Where there is desire

There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame

Someone’s bound to get burned ~ Try - P!nk

Sometimes I wonder, why I even try? What's the use in trying to fit in, when one day they'll know. They'll definitely know how different you are. Why bother? But then, humans have always been narrow-minded, not caring about... things. I could go on but like I said, what's the use?

So the first week was over. I'd bought a calender to mark the end of each day to know when we could finally leave. Practices were going good. The kids had warmed up to me. I'd tell them stories about our history. It was a shame how less their parents told them about everything. Most of them weren't strong enough to start the practices I wanted to give them so I was making them mentally fit. I'd give them puzzles and riddles and games like hide and seek. Stuff that made them think and move their limbs.

I hadn't seen Jace again and I wasn't happy about it, which was stupid. And Noah was avoiding me. Which was also stupid, but helpful.

School was obviously boring. Well, the first week of it was. But that was soon about to change.

Unfortunately, not for the better.

So it was Monday, and I was waiting for Ashley in the school hallway. She had forgotten her lip gloss and had gone back to get it. The rest of the pack were spending the day together as they weren't seeing each other much. And I, of course, had a lollipop in my mouth.

So I choked on my saliva when I saw him walking towards me. He was looking at a piece of paper in his hand -a schedule and locker combination from what I could make out- and hadn't noticed me yet. And I made sure that he wouldn't notice me. I ran to my first class, in normal speed.

Which I regretted later as I had to listen to Ashley go on about how impatient and uncaring I was.

All through the first class, all I could think about was Jace. It was annoying really, the way I'd try to concentrate on the subject and then I'd look at the beautiful silver-painted pen -Grey had given it to me- in my hand and think how it were nothing compared to Jace's eyes and BAM! I'm thinking of him again.

Super annoying.

Which was how I was feeling as Ashley, who was sitting next to me, complained under her breath about me leaving her stranded. And then I realized that I hadn't seen the rest of my pack throughout the week. I mean yeah, sure I seen them but we never chatted like before.

Wow. This place made us apart in a week. And I had more than six months to look forward to.

It was during third period- maths- when all hell broke loose. In my mind, of course. Because he was there! All I was doing was sitting in my seat by the window. Ashley was, again, sitting next to me and for the first time, I was really annoyed with her babbling and complaining.

And then suddenly he walked in and sat right in front of me. Just like that. No glance at me, or anyone else. Just came in and sat there. I mean, yeah, every student does that but this was Jace I'm talking about. Then I realized that I was probably going crazy if I was thinking Jace could not just come in and sit in front of me.

Ashley nudged me and whispered 'Talk about hot!' which for some reason made me blush and shush her. She looked at me weird and eavesdropped on the other human and werewolf students -my pack had heightened senses, even for werewolves- who were whispering similar sentences. Which made me blush even more.

I heard someone whisper something about how it would be like to kiss those lips, which did not help my pink cheeks.

I had kissed those lips of his.

And I had the strangest urge to do it again.

Which scared me.

Why was I feeling this when I had a mate?

I saw Jace inhale and stiffen. He looked out the window and I saw the side of his beautiful, spotless face, along with his eyes, which were brighter due to the sunlight. They also seemed to be changing color when he moved, like those 3d cards. One second they're blue and the next they're silver and I'm feeling like a hallucinating idiot.

I also noticed him looking at me from the corner in his eyes. But instead of panicking, I felt a smile tugging at my lips. That sneaky, little-

Something made me remember that he was human and I could never be with him which immediately made me drop my smile.

But I still stared at his face. And I honestly felt better when I noticed his mischievous smile.

Did he know it was me? I immediately felt stupid when I realized that he obviously knew or he wouldn't be looking at me from the corner of his eyes and smiling that smile he always gave me whenever he saw me. It was one of a kind. I knew it.

Throughout the entire class, once in a while, he would pretend to look out the window and see me from the corner of his eye. And I was thankful that Ashley didn't noticed a thing as she was too busy listening to a conversation two girls were having about a sale in the mall or something. I was too busy staring at Jace's back.

His smile reminded me of the pranks we had played on the random strangers when he had taken me to the park. He had convinced me to hide with him behind a tree while he made smooching sounds which had annoyed Bernie, the security guard. Then we would run with Barnie -the rotweiler named after Bernie- on our tails and Bernie on Barnie's tail. Well, not really his tail. Uh, you get it.

When we had to rest, I'd bribe Barnie with the dog cookies I'd keep in my pocket whenever I came to the park in hopes of seeing Barnie. We'd get to rest for about five minutes before Barnie would come running, his hand on his head to keep his security guard cap from flying off as he ran.

I had to stop myself from laughing out loud as I recalled the memory but it was hard to keep the smile off my face.

As soon as class was over, I shot up and tried to get out of the class room so that Jace wouldn't talk to me. I don't think I could stop my feelings around him.

But unfortunately, Ashley had other plans. Before I could take my bag and leave, her hand caught my wrist and she glared at me. 'You're not leaving me again.' and she got to work on packing her bag. 'Hurry up!' I whispered.

She looked at me weird. I was the only one in the entire class that was standing up, ready to go. Others were still packing up. Great.

'Um, Jessie? Is that you?' I froze. Jessie. I wasn't Jessie now. He couldn't know that I was Jessie! That would really complicate things with the pack. My stomach dropped. Weird.

I noticed Ashley's wide eyes as she realized that "The Hot Guy" was talking to me. I gulped and slowly turned around.

His eyes immediately made me nervous. Remember the effect they had on people? Yeah, that "looking into your soul" effect was pretty strong on me at that moment. It was as if his eyes were daring me to lie to them. Did not help my case. Jace and I -for the six days we knew each other- never lied to each other. His eyes had a calming effect on me then, as if I could just blurt out my entire life story with each little secret and he wouldn't judge me. And I hated him for that.

But I had managed to lie to him about my Lycanthropic heritage then, I can lie to him about my identity now. I hope.

'Uh, I'm sorry. I'm Allyn? Not Jessie.' I had hoped that my confused expression looked real. Jace, on the other hand, didn't look too surprised. 'Oh. Hey Allyn. Sorry about that. I'm new here and I must be imagining things. Guess I'm a bit too desperate for a familiar face, huh? I'm Jace. Pleased to meet you.' Now I was really confused. He believed me? No questions or anything? No "Ha, good joke Jessie." or "Not Jessie? Remember me? Can't fool me." or "You've got even worse at lying.".

But I 've got to say, for some reason, I was disappointed that he didn't remember me. Well, I guess I had changed a lot but still.

'Hey Jace.' I smiled at him. I didn't realize then that I was giving him the smile. The one I gave him and only him. He moved his hand forward and I shook it. I'd be lying if I suddenly didn't feel like jumping in happiness with the strange sensation I had with his cold hands in mine.

Ashley nudged me slowly, so that he wouldn't notice. I was still cluctching his hand, smiling like an idiot while I remembered the first time I'd met him.

I was walking in the park and there were tears in my eyes as I had been made fun of again. I suddenly bumped into him and fell down. I remembered feeling a pain in my side, which was bruised due to the beating I'd gotten. Weird. I feel a pain there now.

I realized that Ashley was now "nudging" me a bit too painfully on my side.

I scowled at her and introduced her to him. Sadly, I had to remove my hand from his. From the slight -really slight. Only I could make that out as I was his best friend and (probably) girl-friend- frown on his face, he didn't like letting go of my hand, either.

Then, I realized that I couldn't be with him, like that, but I could be with him, like a friend.

Yeah, I could do that. I smiled again when I caught him looking at me as we walked out the class. Ashley was babbling to him now. Anything to be with him.

Only, things never go the way I want. I should have known that by then.

Of course, I was wrong again.