Whenever a little kid laughs too much there always this time came when he all of sudden starts to cry too much. Same as when they say whenever we human become so happy, so content in our life that we want nothing more but then there this time came when all of sudden everything got destroyed.

Life gives us so many pauses where she wants us to look back and rectify those mistakes, we did just so we have a better future, but we.... as always tried to ignore it, because we think we can handle it very well; where on the other side somewhere in our heart there was this voice which says that we don't know how we are going to handle that situation, the only thought creep us out, like if we didn't stop thinking about it the very next second, we will die.

And yet we ignore them.

As a matter of fact, I did the same. I myself become the of my own story, a happy story filled with love, my Ishika, whom I love to the infinity.

I with my own hands, my own had destroyed more than thrice her heart which she had given it to me without knowing.

Everyone around me tried telling me that I should tell her everything before she gets to know herself. They begged me to tell her before it's too late.

But...... they don't know what is creeping my mind whenever I think of telling her the truth. My body start to burn with the thought of itself. The fear that she will leave me is so much that I have to stop myself from telling her.

I know I did a mistake by putting her in shadow but that is what I feel like is right for her, us or more precisely for ME.

God!!! I don't want to give her more pain, but unknowingly its always me who gave her the pain. I know somewhere I don't deserve her, but I am too selfish to even let her go from my eyes even for few seconds. It was like I will die the next second if I dint feel her near me or see her. She is the fresh air of breath in my dark world.

I know I have committed so many bad things which I am not very proud off but those have to done in order to protect her. Only if she knows that I can go to any extent for her, just to see her next to me, giving me her best of best heart warming smile.

The moment I saw those photos and envelop on the wind shield of my car, I didn't know what should I do in order to protect what between us, so I did what I feel like was right. I denied our meeting at the mall and did everything in my power to check who was the one that know my secret, though I have my doubts on someone but I don't know if I was right so the very next day, I booked a ticket to Italy and went to Sicily to meet Leonardo.

I know he is only one person whom I can trust with this. And promised myself that I will tell Ishika everything after we came back from the engagement party. But as they not everything goes as you plan. And the same happen with me now. All the things I planned didn't go as I expected.

Finally, my secret was out which I was trying everything to keep it to me but alas she knows everything about it or so I thought.

I was so excited to meet her once I reach my home, I ran up to our room and open the door so softly in order to surprise her, I saw her half lying half sitting on bed looking at distant with tears rolling down her cheeks.

Looking at disoriented form my inner burns, my chest constricted seeing her tearstained face. I rush towards her dropping my bag on the floor, I called her name a few times but it was like my voice didn't reach her ears.

She looked at me with so many questions swirling thorough her tear-filled eyes but she didn't ask anything and hug me back. Sensing the difference in air I realized something did happened in my absence. I tried voicing out my thoughts but before I do that she ran out of the room.

I opened the second drawer to the right in the walk-in closet to put my watch back in the drawer when my eyes fall on the white envelope lying in far corner of the footwear column. I bend down a little and pick up the envelope and realize that it was the same envelope from the past where I accidently open the wrong gift.

I saw few pictures were crumbled harshly, and with everything sits with me that somewhere Ishika knows everything. The secret I am hiding is been out. I stumble on my place realizing the broken look she was giving me before. Looking at those pictures in my hand, a memory flashes in front of me.

It was half past seven at night, Ranveer was in a meeting with some team leaders of his company discussing over best material to purchase for the construction, when he was interrupted with a ring of phone. He cut the call without looking at it, but again the phone rang, with an angry sigh he picked the phone to yell at the person who disturb him in middle when he saw many missed calls from the bodyguard who he left behind his lady love, his Ishika for her safety. He curses himself under his breath a few times and dismiss everyone from the meeting hall before picking the call.

"Sir." Jack, the Body guard asked from the other side, Ranveer hums in response for him to continue.

"Sir, we have a problem." Jack said alerted Ranveer on his place.

"What?" Ranveer asked for him to continue.

"Sir, it seems mam is...... seeing someone." He stuttered a little in end knowing the anger Ranveer have in him.

"He is Akash, Akash Rajwant. Son of Mr. Surendra Rajwant, cabinet secretary. They are seeing each other from past seven days." Jack said with an inaudible gulp in the end.

"Come again. What did you say?" Ranveer asked in most calm voice, but the voice is anything but calm.

"Sir.... Seven days." Jack replied. He didn't heard any reply from other side for some time,

"I want him in the basement in two hours." Ranveer stated and cut the call. Jack heaved a sigh and called the other members to work on the plan.

After half an hour, Jack saw Ishika and Akash parting their ways. He commanded his one man to follow Ishika and protect her from a distance and call him if anything happens.

He with his other members follows Akash's car and soon he pulls over their car in front of Akash's car, and within few minutes, Akash was fainted sitting in the back of car.

In more or so like half an hour, they reach the prime location, they all move out with Akash with them still unconscious. They made him sit and tie him to the chair. Soon Ranveer came and sat Infront of unconscious Akash but not before yelling at Jack for informing him so late.

Not more than twenty-five minutes passed when Akash open his eyes and look around in confusion, but soon he realizes everything when he saw himself tied up to the chair.

He understood that he was kidnaped by one of his enemies.

"Who are you all?"

"Open me right now."

"You don't know who I am and what I can do to all of you."

.

. these are the few sentences Akash keep on yelling continuously, when Ranveer had his enough. Ranveer through the water at him and yell at him to shut his mouth.

"Now you listen to me you ungrateful brat. I don't give a fuck about who you are or who is your ugly fucking father. I know what you and your father do in shadow so don't try to open my mouth because trust me if I did, you will be shitting your pants here. So, keep your fucking mouth shut and listen to me very carefully." Ranveer said with a tight hold on Akash face, who look at him in pure disgust.

"And you really thought I will believe you, for someone as low as you, you are surely testing my power, when you don't even know what I can do with you in snap of a finger." Akash completed and Ranveer let out a dark yet deep laugh which cause his own men goosebumps erupt all over their body.

Ranveer snaps his finger towards jack who walk up to Ranveer and hand him the photos and the iPad. Ranveer with gracefulness, played a video and show it to Akash who look at the video and pictures in horror.

"We......what? how?" he stuttered looking at the video and the Ranveer in horror. Ranveer smirk at him and asked,

"Now, Mr. Rajwant what say? You got any idea what should I do with these proofs. Hm?" Ranveer asked with fake sincerity, Akash start shuffling in his place.

"Why are you doing this? I don't even know you? I don't think I haven't done anything wrong to you?" Akash said with full of desperateness in his voice.

"Tch. tch. this is where you are wrong Mr. Akash Rajwant. The first ever mistake you did after being born on this earth that you go behind my woman. Even with the constant warnings from my men, you dared to go behind my woman-" Ranveer said sitting on the chair in front of Akash.

"Who are you talking about-" Akash cut in between Ranveer, he pulls Akash's hair in tight grip,

"Never dare to cut me in between my talks." Ranveer said, Akash nodded his head in pain, wincing in the pain that start to building in his head with constant hair pulling and the slap and punches he is receiving now and then.

"I want you to stay away from my woman, my Ishika, break your fucking relation, I don't care what you do how you do or your father do, I want you to be away from her. If I see you one more time with her, trust me I will destroy you and your father. Mark my words, I will do so bad to you that you will ask me to kill you your own. So be a little boy and leave my woman away." Ranveer said, as Akash realizes who he is talking about, and after few more ordering around, Ranveer leave the place as his men took Akash to hospital for the bandage.

All the while Akash understood that he has to stay away from his new flavor if he wants to see the sun the next day. From that day Akash never talked to Ishika and even if they meet in some meetings or in parties, he always maintains his distance.

This was not the first and last time of threating every other guy who dated Ishika or even think about doing that, it was just the mere starting of something big coming up.

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I shook my head at the old memory noticing that at any moment Ishika will come back to our room. I put those pictures away, and went to bathroom for a quick shower or say to control myself from this intolerable pain which start rising through my body.

we both lie down on bed after doing our chores, I patted her back in order to comfort her, as her closeness is the only comfort I want in my life. Shortly she asked me something making me stiffen at my own place, but soon her words angered me, how can she even think about leaving me, dint she know I am nothing without her.

The voice from my head speaks.

I know.

She is the only sanity I have. because of her I can think straight.

But what if-

Yeah, you are right I will tell her now. This is the right time.

"The day you left for US was the day everything started." I said after a long pause of few minutes. I know she is looking at me in shock but I don't know what else to say to her.

The fear I am feeling right now is so visible that she has to rub my beard softly to comfort me. The only feeling I dread to come out of my system is very on my face. I took a deep breath, to control the negative urge, the negative feeling which is growing inside me.

"Things were pretty great for about year or so or that is something I keep telling myself. Every day I use to wait for the week to end and Saturday to come just for your one mail, just to read it."

"Only thought about your one e-mail every Saturday make me so happy that I can't even tell. That is the only source of my happiness in those days of my loneliness which leave me all giddy inside........."

".....but soon my happiness didn't last long, with passing weeks your mails stopped coming....... I tried sending you mails every other day just maybe you will see them and text me back,,,,,,,, but I never got the response......" my own voice feels so foreigner to me, as I tried remembering those days of more than a decade and half ago.

"So, I again went back to the shell I was in before I met you." I heaved a heavy sigh just to sooth the burning sensation building in my chest.

"My friends tried so many things but nothing helped, I stopped talking with everyone including mom and dad and Gautam, I hardly talked to anyone, until and unless it's important...... When this day came and I fainted in school before break or more precisely because of a fight between fellow classmates during break. I was rushed to hospital and dad was called from his office."

"There doctor told him about the injury over my forehead which you sometimes like to trace your fingers on it, and he also told him to talk to a psychiatrist as they think I am in depression, he was shocked for a moment or two, but then understood." I said going back through the memory lane when I feel her soft cottony fingers touching my side of forehead, though the mark is not clearly visible since it was faded with time but it leaves a black mark there.

"After the discharge dad took me to a park, since the day had turned in night and not many people were cutting-edge there. We sat there for few minutes in silence, until he spoke."

"He requested me about what had happened to me, why I am behaving like this. He asked so many questions but I didn't reply to any of his questions. Then again he kept silent and that when after a whole lot of half an hour or so I said the first word i.e. 'Ishika'........ Dad looks at me in confusion and with that a sniff left my mouth and I told him everything. First, he chuckled at me but stop looking at my crying face." I tried smiling a little remembering that day like it was happen just day before.

"He tried telling me that it was nothing but my tiny crush I had on and it will disappear with time, I didn't listen to him and said stubbornly that I want to see you, want to meet you. We argue over it for sometimes when Ram uncle came in picture who is also there, behind me listening everything."

"He promised me that he will take me to you but on one condition that I have to start talking to everyone, and have to take care of myself. I happily obliged him and dad's every order and within few months I flew to US to meet you." I said looking at her in the end, she tried hiding the small smile gracing her lips, I peck her lips to control myself from grinning, seeing her smile for the first time in past two hours.

"There I saw you so happy with your friends. ..... or so that is I thought. After a day or two of my living there, I saw a guy proposing you, though I feel happy when you reject him, but it angers me seeing him doing this, so I did what I feel like was good at that time, I... I beat him." I said not looking in her eyes. That day when I saw that guy proposing her, my Ishika, I saw nothing but red. I know listening this from a thirteen-year-old guy is kind of weird, but that day is something that my affection for the girl who I met for the first time in the backyard of her house, with those red chubby cheeks has become more than the mere affection. That day I realized I have become possessive over her.

"After beating him I ordered him to tell every boy that you are their sister, and even someone tried proposing you again, he will call me in stance." I uttered hurriedly, and from the side of my eye I saw her amusedly glaring at me but didn't say anything, which is a sign for me to continue.

"Uncle asked me to go and meet you but seeing you happy I didn't want to disturb you, so with that I return back to India.... Dad talked to me about my doings there as I told him everything, he yelled at me for beating someone but then calmly tried explaining me that it's not right to stalk someone, and made me realize that I am becoming obsessed with you. Though it's hard for me to stay away from you but because I promised him that I will do whatever he asked me to do, I did. and started staying away from everything related to you."

"I thought everything will pass with passing time but nothing changed and just like that- years passed and the time came when you returned back to India. In excitement I went to airport to meet you, but then I realized that you might not remember me, so I stayed in shadow until you walk back with you siblings in their car with the bouquet of lily in your hand." I said with a small smile gracing my lips remembering her beautiful smile from that day.

"You know the fun part, the guy I beat was none other than Jason. Yeah, when I smashed him completely then I realize that he did what he was asked for in a dare. Though it's the truth I never met him except the day in Italy, he might have called me to talk about the guys proposing you but he handled them with help of Leo. That's why they know my name, that I existed but it's hard for them to picturize me with you in Italy.... Okay I might have met Leo before but that's because of business purpose only." I said controlling myself from telling her that I met Leo for the security purpose that I left behind Ishika, for her safety.

"After looking at you at airport, I realized that whatever I did or was doing might look obsession in someone eyes and stalker or creepy in others, but I know I loved you even before I know what love is. The feelings I had you for all these years was and is pure. And That was the moment for me to realize that I won't let anyone come between us, no one, not even the god because You are mine. Only mine. Even if it takes decades to make you mine, I will make you mine."

"But before letting you in, I understood that I have to do so many things, I have to provide you with everything in this world, so I started working in my dad's company, he was happy to let me in but I was appointed as an intern since I was doing my graduation at that time. Soon I appointed few bodyguards for your safety, as in the place you live at that time was not good." I hurried at last seeing her angry glares at me at the name of bodyguards.

"I threaten every guy, my men beat every single guy who come near you. Whoever you date, why they did not last for more than a week is because even before they reach near you, I kidnap them, threaten them, beat the shit out of them, so they never ever see you again."

"I tried everything to talk to you but every time I tried to come near you, you ran away. You might have thought that no one was there to celebrate your every little success, but trust me sweetheart every last drink you had, you drink that with me." I said cupping her cheeks.

"I did everything, I think was right for you and finally after telling mom and dad that I want to marry you, we all went to your house to ask your hand in marriage, everyone was happy, everything was going so smooth, all of my hard work of those past years started paying me off but I was so wrong. I was so wrong Ishika." I felt my throat closing up.