Here I am again in the dark hallway. I turned around and there he was, Hisashi, but this time was different. He was crying.. this dream I have never experienced. I walked up to him slowly and he looked up. "Izuku.." he whispered and I froze, I haven't heard him call me that name since before he started doing drugs... "Yes?" I answered he stood up and walked toward me I was expecting him to hit me but he.. hugged me. I hesitated but I hugged back. He starting crying again saying he was sorry... I didn't know how to react "I'm sorry for everything, you were an amazing boy, I was jealous that you weren't my own son. When the doctor said you said your real fathers quirk I was so upset I took it out on both of you... those couple months we shared as father and son was the best few months I had besides the first 4 years of your life. You didn't know but your mother and I knew who your real father was... so when you started being a fan boy of Eraser head as a kid I felt rage, that you don't know that he was your father and you still looked up to him. I felt as I failed as a father" he explained and I could feel the tears burning my eyes and cheek as they fell. "The older you got the more you started looking like him in ways, your quirk. But you were different... you were acting like me. All the things I did to you... the people I sent to you. When you killed them that was the first time I felt happiness that you were almost my son. But you were still scared of me... you were scared... of me. I WAS YOUR FATHER I FUCKING RAISED YOU AND YOU WERE SCARED OF ME YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO BE SCARED YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE STRONG AND FIGHT BACK BUY YOU DIDNT YOU SAT THERE USELESS AS I BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU AND YOUR MOTHER!" He yelled and I backed away "look at you. Still scared of me. Still the useless mistake you were back then!" He yelled coming towards me I tried to move back but I was frozen to the ground. I finally moved my arms but they were in chains again. "No... NO LEAVE ME ALONE" I yelled crying he hit me. Everytime I screamed no he would hit me. I closed my eyes knowing it was a mistake because when I opened them I was in the basement chained to the wall my mother dead in a pool of her own blood. Hisashi laughing a deep horrifying laugh. He turned to me his eyes glowing blood red with murder in them. "No leave me the hell alone! YOUR DEAD!" I yelled out and he stopped and looked at me "Your right I am dead.... YOU KILLED ME! You murdered me just like all the others!! You will never be the hero you want to be. YOUR A MONSTER JUST LIKE ME IZUKU!" He yelled and I froze. No. No I can't be. I'm "NO IM NOTHING LIKE YOU!" I yelled through the pain and him burning me "Oh but your wrong my sweet little Izuku, I raised you to be a monster just like me. Even after my death you went back to killing people. The job I got you" he said with a smirk my eyes widen. "You told me too! I said if I did you would move on and leave me alone! But you lied. You left me alone until I quit doing it and you came back. YOU LIED TO ME AGAIN!" I yelled trying to break free of the chains I was in. "You can try all you want but you'll never escape me.... or him" he said pointing to the shadows. Muscular walked out. I froze and started shaking in fear. I couldn't use my quirk. No. No this is a dream. I need to wake up. I tried so hard "Oh pretty boy~" muscular said seductively. No. I'm not living this again. No. No NO WAKE UP IZUKU WAKE UP! I yelled to myself in my head "You'll never wake up" they both said in unison. I started shaking I could hear Dabi and Shiggys voice telling me to wake up

"Ohhh I see you met your cousin" Hisashi said and muscular had a smirk "So youre Shigarakis cousin huh? You know I work for him. I'm sure he wouldn't mind me using his cousin as my little play toy. Right pretty boy~" he said and I was horrified. I can't wake up. No. I'm not doing this again. "I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU YOU SICK BASTARD!" I yelled fuming in rage they laughed and muscular used his quirk to hit me my head slammed back into the wall. I could hear the crack. I tried to wake up I closed my eyes wishing to see Dabi or anyone."

"AAAHHHHHH!!!!!" I yelled shooting up panting, covered in sweat I could see the chains on my wrist. "No no leave me alone!" I screamed scratching at my wrist I felt someone grab me "NO LEAVE ME ALONE" I yelled pushing them away "ZuZu please calm down it's me" I heard dabis voice but I couldn't calm down "No no no no you're not here. They're here he's going to kill me." I whispered grabbing my hair "Izuku, no one is going to hurt you. It's okay" that was dads voice I slowly looked up and I seen dad there I jumped up and ran to him "He won't leave me alone. He's still here. I FUCKING KILLED HIM AND HE IS STILL HERE!" I yelled into his chest "I want Dabi and Shiggy" I cried "Izu were right here"I heard Shiggy say in a soft voice I turned around and they were there, so was Nezu, Pops, Uncle, Kacchan and Kurogiri. I seen the clock on my nightstand that read "3:21 AM". I ran to them "don't let him touch me. I don't want to be his play toy. Please Shiggy don't let him" I sobbed into his chest "Let who touch you? I won't let anyone touch you Izu but you have to tell me who" he said I sobbed harder "Muscular" was all I said.

Shiggy tensed he picked me up and I latched onto him like a Koala "Alright, it's therapy time Izu" he said and I nodded he sat me down on the bed me still in his lap. He turned me around slowly and I was facing everyone. Toga was crying in the corner and everyone had tears in their eyes. "Alright Izuku, I know we're not at the bar but this will have to do okay?" Kurogiri asked and I nodded. "Alright, can you start from the beginning for me" he asked and I nodded "I woke up in the dark hallway again.. I knew what I was going to face, but when I turned around I seen Hisashi sitting on the floor crying... I didn't know what to do but my body kept moving toward him on its own. He looked up and I stopped. He said my name. He called me Izuku... he got up and walked toward me. I was frozen in place I thought he was going to hit me like usual but he didn't... he hugged me. He started crying and saying he was sorry over and over again. I didn't know how to react but I hugged him back. I felt safe with him like I did in those couple months. He pulled away and he started telling me how he felt like he failed as a father when I got Aizawas quirk. He was pissed. It was like I got pulled away from him, and it didn't help when I became a fan of Aizawa either... he said that even though I didn't know he was my dad I still looked up to him like I should have with him... he said that over the years he hated me because I started acting like dad instead of him. That's why he beat my mom and I. Then he said when I killed those people that he was happy, that I was actually his son. Not dads. He kept going on about how happy we were while we bonded as father and son. Then he snapped... he kept repeating how I was scared of him and his eyes went full of rage. He started telling me how useless I was that I was supposed to be like him. He said he would beat mom and I so I could become strong, I was supposed to fight him back and save my mom... that's when the chains formed around my wrist again... I closed my eyes and I knew it was a mistake. When I opened them back up my mom was there dead in a pool of her own blood. Hisashi was laughing like a fucking maniac. He turned to me and his eyes were glowing blood red with murder written in every spot. I yelled at him to leave me alone and that he was dead. That's when things got worse....he told me I was right... that he was dead because I killed him. That I was a murder. He told me I could never become a hero. That I was exactly like him. I denied it. I told him I was nothing like him. But he dropped the act and got soft...." I said and tears started falling out of my eyes.

"What did he said Izuku?" Kurogiri asked

"He said 'Oh but your wrong my sweet little Izuku, I raised you to be a monster just like me. Even after my death you went back to killing people. The job I got you'" I repeated with tears in my eyes. "He.. he. HE PROMISED ME HE WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE!!" I yelled out Shiggy pulled me closer into his chest and held me tight. "He promised if I did that job he would leave me alone. Then nightmares would disappear. He was right, until they got raided by heroes. I couldn't go back to it. That's when they appeared again" I said still crying.

"Izuku what job did you do?" Dad asked and I turned my head toward him. Him, Pops and Kacchan are the only ones in the room that don't know "How about we come back to that question... Izuku can you continue to tell us more about this nightmare?" Kurogiri said and I calmed down and nodded

"I yelled at him saying he promised to leave me alone. And that he lied to me again. I tried to break the chains but he said I couldn't escape from him.... then he pointed to the dark corner.... and said or him. I was confused I didn't know what he meant until he came out... it was Muscular. He called me his nickname for me and I hated it. He always called me pretty boy. I tried using my quirk but I couldn't. That's when I heard Dabi and Shiggys voice telling me to wake up. That's when Hisashi said 'oh I see you met your cousin' and muscular seemed to be happy about that... because he said... he ...." I couldn't finish it I started crying again.

"It's okay Izuku, we know it's hard for you to tell us all of this. You are doing amazing job so far" Kurogiri said and I felt happy about that. I looked at Uncle and then Shiggy.

"He said that he worked for you... then he said that you wouldn't mind him using me as his little play toy. Then called me pretty boy again" I said wanting to throw up. I could feel shiggys anger radiating off of him. I got up and went into my closet and grabbed an all night figurine and gave it to him. Everyone looked at me weird but Kacchan laughed "He buys them so when he's pissed off he can destroy them... so my guess he wants you too use your quirk and decay it to make you feel a little better.. it's been a habit of his since we were 12" Kacchan explained. Shiggy gladly took it and quickly decayed it. "Izu. I will decay him if I ever see him again" Shiggy said in a dark voice "Not if I find him first" I said in a dark voice and a smirk. "Calm down zuzu your villain side is showing" Dabi said and rubbed my back. I calmed down after a few minutes and Dabi put me in his lap. Uncle was pacing around my room probably planning a murder.

"Izuku what happened after that?" Kurogiri asked

"I was filled with rage and I told him I would kill him. Him and Hisashi laughed and muscular hit me so hard I hit my head on the wall hearing a crack and I closed my eyes and wished to see anyone else and I woke up. But when I woke up I could still see the chains on me. I felt someone grab me and I thought it was him and I freaked out until I heard dad. And now we're here" I explained and he nodded. "Shall we continue our normal therapy dinner after you finished talking to us?" Kurogiri asked and I nodded knowing exactly what he meant "Alright, first. Before I head down I need you to put on a t shirt. Can you do that for me?" He asked and I looked at dad and pops and back at him and slowly nodded. I stood up and Dabi came with me, I walked to the closet and he turned around. I changed into a short sleeved shirt. And hugged Dabi. He hugged me back "Hey it's Okay Izu, we've all seen you before. Aizawa won't mind, I'm sure they're telling him why we do this okay?" He said to reassure me and I nodded. "You ready to go out?" He asked "Yeah.." he grabbed my hand softly and started walking to the door but stopped he turned around to face me and looked down at my arm. He brought my arm up to his face and softly kissed over my scars. I started crying "Theyre beautiful Zuzu, just like you, I will tell you that everytime if I have too. Because it's true" he said and kissed my forehead he looked down at me and wiped my tears "Come on my little Koala" he said and picked me up. I clung to him like the little koala I am and we walked out.

We sat back down and Dad came over stealing me from Dabi and hugged me I cling to him as well and hugged back. "It's okay Izuku, I'm not mad at you at all. Villains or not. I'm so happy that your getting help and talking about things. I wish you would have came to me but I understand why. Shigaraki explained what happened that day and how you stayed with them and started therapy with them. He wouldn't tell me what you talked about but I hope one day you can tell me. I won't push you aside or judge you in anyway. You're my son, and I love you. I'll always be here for you." He said and I cried. I have never cried so much in one night around so many people "It's the same for me Izu, your my little brother. Blood or not. You know I'm not going to judge you. Hell I helped you bury two bodies. You really think I'm going to judge you?" Kacchan said and I giggled. Dad put me down and looked at me "he helped you?" He asked and I nodded. "Yeah... I didn't know what to do and I panicked. He came over and helped me bury their bodies... after 20 minutes of him throwing up and complaining, he helped. He knows a lot about my past but not everything... I thought if I told him he would change and turn to hate me or turn me in... honestly. I'm more of a villain than anyone in this room." I said but mumbled the last part. But they heard it. "Izuku what do you mean by that?" Dad asked and Kacchan agreed. I sighed Dabi came and picked me up sitting down in a chair and held me on his lap. "Therapy time again?" Toga said softly. I opened my arms wide and she came running into them "you scared me Izu, we couldn't wake you up and we had to call everyone and it still didn't work. We were all so scared. But you woke up and I felt so happy but you looked so scared and broken. I'm so sorry Izu" she said crying into my shoulder I rubbed her back "It's okay Toga, I'm fine. I might not sleep for a couple days but I'll be okay. Look at how much you guys are helping me!" I said trying to cheer her up and it worked. She pulled away and smiled. "You're right, our crazy asses are helping you" she said giggling which made me giggle. "Sorry, let's get back to therapy time" she said and sat down on the floor. I nodded and sighed. Before I could start Kurogiri came in with breakfast and Katsudon for me. I smiled happily and thanked him we all ate our food and sat around talking for a while. Until I spoke up ready to tell them about my past.