Waking up on this beautiful day in New York City with the most perfect girl in my brand-new bed in my brand-new apartment, is everything I want.

We're all going out to breakfast for Abby and Olivia's birthdays, seeing as today is Olivia's birthday.

And after, I have a whole day planned out for Sienna and I's first Valentine's Day.

I still can't believe after 2 years I'm actually saying that.

Honestly, I still can't believe that all 4 of us have Valentine's Day dates.

Well, other than Ryan. Ryan has always had a date.

We just didn't necessarily think it would be Abby after his fuck up of monstrous proportions.

Cheating on someone?

Could never be me.

And then there's Mason and Olivia.

I wish I could say I didn't see that coming. But I did.

As much as it still irks me, seeing them both happy is something I'm not willing to let go of.

And Ben. Holy fuck, Ben.

I really do think Ben is the ONLY one who did this relationship thing right.

We're proud of Ben.

"Connor, I can literally hear you thinking right now." Sienna rolled over and put her head on my chest.

"Just, thinking about our day." I wrapped my arm around her and kissed the top of her head. "Valentine's Day, remember?"

"Oh, I remember. Just didn't think you would Mr. IDon'tCommit." She laughed.

"Hey now. I did commit. I have you now, don't I?" I smirked.

"Why yes. Yes, you do." She rolled on top of me and straddled my waist. "You going to tell me what we're doing yet?" She smiled.

"Do you really want to know?" I raised my eyebrows.

She nodded.

"We are having breakfast with everyone. Then you and I are going to go out in the city, do a little shopping for the apartment so I have stuff here for you, I am going to buy whatever you pick out because I can't decorate worth a shit, all while doing a food truck tour around the city, then we're going to end the night ice skating at Rockefeller Center." I nodded.

I swear to God, her entire face lit up.

"It was the food trucks, wasn't it?" I pursed my lips.

She nodded. "You're taking me on a food truck tour?" She smiled.

"I am taking you on a food truck tour." I sat up with her in my lap.

"And ice skating?"

I nodded. "You don't get to laugh if I fall and break my ass."

"You have managed to put 3 of my favorite things in to one date." She nodded. "Shopping, skating, and food."

"Do I know my girl or what?" I smiled.

"You are the best boyfriend in the world!" She screamed and tackled me backwards.

"I'm really trying." I nodded.

She grabbed my face and kissed me. "I know you are." And then she scrunched her face. "Do you smell bacon?"

I took in a big breath. "Why do I smell bacon?"

She rolled off me, put her clothes on, and I got up to get sweats on.

We walked out of my room, down the hall, into the kitchen, and Mason and Ben were both cooking breakfast while Tory and Olivia sat around the counter.

"I thought we were going out for breakfast?" Sienna sat behind Olivia on her stool and kissed her cheek.

"Evidently they decided to get up and actually cook." Olivia nodded.

"Ben puts sprinkles in his pancakes." Tory nodded.

"Why?" I shook my head.

"Because they're pretty and spice up breakfast. Shut up." He pointed a spatula at me.

"And where are Abby, Ryan, and Josh?" Sienna looked through the window to the living room.

"They went to go get coffee for everyone." Mason nodded. "Scrambled, Sunny Side up, or Omelet?"

"Omelet." I nodded.

"Sunny please." Sienna smiled.

"You got it." He smiled.

"Now, what are you guy's plans for today." Tory looked at Sienna.

"This one planned shopping, ending the night at Rockefeller Center." She nodded.

"That's it?" Olivia looked at me.

"No." I shook my head.

"And he's taking me on a food truck tour around the city." She smiled.

"That is the most Sienna thing I have ever heard in my life." Ben nodded.

"I did good." I smiled. "What about you guys. Ben, Tor?"

"Kind of the same concept without the shopping or skating. We're going to go out to a nice dinner." Ben smiled. "And then we're going to go to as many museums as we can before then."

"Awe." Olivia pouted.

"You two?" Sienna smiled.

"We're going to go find a supermarket, she is going to let me pick out whatever I want for dinner and make it, she's going to be extra special nice to me and give me a yes day, and we're going to have a nice candle lit dinner and have an in bed Fast marathon." Mason nodded.

"Ooo. If you find a supermarket you like, can you tell me if they have my red bull and Gatorade."

"Connor." Mason clapped his hands together. "If I wake up in the middle of the night half asleep, and I grab one of those bottles of upholstery cleaners that you call a Gatorade, I'm going to be pissed."

"What even is your favorite kind of Gatorade?" Tory gave me a look.

"Cucumber." I nodded.

The girls just looked at me.

"What?" Olivia shook her head.

"Connor, that stuff is like salty aloe vera." Sienna nodded.

"It's fucking disgusting, right?" Ben let out a small laugh.

"I like the smell too." I shrugged.

"I'm telling you right now if I go to grab a red bull and I accidently drink one of those Apple Fig bullshits, I'm throwing it at you." Olivia nodded.

"They're good." I pointed at her.

She looked at Mason. "Can we just get him his own mini fridge for his room since clearly his tastebuds are wrong?"

"Yeah, probably a better bet. Weird ass."

"I am not weird." I shook my head.

"Connor, you spit the peanuts out of peanut mms." Ben nodded.

"I like mm's, I don't like peanuts."

"They make them without peanuts." Tory shook her head.

"It's not the same."

"Y'all are living with a menace." Sienna nodded.

Then we heard the door close.

"Let's not forget he bites the ends off of twizzlers and uses them as a straw for his coke." Ryan nodded as he set the coffee on the counter.

"They're called licorice straws." I crossed my arms.

"Not for Coca Cola Con." Abby shook her head.

"You know what, you all suck."

"And we love you too." Sienna kissed my cheek.

I swear to God, my entire body just froze in place.

Sienna has been telling me that she loves me for a month now, and I know she does.

And I love her too.

But the thought of telling her that makes me absolutely sick to my stomach.

That word, love, freaks me out to no end.

When she says it, I simply say 'you too.' And that's the end of that.

But with the look on her face right now, it's becoming quite clear that it's not the end of it for her.

So, I am just going to focus on having a good day with her, and hopefully it'll be the best Valentine's Day she's ever had.

We all ate the great breakfast that Mason and Ben made, then we all went and got ready to go about our days.

Don't get me wrong, Sie looked GOOD just in my basketball shorts and a sports bra, per usual when we're together.

But when she walked into the living room in a black long sleeve jump suit and torn up skinny jeans with a red and black flannel around her waist, and the black leather boots, and fuck me the curls upon curls and red lipstick, I thought I was going to have a stroke.

"God damn." Olivia looked at her.

"Red is the color of love." She did a little spin and fluffed her hair.

"I swear to god, I am the luckiest dude alive." I sighed. "My dear lord." I shook my head.

Mason made a whipping sound and Olivia just looked at him. "I beg your pardon."

"Ol, he just became a complete simp." He motioned toward me.

"I gave you a scrap book on Christmas and told you that you were everything, and you cried. Shut up."

He pursed his lips and nodded. "That I did."

I stood up and held my hand out. "Are you ready to go furnish my room and bathroom, eat all of New York, then go skating?"

"And how do you plan on carrying everything we buy?" She raised her eyebrows.

"I bought a wagon." I nodded. "We'll bring everything back before we go to Rockefeller Center."

"Perfect." She smiled and grabbed my hand.

I leaned down and kissed Olivia's cheek. "I love you both. Seriously check that supermarket for my stuff."

"Yes sir." They both saluted.

I am so ready for this date.

I think Connor and I MAY have gone a little overboard with shopping.

And when I say overboard, I mean we spent $400.

New bedding, picture frames, a giant mirror for his room, lamps, closet dividers, a bookshelf, hangers, a speaker bar, led lights, towels, washcloths, the works.

All while traveling to a different food truck between each store we went to.

I have eaten so much today, and I am in absolute heaven.

We went and dropped off everything at their apartment, got changed to go ice skating, and we headed to Rockefeller Center.

Luckily, we got back after Oliva was done cooking naked for Mason.

I have good ideas sometimes, I know Mason better than most people, and I knew he'd love that shit.

But we just got our skates and are currently moving at the speed of a snail because Connor can not ice skate.

Him just trying though, that impresses the hell out of me.

He's got a firm hold on my arms as I'm skating backwards guiding him across the ice.

"Babe, please. Please don't let me fall on my face. My ass is fine, but you only like me because of my face." He shook his head.

"You know that's not true. I like you for other reasons than being pretty." I let out a small laugh.

"My dick doesn't count."

"Con, look at how you treat me." I shook my head. "You treat me like a princess when I am a jester at best. You're trying to ice skate for me just because I love it. And you let me help pick out stuff for you room because you know I'm going to be there. You see me in your future." I smiled.

"Well of course I do. You've been in my life for 2 years, and it's going to be plenty more." He nodded.

"And that right there is why I love you." I nodded.

He gave me a small smile. "You too baby."

And now, I went from having a great day, to wanting to punch him directly in the face.

I have no clue what it is with Connor and Olivia when it comes to saying, 'I love you.'

It took Mason a month to get Olivia to say it back and not just say 'I know.'

Granted, 'you too' is better than 'I know.' But still.

I know he loves me. Obviously, I love him too. But it would be amazing just to hear him say it.

But I don't have it in me to push it out of Connor the way Mason did.

I'm not about to pin him to a bed and make him say it.

Despite what they think, Connor and Olivia are more alike than they'll ever admit.

And with that, I just continued what we were doing and kept skating along with him.

20 or so minutes of skating silently, he finally made his way to the side wall pulling me with him.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I shook my head. "Why?"

"Because you've been happy, and smiling, and laughing all day, and now it's like I shredded your softball cleats and threw your glove in a dumpster. You're not even talking to me. What's wrong?"

"I'm just skating Connor. Everything is fine."

"Sienna Barber." He raised his eyebrows and crossed his arms. "First of all, I'm asking you so it's OK to tell me. Two, don't lie to me, if I did something, I need you to tell me so I can fix it. That's how this works." He nodded.

I sighed. "Connor, you don't want to fix it."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

"The truth?"

"Preferably." He nodded.

"Why won't you tell me you love me?" I crossed my arms.

His face sunk. "Sie, it's not that I- "

"Exactly." I nodded.

He sighed, grabbed my hand, and used the wall to pull me over to the opening of the ice.

He took me over to take my skates off, then to the hot chocolate stand, we both got hot chocolate, and he got me the candy cane donut that I've been walking, we walked through the park and the lights for a little while, silently, and then he pulled me to a bench to sit down.

He took a deep breath and looked at me. "It didn't upset me that you asked." He shook his head. "Just, I needed a little bit to work out words that didn't make me sound like a dick."

"Hence the food, hot chocolate, and walk." I nodded.

"3 things that make you happy." He nodded. "And you being happy makes me happy, so if you really want to talk about this, we can."

"Well, you trying is already better than Ol."

He pursed his lips and nodded. "Sienna, it's not that I don't. You know that right?"

"Not really Connor." I shook my head.

"I do. You know I do. It's just that, that word, I'm saving it for my future."

"You said you see me in your future Connor." I sighed.

"And I do. But even though you say you love me, I don't know if you see me in yours."

My jaw dropped. "Excuse me?"

"You just have so many plans and so much ahead of you Sienna. Syracuse in the fall, playing softball in college, traveling for it, going pro or becoming a pediatrician like you want to. I'm trying, I am but I don't see how you'll fit me in to those plans once everything is said and done. It's not that I don't love you. I do. And like I said, I know you say it, and I know you mean it, but I just don't think you see me in your life as much as I see you in mine. And I'm not saying that to upset you, it's genuinely how I feel and I'm sorry if it does upset you. I just, it scares me to say it when there's still a chance you may leave me in the end."

"You know it's not easy for me to say it right?" I raised my eyebrows. "I don't say it for my health. I say it because I do love you, and you deserve to know how much. I waited 2 years for you, I finally have you, and now you're scared of me leaving? I have the same exact fear, but I don't hold in how I feel about you."

"I've made it 100% clear that I'm not going anywhere." He shook his head. "I'm the one who has stood by you, and up for you through all the dudes. I'm the one who made the move to not just fuck around anymore. I initiated the relationship because it's what I wanted. Once I get what I want, I keep it and you of all people know that. I'm not going anywhere Sienna. So, stop thinking I am."

"I'm not going anywhere either Connor." I shook my head. "And it's because I do love you. Which should be enough for you."

"Jesus Christ Sie." He groaned and threw his head back. "You've always been more than enough for me. My god, I've loved you for the past 2 years of my life. It's never fucking stopped. Just because I don't say it doesn't mean I don't love you. I do love you. OK? I fucking love you."

His eyes got wide, and I just smiled.

"Come again?" I raised my eyebrows.

He just stared at me. "I love you." He pursed his lips.

"One more time?" My smile grew.

He let out a small smile. "I love you." He nodded.

I grabbed both sides of his face, leaned over, and kissed him.

"I love you too." I nodded.

His smile grew. "I love you."

"Connor." I let out a small laugh.

"I love you." He nodded.

Oh god, I broke him.

BUT BITCH, HE LOVES ME.