I'm still in the hospital.

Right by Alaska's hospital bed.

The doctors told me that she lost a lot a blood and would have been dead in five minutes if I did not bring her when I did.

Yes, I'm mad at Alaska, but I know why she did what she did.

There was a lot of emotion on her, and I was too stupid to see that she was hurting. Yes, I know she was hurting but not that bed to where she will try to kill herself.

But I'm just mad that she did not want to get help. I know she has not been good at telling her emotion, but she could have tried to tell me about them, but even a tiny bit, but she didn't and I'm mad at myself for not seeing it.

But here we are.

I'm holder her hand, rubbing it slowly, I know that she can feel my touch, but she is tired to where she can't open her eyes.

I called Vic and Sebatian that she was here. And they came right away. Right now, they are outside waiting for her to wake up. I'm happy that they are here for her, and Alaska will be happy that they are here for her whenever she wakes up.

I did not tell Ace or Kat, because Kat will worry, and she already had enough on her. Both of her parents died and now her aunt tried to kill herself, it just won't end well.

And Ace won't care.

I'm worried about Ace really. All he cares about is Kat and that's all. He's cold and even I'm scared of him. I'm just scared what is future is going to be like.

Suddenly Alaska's hand moved from my hand. I look up in widen eyes. I see her eyes slowly futter open. "Hi, Angelo." I grab the back of her neck, kissing the open of her head. "wha-" her voice dies down at the end.

"Shh, don't talk," my thumb goes across her cheek. Her brown eyes look up at me in sorrow. "I-I'm sorry." she looks down at her wrist. "This is embarrassing," her cheeks turn bright red. She averts her eyes away from mine.

"Alaska, this is not embarrassing," tears go down her cheek. "Sweetheart," my hart breaks to see her like this. "Please down cry," I wipe the tears and I turn her face at mine. "Your strong, ok." She shakes her head. "No, I'm not," she cried.

I set down on the side of the bed next to her. "Yes, you are Alaska." I kiss her lips. She gives me a weak smile. "I love you so much, Alaska. And this is not going to make me love you any less," I smile. She smiles back at me.

"You mean everything to me." I tell her truthfully. She sniffs. "I love you so much Damon," she pulls me closer to her face. I smile before putting my lips on hers. I pull away. "I'll go get a nurse to check up on you."

I feel different.

I mean yeah, I just tried to kill myself.

But it is not that.

I feel different like my body and my emotions. I feel...

Happy.

More than I was.

I don't know why, but I just am. I'm happy that I didn't die and I'm happy that Damon is not mad at me. I'm happy that he is there more me and always will be for me.

I flinch when the doctor takes out the needle out of me. "Next time take the needle out better." I snap, glaring at her. "Sorry ma'am," she flashes a smile at me. "You little bitc-" "ok, Alaska." Sebby's voice cuts me off.

"Get out." Sebby says to the girl. The nurse walks out of the room.

"Hey," I smile going over to him, giving him a hug. he hugs me back. "Shouldn't you be in bed, hermoso?" (beautiful) He smiles down at me. "Yes, but I feel good, Sebby" I pat his shoulder. "And don't call me beautiful. Damon might get jealous," I giggle.

Did I just giggle?

"Are you high?" His eyebrows pull. "Yes," Damon says from behind me. I gasp as he pulls me from Sebby making me closer to him. "And don't call her beautiful," Damon puts my hair in his hand.

I sigh putting my head back against his hard chest.

Sebby shutters in discuss. "Well, I'm happy that you alright, Als." he pats my shoulder. Then he walks out of the room.

I turn around, I wrap my arms around Damon's neck. "Why are you so jealous?" I chuckle. He chuckles, kissing my lips once. "Because your mine." He tilts his head to the side, still looking at me in the eyes. "Damon, everyone knows that." I smile. He nods, his eyebrows lifting. "Oh, I know, but I'm still going to be jealous."

I roll my eyes.

"Come on let's get out of this hell hole." I start my way out the door, but Damon grabs me by the waist pulling me back from the door. "Are you sure you're, ok?" He gives me a serious look. "Yes, my love I'm alright," I kiss his cheek.

I sigh looking at my wrist before pulling my sleeve down. "let's leave," I mutter. Damon sighs closing the door behind me.

When I got into the waiting room, I see Vic and her husband. Her eyes brighten when she sees me. She comes over to me, "hey honey, how are you?" She cups my cheek. I chuckle, "I'm ok now, really. Much better." Vic smiles and kissed mt cheek, "Let me know if you guys need anything." She goes to Damon.

"I'm taking Kat tonight," she said before walking out of the hospital.

~•~

When we pull into the driveway I sigh.

"You, ok?" Damon holds my hand; I roll my had towards him. "Yes," I blink slowly, "Just tired." I said truthy. He nods and gets out of the car. Before I could get out, Damon comes to my side and opens the door for me.

"Come here," He picks me up and takes me into the house. He goes up to our room. He takes my pants off. "No clothes on?" He asked as me takes off my shirt. I shake my head. He takes off all of my clothes and coves me up with the blanket.

"I'll be in bed in a little bit I got to do some things," he kissed me. "I love you," he whispered, Before I fell asleep.

I love you too Damon.

~•~

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