Don't know where exactly did this started, I can guess but I'm sure I will be wrong. I have been wrong about everything related to this situation and I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing -guess it depends on who's judging- it's just that suddenly I don't care anymore.

Everything seems different this time and it doesn't mean that there is going to be a different outcome it just means that right now, in the current present, it feels...peculiarly different.

Maybe is due to feeling such strong pain in the past few months that this time around I am not scared, in fact I just jump off the cliff not caring where I will land

I no longer know if I'm falling or flying