dear journal,

i've grown used to holding hands. i used to see people doing it in movies and on tv and think it seemed uncomfortable. but yeonjun takes my hand so often now that sometimes i don't even notice. recently, we've also started to... hmm. what's the word? cuddle? ew, i don't like that. but i think it's the only word that really applies unfortunately.

when we watch movies, which we do pretty often, yeonjun just likes to lay in my side with his head on my chest. i've never been so physically close with someone before. it's nice. he says he likes to feel my chest rise and fall as i breathe. i told him that was weird. he laughed. i did too.

whenever yeonjun hears his parents come home, though, he always moves away from me.

i never liked his parents much.

- soobin