The song for this chapter is by Three Days Grace.

This chapter is dedicated to my sister Sam! Who saw my book cover and memorized the title so she could read my story, sneaky huh? You're a determined stalker Sam and I love you to bits!

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For the first time in weeks when I woke up, I didn't yank the covers over my head and hide, it was no longer necessary. Instead of begging the Moon Goddess to release me from Jamie's emotions as I had previously been doing I tugged her naked body closer until every groove of her being touched mine. I sniffed deeply taking in her intoxicating strawberry scent which made my mind shoot back to the first time I really appreciated her unique smell. It was the night I marked her after we left the club and I was sneaking her off to my room. I should have known right there that the relationship between us would be a lot stronger then I had originally imagined.

I laid still with her in my arms unable to control the smile that had been stretched on my lips long enough to make my cheeks ache, this is how I wanted to start my day every morning. Who would have thought the simplicity of just holding someone could change a person? I never expected to even like Jamie let alone be completely and madly in love with her.

I pulled her even closer into me tossing my leg over her in the process, just wanting to keep her close enough so she couldn't ever leave. She began to stir slightly as her limbs stretched out and she awoke. "Good morning sleepy head" I murmured leaning down and kissing her shoulder blade softly.

She flipped around in my arms giving me a full view of her face. Her lips were stretched to the max showing off her pearly whites as her sapphire pools went glossy and I knew her mind was going over the memories of last night. "Good morning" she purred wrapping her petite arms around my large chest barely being able to fully reach around me as she hugged me tightly as if she was just as surprised to see me as I was to see her when I woke up. I wound my arms around the small of her back letting them cross over one another forming an X as I squeezed her in return.

"Jamie" I spoke as I cleared my throat causing her to lift her head from my chest, her bright orbs were wide as she awaited my words. "Do you still feel Carter?" I asked not able to look at her as I did so, fearing her answer.

"No" she answered after a moment, a slightly sad tone to her voice almost as though she was disappointed- maybe even heartbroken though I only felt relief. "His emotion got stronger and stronger and then they were gone" she explained making me wonder what he felt like when we began to deepen our kissing and eventually started making love.

I know every time I felt them kiss or even cuddle I wanted to rip my own hair out. My wolf would beg me to make it stop, to get her back, or even to end him so the pain would be over. I could only imagine the absolute devastation he must have went through last night but, I couldn't even lie and say I felt sorry for him. Sure it sucked but he caused this, all of this.

I turned back to Jamie watching as she tried desperately to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes. Why was she sad? She wanted to be free of Carter- well she wanted him to be free but it's pretty much the same thing. " I don't understand why you're upset" I stated sounding almost angry though I wasn't.

"I just... I guess I figured your emotions would just grow for me and take his place"

"But" I murmured flatly to get her to continue knowing that there was more to come

"I just feel empty without him" she whispered honestly and desperately as the grief dominated her both inside and outside. She looked away from me causing two small tears to roll down her cheeks. At this point, I felt crushed like I wasn't enough for her like I couldn't satisfy her deepest desires. Marking her had proved to make me her mate yet we didn't have that same connection true mates would have and I don't think we ever will.

An uneasy panic began to hit me like a tidal wave. Was she going to leave me? "Did you make a mistake?" I breathed out cowardly selfishly pleading my gut was wrong. I couldn't handle another letdown, my heart could not take it.

Her gaze instantly shot back up to mine as her eyes narrowed. "Of course not" she confirmed gripping my neck and bringing her lips to mine as if trying to assure me. "Nothing about you was a mistake, Nate" Jamie promised the honesty radiating from her.

An unexplainable happiness flooded my body as she spoke, this is what it's like to feel important, to feel free, to feel full. I held her tender, slightly chapped lips as though my life depended on it as I would die without her touch. Slowly I pushed her body down and dominated her frame underneath my large being. She gripped my hips digging her nails into my flesh eagerly. "You are frisky" I murmured against her lips causing her to giggle cutely and a light shade of pink to tint her pale cheeks.

"May I ask you something?" Jamie whispered nervously as a perplexed feeling grew in her stomach almost like she was afraid of me. Not that I could blame her I did bring that on myself yet I wish I could change that, she should never fear me.

"You don't have to ask permission to ask me something" I assured her sitting up on her being careful to balance my weight on my knees and not crush her midsection. "You are my equal Jamie and are free to speak whenever you please."

A small genuine smile grew on her lips making my wolf howl with delight. God, she really was beautiful, everything about her was from her dark hair to her fair skin to her caring soul. "Why didn't you break your bond with Heather?" I froze as a sulky feeling tortured my body just hearing that name. "Never mind" she added shaking her head to the side fearing I would be mad at her like I had gotten the first time she brought up Heather.

"I couldn't" I confided after a moment of silence. Every emotion I had felt for her gnawing at my insides as I thought back to the days of my life's biggest betrayal. "I mean I wanted to more than anything. I wanted to hurt her, to torment her, hell I wanted to break her but when I tried to she stopped me. She felt my lust build and she came to interrupt. Our connection gave her the heads up and once I saw her I couldn't do it" I rambled truthfully and harshly. I wanted Jamie to know how I really was I wouldn't give her false hope by sugar-coating the story, she deserved the truth, she deserved to know the rage that laid not so deep inside of me.

"You loved her" she divulged easily though she didn't get upset or take it personally.

"No, I hate her" I corrected her seeing her eyes double in size, looking stunned at my rebellious words. "I couldn't have sex with some random human to hurt her, that wouldn't be enough. I had to destroy her, she needed to know that she was nothing to me, and nothing that she could ever do would ever affect me again" I jabbed unraveling the inner workings of my revenge filled brain. "You see after my mom left I was so angry. How could someone just leave their family?!" I screamed out thinking about how she just walked out on not just Chloe and me but her pack. "When she allowed my dad to mark her she vowed to protect our family, this pack was her family but she just walked out. Without my dad being here she gave up on being a mother and being a Luna. Just because he was gone didn't mean her life was over, he blessed her with nearly a hundred people who loved her but we weren't enough to take away the pain" Jamie's eyes softened as she felt my suffering taking on my misery as I shifted away from her afraid to show her my vulnerable side.

"It's okay Nate please finish" she pleaded comforting me by just hugging me from behind.

"I thought when I meet my mate it won't be like that. She will love me, she would never hurt me. Maybe my mom was just screwed up because of my dad's strict ways and his death but the Moon Goddess would bless me with a perfect mate and she would take away all of the pain caused by my parents, but I was wrong. That day when I saw Heather, the first time we locked eyes..." I trailed taking deep breaths as my eyes forced themselves shut as if that would make reliving that moment any easier.

"It was like magic our eyes were melting into one another's and I didn't even question why she was in my house or the fact that she was standing outside of Carter's room. But then he walked out slamming her body up against the wall their lips met and his hands roamed her body selfishly gripping every curve she had."

"It's okay" Jamie assured me making me realize I was crying, for the first time actually letting out all of these months of built-up heartbreak.

I glanced over my shoulder at her seeing the sincerity in her eyes as I lifted my arm and she climbed underneath warming up the side of my body. Her thin fingers moved to my face as she wiped away my tears without passing judgment.

"That's when it hit me" I began again "the smell of their sex burned my nose to the point that my skin felt like it was crawling, I wanted to rip it off just to make it stop. She pushed Carter back as she turned back to me, his gaze slowly following as the dots were connected. If I had just known they were together I might have been able to get over it but seeing them and smelling their arousal it killed me" I panted my wolf heating up with rage just like he had done originally and every time I thought about it.

"So when she tried to stop me from breaking our bond I want to do much more than give her the satisfaction of knowing I broke our bond to just some girl and Carter needed to pay. That's where my plan began" I whispered glancing at her not wanting to call our meeting a plan or a scheme, it was much more than that now.

"You wanted to get them both back?" Jamie suggested as I nodded.

"I let him think it was alright, long enough for him to believe it. When I saw you it was like tunnel vision I was terrified of what would happen when I claimed you since it's never been done before. I didn't know how it would play out marking someone other than the one you're destined to claim but I thought I don't care what happens to me I want them to suffer. When I marked you she instantly knew, she broke thinking I found someone else to spend my life with. I killed Carter's spirit too and I enjoyed it, I loved every second of his pain" I admitted sheepishly as she stiffened immediately noting that it was a great pleasure for me to see him distraught.

"I didn't know you saw them" she whimpered sympathetically and all I could do was nod and force the image from my brain. "I'm sorry Nate for your dad, for your mom, for Heather and even Carter" hearing his name come out of her mouth was like a punch to the gut, it disgusted me.

"But now I think it was all for a reason like my real destiny was to be with you" I professed my hand stroking her exposed thigh calming myself and my wolf and filling us with love. "You are exactly what I thought my mate would be, you are the one who is able to tame the beast" I joked cracking a small smirk as she peered up at me with admiration. "It was like Mother Goddess told me if I wanted happiness I would have to work for it."

Before I knew it she kissed me again, hard and passionately confirming my thoughts as our hearts began to beat in perfect sync. 'We were made for each other' her wolf told mine sending our minds into overdrive.

For once I wasn't the underdog in my own pack. She accepted me for who I was bad along with the good. Every regret, every mistake, every spiteful moment of what made me, me. At least the things that she was aware of she accepted.

Jamie brought me to cloud nine and I was never coming back down. Only one question remained in my mind... How the hell did Jamie know Heather?

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