My heart feels like exploding when Aiden kisses me fiercely. My hands shoot to his arms while he cups my face.

This kiss is everything. I feel his desire and emotions mixed up in this kiss. I don't know how I can take what's going to happen next, because this kiss alone already makes me feel like tearing up.

But I want this. I want him.

Without stopping the kiss, Aiden lifts my legs that they wrap around his waist. He carries me, but I can barely focus on where we're going inside this room. All I can do is hold on to him, circling my arms around his shoulders and kissing him back with all my heart.

He pulls away and stares at me with a look so intense that I feel like my chest is about to burst. His amber eyes are burning with passion.

Carefully, he places me down so that my back lands on the ground. Surprisingly, I'm lying on something soft and comfortable instead of the cold wooden floor. Aiden has put me down on a carpet.

"You have no idea about what you're doing to me," Aiden hisses.

Before I can respond, his lips meet mine again in a tantalizing kiss. I grip his shirt when our tongues dance. I can't control my racing heartbeat.

All this time, I've always wanted to awaken this side of Aiden, only to admit that I only want him to have such feelings for me. Not for any woman, or any girl, but only me.

Even though what we're doing now is very overwhelming to me and makes my mind go crazy, I realize how badly I want him too. I want him to see me as a woman, one he can unleash his feelings without holding back.

Aiden places butterfly kisses along my neck. He's too focused on what his mouth is doing to my skin that he doesn't even bother to take off his clothes. Meanwhile, here I am, lying almost bare naked.

Hold on, did I just wish for him to peel off his clothes?

Aiden pulls away to look at me. The sight of him gazing at me makes a blush creeps onto my cheeks.

"Fuck," he whispers. "When you blush, you make me even--" He clenches his jaw, stopping his sentence.

The next thing I know is that his lips crash into mine again. He makes me lost in another passionate kiss for a good a minute before we break apart for air. He pants, staring at me like he can't believe what he's doing.

"I'm sorry," he rasps. "I'm sorry, Nevaeh."

I frown, wondering why he stopped. Aiden has said this sentence plenty of times, and I never like the agony on his face every time he apologizes to me. It hurts me to see him in pain.

"I'm sorry that--" he pauses. "I'm sorry that I want you, I need you so bad, I may break you with what I want to do to you."

I don't know what to say. My mind can't comprehend what's going to happen. But we wouldn't be doing this if I didn't want him to start. That's why I provoked him, right?

Oh, Gosh, I'm such a bad girl.

Is he going to take my virginity tonight?

I swallow. I'm nervous, not because of the thought of giving my virginity to him, but because of thinking if it's going to hurt really bad. I've heard some facts and stories, but I never know which one is true. Many say that it depends on the situation and the people themselves.

Aiden shakes his head. "Don't worry." He gives me a firm look. "We're not going to do that. I know that you're not ready."

I stare at him in disbelief. Am I really giving him the impression that I'm not ready?

I am ready, am I not?

How could he read what was on my mind just by looking at my face? What's wrong with my face?

A soft smile touches the corner of Aiden's lips when he sees me in confusion. He leans closer, looking into my eyes and caging my body in his arms.

"I'm not going to hurt you," he whispers, holding his gaze on my face. "But I'm going to touch you, with my hands, with my mouth. Will you allow me to do that?"

Heat travels to my skin just by hearing those words coming out of his mouth. I nod slowly, but Aiden is still searching for my consent to proceed further.

"Yes," I say softly.

Aiden stares at me for a few seconds, but then his jaw tightens. His voice is shaking as he whispers in my ear, "You can tell me to stop, anytime. I'll stop."

I nod again, and that's when I feel his lips on my skin again, below my ear. He open-mouthed kisses me down to my neck and collarbone. I close my eyes, and a moan escapes from me.

Aiden places his mouth on every inch of the skin on my neck, my shoulder, and my upper chest. My lips tremble, and my body is shaking because of this new sensation consuming me.

Aiden hasn't kissed my breasts, but when his palm grabs one of them, I let out a soft gasp.

"Nevaeh." His voice is hoarse. He's warning me to stop him.

But I don't want him to stop.

Aiden kneads my breast, causing to me let out another moan. I've never had someone touch these parts of my body before, and it amazes me how Aiden's big and warm hand feels so good on my skin.

I feel Aiden's breath against my nipple, and before I know it, he wraps it in his mouth, running his tongue around it.

"Aiden--" My back arches as he sucks my nipple gently.

He flicks it with his tongue, making me go crazy. His hand moves to my other breast, rolling the nipple between his fingers. I squirm under him, and Aiden shoots his other hand to lace his fingers through mine, as if to calm me down.

I don't know how long he's been playing with my breasts, but it feels like long, sweet torture. I'm burning. He's awakened a desire inside me that I never knew I could have. I can feel it in the area between my thighs.

Slowly, Aiden's kisses travel down to my stomach until he reaches my panties.

My heart thuds. Even though Aiden has shown how much he yearns for me, I still feel insecure about exposing the most intimate part of my body. I haven't prepared myself for this, but I've always kept it clean and shaved. Will that be enough?

Seconds feel like forever when Aiden slides my panties down my thighs. I squeeze my eyes shut, allowing him to take my panties completely off me until they slide down my feet.

When I open my eyes again, I don't dare look at him. I turn my head to the side.

A lot of things are going inside my head, but I have no doubt that I'm going to allow him to take all of me. Despite how impulsive the situation began, I wouldn't mind if tonight is going to be my first time.

"I'm ready." My voice sounds so much weaker than the determination building up inside me. It's shaking helplessly like I'm about to cry.

Damn, why do I have to sound so weak?

I don't want him to worry. I don't want him to hold back. I'm just afraid that it's going to hurt.

"Just..." I let out a shaky breath, still not looking at him. "Just be gentle, will you?" I swallow.

The tears in my eyes let me know that I'm indeed about to cry, but it's not because of fear. It's because I'm being emotional. I want to be one with him.

"I'm not on pills," I say, spilling the chaos in my head. "I wouldn't want you to use a condom, but--"

Oh, Gosh, Nevaeh, what are you talking about?

I'm so nervous, I'm blabbering. As important as it is to me, this moment means so much to Aiden too. For years, he hasn't been able to feel and unleash his desire.

"I don't want to rip the pleasure off if we, uh, use protection, but--"

"Nevaeh," Aiden cuts me off.

My eyes finally meet his, and I find him looking at me tenderly.

"Tonight, it's not about me," he says, and I wonder what that means. "It's about you." With that said, his eyes turn deadly.

Before I can comprehend what's happening, Aiden feasts on my pussy. I let out a small scream while he holds my thighs in place with his strong arms.

His mouth literally claims my pussy. His tongue is all over the place. He's eating me, as if I'm a meal he hasn't had for a long time, as if he's been starving for ages.

I'm thrashing, but there's no escape in his hold. I don't even know what sounds I'm making anymore. I'm whimpering like a mess, feeling my juices dripping.

I feel like being drugged. I've never felt this kind of bliss.

Aiden sucks my clit harshly, and I let out another scream. He flicks it with his tongue, then sucks it again so hard that I feel like my soul is going to leave my body.

Something so powerful is coming. I can feel that it's going to explode, like I'm going to explode.

"Aiden--" I pant. My chest rises and falls rapidly. "Please. I feel--" My words are cut off because I can barely speak. "I feel strange--"

"Just let it go," Aiden says.

I open my eyes, finding him staring at my face. He has unlatched his mouth from my pussy, but his thumb is now rubbing my clit, putting pressure on it.

"Just let it go, Heaven," he whispers huskily.

His thumb picks up the pace, continuously rubbing my clit. I toss my head sideway, but then he commands, "Eyes on me. I want to see your face when you cum."

I return my gaze to him, only to find that his face hardens. He looks like he's about to cry. I don't know how I look right now. Like a mess, obviously.

I've never felt so vulnerable. I'm dying under his fingertips.

Aiden brushes a strand of my hair from my forehead. Locking my gaze with his is too much at this moment. I cum hard.

I'm silent, but my whole body is shaking. Tears pool in my eyes while I'm experiencing the best feeling I've ever had in my life.

"So beautiful," Aiden rasps, still gazing at my face. "You're perfect," he says. "You're fucking perfect."

Before I can recover from my high, Aiden brings his lips to mine in a soft, tender kiss.

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