To:

Unknown,

I don't know if I'd ever be able to forgive you.

You're a detriment to me.

My heart,

My soul,

My life.

Before I go, I just wanted you to know that I've tried.

*clears throat*

Like the seasons of the year, I continuously come back like something may change.

Nothing will change.

It will never change.

Am I in my feelings?

Of course I am.

But let's put that aside.

Let's talk about how I love you yet in return I get excuses.

I'm already used to that so it doesn't matter anymore.

That is normal for me.

Soon I will be gone and I can let you live your life.

You can thrive amongst your friends and social groups.

Instead of being a nuisance by trying to make you the center of my world.

Just remember you've always had that one guy who cared.

Who loved you unconditionally and accepted you along with all your flaws.

The sad thing is that I can't even be upset with you.

I love you too much to let the hatred and disappointment consume my thoughts and memories of you.

Of the "us" that never happened.

You've taught me lessons on love and emotions.

How females find it as a sign of weakness and vulnerability.

And they exploit that from a man who gives his heart away.

I've seen it and felt it first hand and I could tell after I've shared my feelings with you for the very first time.

You've taught me not to attach to someone too quickly.

Think whether they're there to hurt you or benefit and grow together as one.

It'll be difficult to unlatch myself.

You've demolished me as a person.

I'll never forget you.

For everything you've done to me, whether they be beneficial or a little impaired.

You hurt me, but I forgive you.

Goodbye,

Mikey.

9/29/19

10:46 PM