As i followed Nat, we arrived quickly at the kitchen. Of course, we were not alone. It seemed that everyone was there. Planned? Most definitely. I looked around the room and could see everyone except Peter discreetly looking at me from under their eyelashes. Nat left me to go and sit down, which left only one seat available. I'm pretty sure you can guess who it was next to?

I sighed, and went to go take my seat remembering my plan. Fake it till you make it. I'd just go along with whatever whilst avoiding the people I don't want to talk to. They cant force me to talk, but i have a sneaky suspicion they can force me to do things. I mean they are the avengers. They might be the enemy yet their powers are very cool and advanced. As i sat down in between Tony and Peter, Steve cleared his throat. It's seemed to grab everyone's attention as if it wasn't already on me.

(Seating plan)

Steve. Nat

Wanda.| | Peter

Thor. | |Emma

Bruce. | | Tony

Bucky Pepper

"So Emma we would like to do some team bonding today if that's ok with you?" He directed at me. I hesitantly nodded. I cant seem too eager, can i? "so first we would like to ask you some questions. Get to now everyone a little bit better. Seeing as we are all athletes we'll go to the gym and then end the day with the movie. Also i must remind you that there's no trying to escape due to your Stark Band on you're ankle. Also you will not be left alone in the time you reside here. For safety purposes."

His last comment made me aware of what was currently residing on my ankle. Gosh, I'm not a baby. Why are they making it so hard to actually be decent and give me basic rights!? But I'm not here to make a scene so i just allow it. It seems that some emotion of my disappointment shone through as Nat decided to comment on it.

"Don't look so upset Emma, you brought this upon yourself. We are just looking out for you"

"Looking out for me, my ass" i thought. Oh shit, can Wanda hear what I'm saying? No, obviously not how could i forget i was trained for this and it's a subconscious practice my brain does. Thank god! I almost had a heart attack! You know that sinking, nervous feeling in your chest?

All you have to do to achieve a mental block is to focus on your thoughts and make a barrier around them. I decided to test it out by thinking of my wall falling, and a pressure was released from my head. I didn't realise the amount of energy that took.

I put the barrier straight back up though as i want my thoughts to myself and don't trust an Avenger that's against me, to not read my mind. Plus now i can think of whatever i want with no issues.

Of course Tony has to have the last word in every conversation so he adds "But first, let's enjoy our breakfast"

Everyone starts digging in, grabbing food from the middle of the table. There was still plenty left as i grabbed my food. I'm guessing they do enough for seconds, and possibly thirds. Makes sense

I noticed everyone grabbed food except Peter. He continued to seem zoned out with his head in his arms, and nobody was making any move to help him. It didn't look like any normal tiredness, yet like a sleepless night. I doubt that's what happened as Peter always seemed to be able to sleep after situation. I grabbed 5 pancakes, some maple syrup a banana and some Nutella. I made 2 pancakes with suryp and banana and 3 with Nutella. I then kept the banana and suryp ones on my plate whilst putting the other 3 on Peter's plate. I may not be on good terms with him right now, but that doesn't mean I don't have a heart! I can't not give someone food when they are in this state! It's what my dad always did with me when i had bad days. Food always makes you feel better!

Whilst i was about to eat my own food i heard a huff and something along the lines of "Dad, i—don't wanna eat anything". Jesus Christ, how tired is this child! I did another trick of my dad's by saying quite loud "fine, i guess I'll have to eat them. Not like i can put Nutella pancakes to waste". Just as i was moving Peter's plate from in front of him, his head shot up grabbing the attention of some of the others. "Um, no i um i really want it now actually" i giggled at him and asked whether he was sure and he seemed pretty adamant as he took the plate off of me, in a playful manner and started eating.

This is what me and Peter's relationship was like after we parted ways. We were still ok with each other. It was a not a forgive and forget moment so i still hold a grudge against Peter, yet if anyone looks like a kicked puppy in front of food, i will feed you. This was no special treatment for Peter. I hope he didn't think i was starting to forgive him, as i never will. His heart can break as mine once did. God, I'm so brutal sometimes i scare myself. But i need to guard my feelings. I can't get hurt like that again. And now that Peter's shown me his true colours, i know not to trust him.

I wonder how Jason is right now. I hope he's surviving, because as soon as i get out of this hell hole that actually has decent food i will join him and we can plan something together.

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I woke up this morning feeling mentally drained which is not surprising after the night i had. It was only 8;30. The only difference was that i woke up alone instead of with my Dad next to my side. I layed there for what seemed like hours but was realistically only 20 minutes just overthinking how bad of a person i am for Emma to hate me. The only person I've loved romantically. I don't know what i will due of things don't work out between us. I have some hope as Steve said we'll be doing some team bonding today with her and the team. That's the only thing getting me out of bad, plus my dad coming into my room, opening my curtains and dragging me behind him to got sit down for some breakfast. Honestly i have the best support for when i feel like this. If i get any urges, I'll just go to my dad and hug the life out of him. It makes me feel safe. I think I'd also feel safe in Emma's embrace. She gives off a motherly vibe sometimes, a bit like Mom aka Pepper.

I sat down without making eye contact with anyone and put my head in my arms. They've seen me in this state before and know to just leave me be. I zoned out and didn't realise when or if Emma came in. All that happened was that my spider sense allowed me to know that some Nutella pancakes were out on my plate. I got confused. My dad never forces me to eat and has never done this before, so it ell him I'm not hungry, but it's not his voice that replies to me. It's feminine and it's Emma. She somehow remembered my favourite pancakes. This brought a smile to my lips but before i could do anything, she wears about to take my food away! I quickly perked up in order to see her face and grab my food. Somehow it felt different when it was coming from her. I felt like i had to eat it, so i tried. I ate 2 pancakes which is a big win in the state I'm in, yet my biggest win this morning was Emma giggling. I missed that so much.

I don't think she understands how hard I'm willing to work for her. Now that we have to talk and are getting closer to each other and not just in passing and in secretive I'm going to be able to admit a whole lot so she can see my side of the story. I need Emma back in my life as she was before. I think it might kill me if she isn't. I may be exaggerating, but i think my spider sense has something to do with it. Over craved to be able to talk to her freely like this for years and my emotions are now very heightened on adrenaline and serotonin now that i have the chance. First thought, I will need to beat my mental battles.

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Nobody expected Emma to agree to their rules without a fuss,and it raised a bit of suspicion on, yet nonetheless they were blinded a bit with her agreement. They weren't too worried as she displayed emotions such as disappointment which more along the lines of what they expected. Wanda felt a change in the movement of Emma's mind but thought nothing of it. She would not invade anyone's privacy unless it came to needing to. She had learnt a lot more control over her powers and didn't have accidental bursts as she used to. What they didn't expect was for Emma to make Peter some food. They were all looking at her movements carefully just to double check she wasn't somehow going to poison them. Tony and Pepper especially. They all agreed that they're interaction was very cute and that it was beneficial for Peter as it boosted his moodier they knew they were a long was away from the 2 being as close as they used to, especially with Emma's trust issues against them. As they basked in the moment. Nat noticed Emma;s expression falter and if she realised what she just did for Peter. She couldn't tell if Emma was happy or sad about it and ultimately decided she was both. That was something to figure out later tonight. Right now she had some questions she everyone seemed to finish their food.

"So Emma why are you so adamant your mom isn't dead. What happened to you in the Red Room, and why can't you remember things?" Nat asked firmly expecting an immediate response, whilst the rest fo the Avengers were questioning her discretion and starting small. Nat was a creature of habit, she needed answers.

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