/N but I can't. I made a stupid decision because I thought I was invincible, and I'll pay for it the rest of my life.

"Jungkook-ah..."

He lifted his head up. It was Kino who coming with an opened umbrella, covered both of them from the rain. Kino who the one brought him here and he make him stayed in the car so that he can have his time alone at the grave. Kino, the most loyal friend to him, always be with him and supporting him through thick and thin for the past eight years.

"Let's get you clean up," he took Jungkook's hand and helping him to stand up.

"I know you will end up like this," said him again while cleaning his best friend's trouser which already covered with mud.

"Please cancel the meeting today," Jungkook wiped his tears off.

"I already did,"

"When?"

"Yesterday,"

He sniggered in tears right after Kino told him. He is really grateful enough Kino still wanted to stay by his side and understood all the hardships that he been through. A true friend, who only cares about him, the one can hear him even when he was quiet.

"I didn't command you to do that,"

"I knew you will be like this, Jungkook-ah. Now let's go home,"

Both of them walked out from the graveyard and heading to the car. A few minutes later, they arrived at Jungkook's house. Instead of going back to work, Kino decided to stay a little longer at his residence. He needs to dry himself up.

"Why you never step into JK Castle? It's been two years since..."

Kino became quiet out of sudden when Jungkook stared at him with his unreadable face. He then passed Kino a towel before taking a seat on the couch. Kino sighed the moment he realized he was almost burst out Y/N's name mistakenly. It is just making Jungkook even sadder if someone ever mentions her name.

"You... you know what I mean right,"

Yes, he indeed understands what Kino tried to say just now. JK Castle, his mansion that he bought when he first married to Y/N. He never steps into that house since he divorced her and more prefer to stay at his old condo. Alone. About Jennie, he bought another house for her and making her free to do anything that she wants as long she won't disturb his life. For him, his marriage with Jennie was only official on the paper and some occasions that need him to be with her. The whole love story between him and Jennie was just an act for their businesses and the public.

"That house isn't mine anymore," he said, in a weak voice.

"It's still yours, Jungkook. You didn't pass the document to her yet,"

How he's gonna give her JK Castle's ownership document if he still can't find her. Jungkook wanted to give his mansion to Y/N because for him, there's no point to keep and to live there alone without those two. The most precious girls he loves that will make JK Castle alive and shines.

"I have no intention to go back," said him while looking at the open balcony. It was a dark and stormy just like him now. The wind sounded its mighty roar, making everything that surrounded it shake in fear, even the curtains fled in terror.

"Too many memories happened there isn't?" said Kino before taking a seat on the couch across Jungkook. How can Kino did not know about that? Of course, he knew everything and witnessed it all between him and Y/N at that house.

Jungkook nodded while chewing his lower lips. His eyes already welled up with tears, tried to hold it back. He lowered his head down, looking at his finger where the marriage ring with Y/N was still placed beautifully. He's never skip wearing it even he already married to another woman. Because for him, he only has one wife in this life and she is Y/N. Forever will be her.

"Weird isn't?" Kino said while his eyes keep looking at this house surrounding.

"What?" asked him before sniffed his nose with his handkerchief.

"You also have a lot of memories with her in this house. And it's way longer than JK Castle. You lived with her here almost for three years,"

"There's no Eva here..." said him slowly.

"Huh?"

"I don't have any memory with Eva here,"

There are so much happy things when Y/N was still pregnant. Even though he only there for her at last of her three months pregnancy. He gets to learn every new thing on every single day about parenting. Treating how childish and immature Y/N could be sometimes and cuddling with her while waiting for Eva's kicking on the inside. Having some night talks about the future and hope how things going to be well between three of them. Kiss her baby bump before going to work. Having some conversation between daddy and daughter-to-be even people found it some silly act, but not for him. He was very happy back then, thinking how lucky he was going to be a dad soon. But now, all that he dreamt of crushed, broken into pieces.

"Do you know what you need now?" asked Kino

"What?"

He looked at Kino who was pulling something from his bag. Whatever thing that Kino tried to convince him with, he for sure will not going to play along.

"A holiday," said him while putting two flight tickets on the table.

Jungkook took that ticket and read it. His eyes narrowed, surprised after knowing which country Kino just bought. Is he gone insane? That's so far from South Korea and he ain't leaving JK Group easily.

"Italy?" he looked at Kino who didn't stop smiling.

"Guess what?"

"What?" asked him dumbfoundedly.

"What have in Italy?"

"Can you just explain to me straight-forwardly? I don't have time to think about your stupid guessing game," he yelled to Kino.

"Lamborghini you stupid!"

"Lamborghini? Why with Lambo?"

Why Kino suddenly mention about that Italian brand and manufacturer of luxury cars? And why it's related to him? Why does he need to go there for the Lamborghini sake?

"I just got an email yesterday and you know what... they want to collaborate with JK Group,"

"Collaborate?"

"Yeah, they will be throwing a sports car roadshow next week and our company listed as a special guest to perform our latest Minotauro edition,"

Was he misheard right now? The worldwide famous Lamborghini wants to work with JK Group?

"Seriously? Oh my god! I can't believe it! Kino! Are you kidding me?!"

"I know right! I also can't believe it first when reading that email,"

"Oh my god! That's an achievement for JK Group!"

It was very unbelievable for Jungkook. Finally, his company that he had been working on for the five years could be on the same level with those famous branded cars like Lamborghini, Ferrari, Audi, Maserati and many more.

"Alright, here is the tentative about this. The roadshow will be starting on Monday until Thursday. But we need to fly to Italy by tonight because you will be having some meetings with their management team tomorrow,"

"Tomorrow?" wow, that was so fast. He even didn't prepare anything yet.

"Yeah, tomorrow morning. 10 am Italy time zone. Our flight will be on 12 in the midnight and perhaps we could reach Rome on 7 am. And we need to take another flight to... hmm what we call that town... wait a minute..." Jungkook looked at Kino who's reading a paper.

"San't Agata Bolognese," said Kino, trying hard to pronounce that town name properly.

"San... san... what?" Jungkook took the tentative paper from Kino. He also tried to spell that town name.

"San't Agata Bolognese. Never mind about that. We could search it up on the net. Anyways, that town was four hours away from Rome if we take the car so I guess, we have to take another flight to arrive there on time. And don't worry, I already booked our tickets there, accommodation and car for us,"

Jungkook took his phone and tried to search about that town.

"It's just a small town, Kino. No wonder I don't know about it. It's only known for having Lamborghini headquarter there,"

"Yeah, could you imagine that all the brand sports car from all over the world will gather there and we might get a chance to expose JK Group internationally,"

"Did you tell the Minotauro team yet?" asked Jungkook.

"Yeah, they are preparing for it right now," replied Kino happily.

Jungkook looked at him. He exhaled his breath slowly and leaned his back against the couch. Since he emotionally messed up two years ago, Kino was the one who's doing his work. Yes, the President's work. And if not because of him, JK Group won't be able to be stable like now. He admitted that he almost makes his own company went bankrupt because of those controversies. How can he accept this achievement blindly as it's not from his own hard work?

"You should go," Jungkook said to Kino, weakly.

"What? Of course, we should go,"

"I'm not going,"

"Why? Like you are also happy with it a few seconds ago,"

"I'm happy for you Manager Kino. You're the important person behind this. Let they celebrate you for your achievement there. Not me," Jungkook gave him a smile before standing up. He wanted to go to his bedroom, the place that he spent his sorrowful days.

"I know that's not what you meant!" said Kino, raised his voice up. He also stood up. Jungkook turned his back to him.

"Mark's hotel is in Venice. There's no way that you could meet him," said Kino again.

His anger boiled up every time he heard anyone mention that loser's name. How many times he tried to force Mark, telling where he hides Y/N, still he got zero answers. Even after he sent his men to stalk Mark in Italy, that douchebag won't show him the location of his daughter. He knows Y/N with Mark now. But where? Now he doubted Y/N was in Italy even though he was told that Mark keeps going back and forth to Italy especially this year. Because of his second hotel there? Well sometimes make sense, sometimes not.

"I'm not hoping Y/N is there,"

"So go," said Kino, encouraged him.

"I don't want to,"

"Why? It's because you are really hoping she's there right. And then you will never meet her and make your hope crushes to the ground and then go back to your room and keep crying all over again. I know you Jungkook. I know you well than your goddamn wife, Jennie," Kino yelled at him without any sign of stopping. He looked at Kino who tried to catch his breath after talking so fast.

"Now go pack your things," Kino instructed him like a boss.

"How about you?"

"I already did and it's in my car right now,"

Jungkook looked at him unblinkingly. Kino might know that Jungkook will end up doing some troubles like this so he prepared himself earlier. Kino canceled the meeting today because he knew how miserable Jungkook will be after visiting his mother's grave. Kino prepared everything for the flight tonight because he knew Jungkook couldn't handle it in a short time, not in this condition. And Kino also packed his things earlier just because he wanted Jungkook having some times considering this and those before he could get himself together.

"I'm sorry giving you hard times, Kino,"

He went to his room, leaving Kino alone in the living room. What Kino just said to him was true. He can't live like this forever. Like a coward and pitiful. If Mark knew how he was for the past two years, he will be mocking him for the rest of his life.

He tried to pull out the luggage where it's on the drawer but then a box dropped fell off to the floor. As soon he saw that box and a few things came off, he realized what the box was. It was a box full of Y/N stuff. He went down and picked her things back to the box. Every memory he had with Y/N been there. Pictures, matching couple tees, movie date tickets, Valentine presents and so much more that he can't even describe.