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Nate opened the door to his pack house and allowed me to walk in first, both him and Brett directly behind me. I smiled slightly to myself as I peered around at what would be my new home. Though this place was filled with bad memories for me I was determined to make some good ones. "I can't believe you did it" a masculine voice spoke from behind me toward the living room as I spun around instantly seeing Brody. "I didn't think you were listening to me Nate but you actually did" he continued his face lite up like it was Christmas.

Nate did what? I glanced back at him as a pained expression dominated his face and I could feel his guilt begin to grow. "Well, where is he?" Brody pushed making my confusion grow.

"Who?" I asked as he laughed lightly clearly thinking I was messing around.

"Carter" he blurted seemingly overjoyed whereas I now felt like crying and vomiting at the same time. My stomach churned into an uncomfortable feeling unsure of how to tell him what happened or explain where his son was.

"He's not here," I told him honestly as a woman walked up next to Brody as she wrapped her arms around his forearm. She was a little shorter then I was with jet black hair and light brown eyes. She was stunning, to say the least, and I knew right away she was Carter's mom.

"It's so nice to finally meet my son's mate, you are just as pretty as he said you were" she complimented grinning brightly in the process which made my heart beat erratically "I'm Karen" she extended her hand as I shook it unsure of what to do or what to say. How could I just tell them that Carter wasn't here because I left him behind? How could I explain that I left their son, my true mate for their Alpha? I couldn't... "Is he outside? We've missed him so much" Karen continued as she glanced out of the window briefly with the hopes of seeing her son.

"Mom" Brett spoke up from my side, his voice strong and stern "Carter isn't coming." Now both Brody and Karen turned to look at me, both of their eyebrows furrowing with confusion as to why I was here without Carter. Brody's eyes lifted upward from me where I knew Nate was standing as he put two and two together, that I was here to be with him.

"Sorry for the confusion, Luna" Brody spoke monotonically as he bowed his head slightly looking extremely disappointed in me.

"You left Carter?" Karen gasped as her eyes instantly began to water before she was engulfed in a hug by her husband "he's your mate" she whimpered her voice being muffled by his clothing as guilt dominated my body.

"Come on" Nate murmured wrapping his arm around my shoulder and pulling me up the stairs. "Stop it will only hurt worse" he instructed as I kept stealing glances back at Carter's distraught parents, only being comforted by Brett hugging onto them. As we reached Nate's room- well our room I guess he tossed my bags on the floor. "Are you okay?" He questioned lightly as I glanced around the room even though I had pretty much memorized the contents of it when I was here last. In reality, I just wanted to avoid looking at Nate, I didn't want him to see how truly affected I was by Brody and Karen.

"Am I a bad person?" I whispered as I ran my fingers along his dresser picking up a framed picture of him and Chloe. It had to have been a couple of years old judging not only by their size difference but Chloe's braces.

Within a second Nate had walked around me so he could see my face. His hand trailed up and wiped away my tears as my gaze remained focused on the dresser. "How could you even think that?"

"How could you not? I ruined Carter's life, and his parents hate me" I retorted quietly as he sighed. His hands gripped my hips as he tossed me on top of his dresser effortlessly pushing the items blocking my path away in the process.

He forced his way in between my legs as his hands sat on either side of my legs. "The fact that you are upset about hurting him proves you're a good person" Nate reasoned thoughtfully though I would have rather not hurt him at all.

"That just means I have a conscience" I murmured softly as he chortled lowly.

"A conscience is just another way of saying you have a good heart," he told me as he leaned forward and pecked my lips lovingly. "You are the most caring person I know Jamie which is why I am so confused as to how you like me. You are so much better than me."

I shook my head at this. "You aren't a bad person Nate, you are just misunderstood" I explained as he smirked.

"It's cute of you to think that but I really am a bad guy. For instance, I personally don't care how Carter feels right now, in fact, I want him to be heartbroken. I know it's not right to want someone hurt but that's just how I am" he shrugged carelessly which made my lips turn into a pout. He saw how devastated Carter was how can he not feel the least bit guilty?

"That may be true but you aren't all bad Nate. Don't sell yourself short."

"How do you figure?" He purred leaning his elbows on my thighs as he rested his head on his fists.

"Because you regret hurting me" I whimpered as his turquoise eyes saddened briefly as they met mine. "Bad guys don't feel remorse" I added as I placed my hands on his muscular shoulders. Nate grinned showing off his dazzling smile making my heart flip just looking at the perfect man in front of me.

"That's only because I love you" he admitted as I froze, my body completely stiffened as our eyes locked once more. He loves me. He truly loves me. He gulped nervously when I didn't reply as his wolf began to panic that I didn't have the same feelings.

Unlike when Carter confessed his love to me I didn't have to think it over. I wasn't a jumbled ball of confusion when it came to how I felt about Nate. "I love you too" I blushed as he gripped the loops of my jeans pulling me to the edge of the dresser to where my body was hanging off only be supported by him. Once I was positioned he slammed his lips into mine as my hands wound themselves in his dirty blonde hair. I tugged roughly on the ends causing him to moan into my mouth filling me with lust.

His tongue licked my bottom lip as if asking for entrance which I stubbornly ignored and he groaned with frustration. He pulled back resting his forehead against mine "don't tease me Jamie" he ordered huskily as I smirked loving that I was actually able to make someone like Nathaniel Ryder crave me.

I pecked his lips once more watching a dangerous lust build up in his eyes. "Don't do it" he warned as I kissed them lightly again. "You asked for it" he chuckled playfully.

The next thing I knew his hands were wrapped around my back as he pulled me off the dresser causing my legs to lace around his core on instinct. He kissed along my marking making my head fall back as the overwhelming pleasure shot threw me. Slowly he laid my body back against the bed, his powerful frame hanging over me being careful not to crush me. His tongue glided along my neck licking every inch of his claim causing a loud moan to escape my lips and bounce around the room.

As soon as my excitement began to build he pulled away from me but not before flashing me a sinister smirk. "Nate" I whined instantly missing his perfect touch.

"I warned you" he shrugged tauntingly causing me to frown. I huffed with frustration as I threw myself backward, roughly throwing my hands above my head letting them smack against the pillows.

"What's wrong Jamie?" Nate cooed sarcastically as he traced his hand along the side of my thigh softly. I ignored his question as I tried to compose myself. "Am I turning you on?" He pushed gripping my leg tightly.

"No" I lied as he laughed deeply causing my facade to fall slightly as a smile grew on my face. God, I loved his laugh, it may be my favorite sound in the entire world.

"So you won't mind if I do this..." he proposed as his hand rubbed across my stomach trailing dangerously close to my bra causing me to gulp deeply. I shook my head trying to pretend like the contact didn't drive me completely insane even when it did. "How about this?" He whispered folding my shirt up and placing kissing along my midriff. My back arch instantly as the slight scruff on his chin tickled my skin. "It's okay to admit you want me" he spoke matter of factly as he nibbled on my hip bones making my body shiver with need.

"I want you" I blurted finally letting go of my act and giving him the okay to fulfill my desires. He pulled back from me as I used my elbows to lean up. Slowly he crawled on all fours caging my body underneath his. Our hearts were beating at an extremely quick pace as our blues bored into one another.

His tongue darted out as it slowly glided across his bottom lip, teasing me. I chomped on my lip in an attempt to control my wolf who's lust-filled thoughts were burning into my brain.

"You're so beautiful Jamie" Nate shuddered as his face came within an inch of mine "and sexy" his hand reached up and brushed my hair from my face "and absolutely perfect."

I gave in pushing myself forward as I kissed him, hard. Our lips moving together flawlessly. "Nate" I whimpered pushing his chest backward to separate us. "I can't torture Carter" I blurted as his features went serious. Even though I had chosen Nate I was still linked with Carter to some degree. As I continued progressing with Nate I could feel his heartbreak, his devastation, and the betrayal.

"What are you saying?" He inquired his voice was emotionless as his eyes went cold now looking like solid glass marbles.

"I'm saying I can't make him feel us doing this everyday" I emphasized my thoughts about Carter feeling every single emotion running through my body caused by Nate. "We need to let him go" I revealed nervously as his eyebrows rose skeptically. I didn't know how Nate would feel about my pushy request yet he didn't seem against the idea.

"Are you sure you are ready?" He pushed as an anxious yet exciting feeling dominated him as well as me.

I nodded my head to assure him of what I said. "I've never wanted anything more in my life" I confessed feeling my cheeks heat up with embarrassment as he grinned looking truly happy at my confession.

"I love you" he confirmed as he grasped my hip and tugged my body down so our bodies were perfectly parallel. "So much."

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I let out another heart-wrenching scream as Lynn's hold on me tightened. "Shh," she cooed as she held me from behind restraining me as she rocked us in an attempt to calm me. "It's okay" she assured me but she was wrong. This could never be okay.

"Stop! Stop! Stop!" I yelled though I knew neither Jamie nor Nate could hear me. "Make it stop!" I begged feeling my entire face grow wet from the number of tears that had fallen from my eyes.

Jamie's scent was all around me bringing my wolf and me to an erratic state. Her smell was so vivid I would have sworn she was the one holding me if I hadn't been feeling her arousal heighten. 'Why is she doing this to us?' My wolf asked the question I couldn't answer.

"It will be over soon" Lynn promised as Trent dumped cold water over me in hopes of keeping my wolf at bay. Jamie's excitement grew and grew as Nate pleasured her sending her mind into a realm of bliss and I knew they were fully giving in to their impulses.

My heart was cracking, breaking, completely shattering as their passion intensified. She wanted him. She craved him. She needed him. Within one second it was finished. I was cut off from all feelings that involved Jamie and I knew she gave herself to Nate officially ending her bond with me.

"Carter" Wyatt called out when I stopped fighting against them and instead turned still. My whines came to an abrupt stop as my face turned emotionless. "Look at me" he ordered as I glanced up at him, his orbs looking worried. "Are you okay?"

"She's his" was all I could manage to get out as Trent turned around gripping his head roughly in frustration. At the same time, Lynn shifted around me as she hugged me tightly trying the best she could to comfort me.

But nothing could soothe me. The one person designed to compliment me perfectly just gave me away in the blink of an eye and I can never get over that.

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