Leo and I were walking through the streets of the city where I've never walked before. It was nice just walking around, expressing how I felt with all the Brody and Amina stuff that was going on.

"But nothing happened between you two, right?" Leo asked. Of course not, who does he thinks I am.

"Of course not Leo, why would you even ask me that?" I responded annoyed. He knows me, I wouldn't just kiss anyone.. even though Brody isn't just anyone.

"Good." Leo answered. He sounded relieved, like he was happy nothing happened between us.

"Wait, Fia..." Leo said out of nowhere.

"What? What's wrong Leo?" I asked curiously.

"I lied about coming over here, I actually had class today but I skipped... for you.."

Wait, what was he saying? He skipped class for me? why? Why now?

"Euhm okay? But why now, why not like a few months ago?" I asked.

"I.." he sighed, like it was really tough what he was about to say. "I've missed you"

"Oh, I've missed you too." I responded punching his upper arm.

I continued my walk but Leo wasn't following me.

"Are you coming or what?" I asked.

He ran towards me and walked besides me.

Leo stopped and made me stop after a few minutes of silently walking next to each other.

"Okay no, I'm just gonna go for it."

He leaned in closer and I knew what he was about to do, call me a girl with experience. Not in a wrong way, but in a way that lately every guy wants to kiss me.

"What are you doing?" I asked slowely while watching him leaning in.

"Something I wanted to do since forever." He whispered.

"Okay NO!" I said which made him jump.

"I'm sick of guys trying to do haram things which I try to stay away from."

"What?" Leo asked surprised.

"I thought we were friends? Why are you ruining that by trying to kiss me?" I asked annoyed.

What was wrong with the guys in this city? I'm not that special, I don't even understand what these guys see in me.

"Oh, you like me too Safia, don't even try to deny it.. I've seen how jealous you were when I was around other girls." He said taking my hand in his and pulling me to him.

Surprise, prize to the dumbest person on this planet went to Nathan, but hey, Leo comes closely second.

"Ha! You are.. you.. uuugh you are all the same."

"I'm going to say this one time only, I don't have any feelings for you.. go back from where you came from!" With that being said, I left and didn't turn around.

I don't understand, why is this always happening to me? First Brody, then Nathan and now Leo. I really thought he was a good friend, but all this time he secretly liked me. There's nothing wrong with liking anyone, it's what you do with that feeling that makes it right or wrong. And Leo knew everything about me, about my religion and about me not being interested in guys. And that's why it made me this angry.

Why can't I just turn my feelings off like in The Vampire Diaries, GOD that would help a lot!

I was heading home, for the first time, alone.. Actually second time.

I wasn't feeling too well when I arrived home, and this wasn't the first time. I had a headache for a few days now and I was coughing really hard and repeatedly. But it was worser now.

I went to the bathroom as I had this feeling that I would vomit, and a few seconds later I was hanging with my head above the toilet.

"Brody are you okay?" my mom asked through the bathroom-door.

I cleaned my mouth when I was done so I could respond.

"Yeah mom I'm fine, drinking yesterday wasn't that smart of me haha." I responded.

"Well, now you know what not to do", she said and left.

I haven't been drinking for the last month, something else was causing this, I just didn't know what.

I looked in the mirror and washed my face. I dried myself off and combed my hair back as it was all over the place. I looked at myself one more time and was about to walk out of the bathroom. That was until I noticed a lot of hair on the floor, it was not my mother's nor my sister's because they have really blonde hair and this hair was too short to be theirs. It was mine, I was losing hair.. I was losing hair, I was vomiting, had a bad cough and a headache. That could only mean two things, either I caught a cold or.. or my cancer is back.

No it couldn't be, I was probably just sick. I cleaned up the hair and went to my room. The thought of my cancer being back scared me. What if.. what if I end up like my father?

No! I need to stop the negative thoughts, I'm just sick like a normal person. I'm going to take in some pills for my cold and sleep early today.

I'll be okay, I hope...

*The next day*

I was feeling better today, sleeping early did me good.

I'm going to talk to Safia today, the thought of my cancer being back woke me up. Life is too short, I want what I desire, I will have it, I will have her.

I arrived at school and saw Safia sitting in the canteen, alone. Why was she alone and why did she seem down for some reason?

"Hey." I started slowly when I arrived at her table. "Can I-..." I asked pointing to the empty seat across her.

"Sure." she responded.

"Soo?"

"So what?"

"So, tell me what's bothering you."

"Nothing."

I wasn't believing her, she was hiding something.

"I saw you with a guy yesterday, where is he now?" I asked.

If he did something to her, he..

"He left." she said.

"Did he do something?" I asked whilst balding my fists under the table.

"No." she responded but I knew she was lying. She does this thing when she's lying, she starts playing around with her own fingers.

"You're lying." I said.

She sighed and I saw a tear rolling over her cheek.

I wiped the tear away with my thumb.

"Don't Brody, people are looking at us."

"I don't care, tell me what happened." I said.

She took a break for a few seconds and started telling me what was bothering her.

"I said something to Amina I regret, I snapped at you the other day and", she paused, like she was thinking if she would say the following thing or just keep it to herself, "and Leo tried to kiss me, like, what are people seeing in me?" She finished.

I can't believe that that scumbag just tried to make a move on her.

"About Amina, just go talk to her and apologize, about me, I figured out later that you were probably on your monthly appointment with mother nature", she laughed at what I said, "And if you want me to pin Leo down..."

"No, he's already back home. But I will go talk to Amina.. thank you Brody." She smiled.

"Anytime Safia." I responded.

"Anyway, let's get to class shall we?"

"Go ahead, I'm going to find Amina.. I'll see you in class." She smiled.

I nodded and left to first period.

I found Amina in the hallway talking to her friends, before I even said something I hugged her tightly and apologised for everything. She accepted my apologies and we sat down and talked for a few minutes.

It was time to get to class after a good 5 minutes, I can't be late. I skipped yesterday for the first time this year and I don't want to get behind on everything.

"I love you, I'll maybe see you after school." I said to Amina.

"In Sha Allah babe." She responded and I left to first period and she did the same.

I told her everything about being on my period that day, that I also lost it at Brody and about Leo being in town. She listened like she always did and gave me some advice about moving forward and not thinking about it too much. I would've never forgave myself if I lost her because of my stubbornness.

I sat down in class next to Brody as he saved me a seat.

"Talked things out between you and Amina?" Brody asked. I loved that he was so caring and understanding, if it wasn't for him I would've never made the first move.

"Yeah we did, thank you." I said and smiled at him.

He smiled back and turned to face the teacher.

...

Brody had this terrible cough as we only had a few minutes until class was over. He was coughing non-stop the last half-hour and you could see that some students were annoyed by it. It's not like he could do something about it...

"Here you go Brody." I gave him a tissue so he could cover his mouth with it while he was coughing.

I actually was really worried, his coughs were deep.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

He coughed again, holding the tissue I gave him against his mouth.

He turned around and nodded, but I wasn't looking at him, I was looking at his tissue that had a red mark on it. It wasn't big but he still coughed up blood, and I'm not that stupid to think that's normal.

"What?" Brody asked when he noticed that I wasn't looking at him.

"You coughed up blood!" I whispered, I didn't want everybody to look at him.

He looked at the tissue and folded it up when he also noticed the blood.

"Brody!" I said when he wasn't answering my statement.

"Miss Bourdini, Brody can take my place if you can't keep your eyes on me." The teacher said annoyed.

Everybody looked at us and were laughing at what the teacher said.

"Sorry Miss." I responded and she continued with what she was saying.

I looked at Brody one more time who also looked confused.

I faced the teacher again and payed attention on what she was saying, at least I tried.

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Have a lovely day 💕

Xxx

~Edited by R3Hijabi ~