Mia's P.O.V

Today is the last day of work for me. I'm in front of Jacob's office. He hasn't yet noticed me. I love my job but my feelings for Jacob are forbidding me from continuing it. I can't stay with him anymore. My heart is already broken into pieces and only distance between us will heal my heart. I knocked on Jacob’s door and waited for his signal to come in.

"Come in." Jacob said.

"Hi." I said.

"Hey Mia come and sit." He said.

"It's ok. I won't be long. I have come to give you my resignation letter." I said.

"What?" He asked.

"My resignation letter" I said once again.

"But why?" He asked.

"My contract has finished." I said with a duh tone.

"We can renovate it. Stay I need you... I mean you are a good secretary." He said quickly covering what he was previously going to say.

For a second I thought he was going to ask me to stay, that he loves me.

"No I can't. Anyway I'm moving to my grandma's house. I won't be able to drive six hours for work. It will be difficult." I reasoned with him.

"As you wish, I'll do all the formalities. Anyway it was nice working with you." He said shaking my hand.

"Thanks." I replied shaking his hand back.

Then he said ‘Bye’ before going back to what we were doing before I came in.

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Bye." I said quickly as I could feel tears in my eyes. I know Jacob saw me crying but I did not wait for Jacob to say something. I ran out of the room and went straight to my car. I already said good bye to Jordan. I'll miss all of them even Jacob after all he was my first.

I stayed in my car bawling my eyes. Then I went back home to continue packing. Everything was already packed except some clothes and my cosmetics. The last two days Jordan came to help me pack.

Gabriel visited also. He had come to town for a meeting and he took that opportunity to see his old friends. We all had dinner together; Gabriel, Jordan, Jacob and I. Gabriel was opening an office in Mauritius; an island in the Indian Ocean. He is pretty excited about this deal and he thinks that Mauritius will be lucky for him. Well I wished him all the best.

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Today is the day when I’m shifting to my grandmother’s place. For the past days I couldn’t sleep at all. I woke up constantly at night, crying when I had nightmares about the car crash of my parents. Those nightmares had stopped years ago but maybe because of the fact that I have a lot of things on my mind caused them to arise.

Today also I was woken up by the feeling of wanting to vomit. I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I forgot about me being sick as I already had so much on my mind lately. Every night I would go to sleep thinking about Jacob and wakes up thinking about him. Today, as my eyes opened I ran straight to the bathroom where I vomited all my previous night’s food. The smell of the food made me vomit more till I only made sounds of vomiting.

After one or two weeks, since I came from London I started being sick. Maybe I caught a virus there or maybe its food poisoning. There is also a third possibility but I don’t think it’s that. We used protection the night we slept together, the first and the sec… wait we were drunk at that time. OMG, we didn’t use protection for the second time. Jacob was drunk. He admitted that he was drunk and I did not even find any condom in the room. Is it possible? Am I pregnant?

After I get settled in grandma's house I'll go see a doctor there in that town itself. Here, it’s too risky. Someone may see me.

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After three hours of driving I reached Grandma's home. I went to open the door and the windows so that air could enter. After that I opened the back door of my car and took out the small boxes and brought them in. then I opened my boot and let out sigh when I saw how many boxes there were. I was struggling on lifting the first box itself when I heard someone clearing their throat. When I turned, I saw a teenage boy standing, looking at me intensely.

“May I help you?” I asked him.

“I should be asking you that.” He said gesturing to the boxes in my boot.

“Oh. Right, so will you help me?” I asked.

“Anyone would want to help you.” He said making blush.

“Right, so just bring the box inside and leave them in the living room.

“Cool.” He said before getting to work.

I went in the kitchen and started cleaning everything. When I was done, the boy whose name was Jason came in, and said that he was finished too. I gave him some money and he showed me where he lived and told me to come someday. I politely refused, saying that I’m not staying for too long.

When he left, I arranged all my utensils in the kitchen and when I was done with the most important room that was the kitchen, I went to my room which did not have many things to do. I arranged my other clothes and shoes and put my toiletries in the bathroom. After doing all that, I was tired that I fell asleep on the sofa itself.

It took me at least one whole week to arrange all my things. One whole week! And I was absolutely alone. There was no one to help me. I keep forgetting that I’m alone in this world now. I have no family, no boyfriend, lover or husband. And my friends, they are so far away and they also got their own problems to deal with.

I just have to try to forget Jacob and pray that I am not pregnant with our child.