Back to Thea POV..

This is 100% not even double looked over. I WILL EDIT IT TONIGHT

Was I mad?

I honestly don't know, the feeling of numbness was something I haven't felt in a few years. I didn't go home and cry that night, I just sat there in anger.

Let me repeat this, I didnt feel like that a lot but walking into school today Anger was the only thing on my mind.

I had made it through lunch with only glares from Emily. I didn't really care sadly, Ashley was a bit more of a bitch then I was.

The one thing that was helping me through this was getting to go to lunch with Ashley.

She now calls herself momma bear because I refused to tell my mom why Damien was no longer coming over.

My body plopped down into the seat in front of Ashley, her eyes gleaming as she dropped her sandwich.

"I love your outfit, it's so cut-"

"I was thinking we all could take you on a date tonight!" Alex called, plopping down beside Ashley while Xavier pulled up in the chair beside me.

First of all, I was wearing black leggings and A grey pull over with running shoes. I was far from cute, I had no makeup and my hair was in the ugliest messy bun because I woke up well- like this.

"I don't know guys." I mumbled, playing with my sweet tea before glancing at Alex who wore a sad frown. Xavier wrapped a arm around me, rubbing my shoulder, "come on T, I'll be fun."

Oh Xavier, you brown eyed beauty. No, I want to lay in my bed and eat my weight in M&M pretzels.

I did not want to go on a friend date.

"I don't really feel like going out guys." I mumbled, realizing I hadn't talked to them since Friday. I even ignored them this morning because I was so tired.

"Come on babe, we could throw popcorn at people in front of us or go to the mall and have them buy our clothes-" Ashley called, getting interrupted by Alex.

"I'm sorry what?" He almost chocked on his water making me laugh slightly. It was short lived but still there. It was enough to make Ashley and Xavier smile like they were achieving something.

"I promise, I was the better friend anyway," Ashley giggled making me smile stupidly at her.

Xavier nodded, his eyes going back to me, "yeah, who needs boyfriends or girlfriends right? They are a waste of time." He made a small Pshh sound that made me laugh, nodding my head in agreement.

Things were going great, really, but like I say, all good things come to an end. I mean, look what's happened, I wasn't surprised that Ashley spotted Emily walking toward the table with Kyla. I also wasn't surprised that the cafeteria silenced when they saw Damien enter alone, with no one by his side.

"Wow, this table looks sad without me," Emily giggled getting a small smile from Kyla.

I didn't say anything, but give them a small glance. I knew the entire school knew what happened because all eyes were on us as I sighed.

"It's sad isn't it? Having to get attention this way?" I held annoyance in my voice as I watched her with a cocked eyebrow.

"You're just mad because he doesn't love you," Kyla laughed, getting me to glance at Xavier who held a 'fuck' look. My eyes then turned to Ashley who help a cocky smirk knowing she was down for a fight.

My body slowly stood up leaning on the back of my chair as I watched them. "I didn't expect him to love me, I also didn't expect you to have such low self esteem that you have to make me feel bad," my body moved so I got face to face with Kyla.

"I'll give you three seconds before I lose my shit, sound good?" I hissed loudly, watching her raise an eyebrow questionably.

"Was that how long it took to kill your brother?"

Now please let me put something out there, I do not hit people, I wouldn't even kill a spider but when I turned around back to my chair and heard the those words muttered under her breath. I turned and swung my hand as hard as possible into her jaw.

Did I immediately regret it? No, just like my cousin Lila would say, if you aren't hitting they ain't quitting. She's also a really outgoing person compared to me and a bit more stand offish. I mean she did throw a book at someone last time.

I felt Xavier grab me along with Emily grabbing Kyla to make sure she didn't fall.

Let's just say I got detention, for a week, But in my books it was worth every second of it.

I know what you're thinking, the goodie goodie is suppose to be sweet, they aren't suppose to have people rub off on them. they were suppose to kill them with kindness, but where has kindness gotten me? My brother is dead, my dad is dead, my life hasn't gone right once. I mean look at it all, everything has never went right for me.

But to me, it was worth every day of detention to see the shocked look on her face.

Not to mention how Damien even smirked before leaving the lunch room. He has been calling me for days now but after the party I turned off my phone. I didn't want to talk to him ever again, let alone see him again.

So here I sat, in Xavier's car while he lectured me as we went home.

"Thea you can't just hit people when you feel like it." He looked annoyed but I saw a small smile rise on his face making me giggle.

"It was cool right?" I mumbled getting a small chuckle from him. He shook his head at me but his proud smile said other wise.

"Does your hand hurt?" He questioned watching me pick up my bruised hand that I didn't dare touch at all.

"Hell yeah." I let out a wincing sound, attempting to move my fingers but gave up, carefully setting them back into my lap.

"Please just don't do it again." Xavier whispered as we pulled up to his house. I let out a small sigh before nodding my head. We went to his house because my mom was probably going to lose it when I got home and I didn't want to be there when that occurred.

"Thank you." I said quietly, hoping out of the car while he nodded, his body already going to the door.

"There you guys are!" I heard non other then my moms voice. I couldn't help but Yelp loudly.

"Mom what are you doing here?" I yelled a small smile falling from her face.

"Come on my love! We get to celebrate!" My mom squealed, Grabbing Xavier dads hand in excitement.

"Celebrate what?" Xavier laughed, walking up to hug my mom as I stood in the door way shocked. Did they not know about what happened?

If not thank goodness-

"You got into a fight with that brat of a girl and I'm proud!" My mom clapped making me shut the door behind me so non of the neighbors could hear us.

"Mom what happened to parenting." I let out a nervous laugh as I went to hug her and Xavier's Dad.

"I think it's best to stand up to bullies," she said sweetly making me shake my head in confusion. Xavier dad nodded before they went to the kitchen. Xavier and I turned to each other with the most confused look possible.

Maybe payback was a bitch, but I felt nothing but happiness plopping down onto the couch with everyone. My hands full of candy and pizza as Xavier flicked popcorn at his dad while I giggled.

Maybe I didn't need Damien to be happy, I didn't even need friends. I just wanted a family again.

I felt more at home then I have in years and maybe the detentions were worth every piece of popcorn that landed in Xavier's dads hair. I felt good and that's what mattered.

GUYS WE ARE ALMOST AT 100K HOW AMAZING! IM SO HAPPY I COULD CRY!

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