RAIDEN ||

I look at the bedside table, noticing the small bottle of lube, wondering when Dylan even had the time to grab that. Was that what he asked Bennett for before we got to our room?

Was this why he took a shower mid day?

Did he have this planned?

"Are you sure pups?" My hands stayed in their position, cupping his face, while I continued to hold his gaze. I needed to be sure this is what he wanted. I know he's still really fragile about his sexuality, a week ago was the first time he's ever actually touched another man's dick before, let alone actually had sex with one.

I'm not complaining by any means, for that to have been our first time together and his first time with a man, my pups was incredible, to say the very least.

I would allow him to take me again, just not anytime soon. I've had to lie to him and say my body needs a break, just to keep him at bay. He's grown increasingly addicted to my ass and that's not a good thing because I would much rather be addicted to his.

I don't mind bottoming, it feels good and it's extremely empowering. I've done it plenty of other times on my solitary journey, but only ever with tigers that I've encountered. Those felines are freakier than I am and way more domineering. So giving up control was easy with them, but when it comes to my pups, I wanted nothing more than to take control of his body in only a way which assures my alpha wolf that every inch of him belongs to me.

I wanted to watch him squirm underneath my gaze, make him feel things that he's never thought we're possible, I wanted to watch him lose control, give in to me and feel overwhelmed in the best way, but I also wanted him to feel empowered while doing it.

That's honestly why I'm so hesitant, I don't want him to think that bottoming is a weak or submissive thing because he already feels inadequate in everything else. I noticed how strong he felt when he topped me, how much my verbal praise for the way he made me feel, made him feel like a fucking King.

I wanted him to keep that mind frame when the time came for me to top him because there's no better feeling of being in control and honestly, that kind of control only comes when you're bottoming.

There's something so fucking sexy about knowing you're in complete control of the moment, even though you're the one getting railed.

Being the bottom, the submissive, the one who takes it, anything other than giving the dick, means you control the tempo, the whole moment, the whole sexual encounter is within the bottoms control because the amount of pleasure or pain taken is up to them.

The top may be the one giving the pleasure, but the bottom tells them how. If you think about it, the tops have to take more direction and follow their bottoms lead because the bottom says when to start, when to stop, how far things can go, what they like, what they hate, they tell their tops what's comfortable and what's not and the top has to adjust accordingly.

Like when Dylan put it in for the first time, I tensed up and he stopped because I was uncomfortable in that moment. When I adjusted my body because I didn't like something, he adjusted his too. The moments when I arched my back or made it clear when something felt good, he continued to do them. He may have thought he was in control, but I was the one who controlled the whole tempo. He had to put in the work to satisfy me and keep me comfortable, not the other way around.

It's way more work and honestly way more nerve wracking being the top because every position, every stroke, every thrust, every lick, suck, nibble or bite, everything is being criticized and you can't just lose control. You have to stay focused and pay attention to every little cue your bottom gives you to make sure you're doing your job the right way. It's just fucking stressful.

Being the bottom is empowering and exhilarating and gives you a whole new level of control.

So because of the misconception that the tops are the ones in control, when in all actuality, they're not, you have men like Dylan who are terrified to accept the fact that they're gay, scared to admit that they actually like dick, which is unfortunate because dick is the best thing in the world and scared to actually allow themselves to experience the joys of bottoming.

Which brings me back to my pups, who I'm still staring at, waiting for his answer because I know he doesn't fully understand what bottoming means.

"Are you sure pups?" I ask him again because I can't read his expression right now.

After a few minutes of deafening silence, he finally nods his head, but that only caused me to shake mine.

"Words, baby, that's how this works, so we won't have any misunderstandings." I slide my thumb across his cheek in an effort to calm him.

He nods again. "I'm sure babe."

I heard his reassurance, but I was still hesitant. I just didn't want to scare him or push him too far and then we're back at square fucking one.

"I want to talk to you about something important." I tell him and he frowns "I'm not upset with you." I rush my words before kissing the top of his nose, noticing his immediate fear. His heart rate calms a little after my affection. "I'm sorry pups, I didn't mean to scare you, but I need to make sure you understand what you're asking for."

"I do."

"Really?" I ask, raising my eyebrow, which only makes his frown deepen.

"I think." He whispers, I sigh.

"Dylan, do you think being the bottom will make you weak? Do you think you're submitting to me?"

He scrunches his face up, then seems to think for a minute before he finally nods. "Yes."

I press my forehead to his.

This is exactly what I was afraid of.

"Pups, you are my heart, my mate, not my submissive... I don't want to dominate you, I want to make love to you."

"What's the difference?" He whispers again, this time his words made me smile.

"Let me explain it to you." I whisper back to him before letting everything out. I tell him everything that I've learned about sex with another man, what bottoming means, what being a submissive means, how different they are and the power that he holds, the fact that he's in control of every aspect of our time together, every single thing I was thinking about earlier, I make sure he understands and he would need to confirm that he understood it all before I even think about moving forward with him in this way.

I won't allow him to feel inadequate or weak or submissive because I know how much that affects him on a daily basis, I won't allow it to affect him in our sex life. That wouldn't make either of us feel good. No, him feeling that way would only make him feel worse about himself and make me feel terrible for causing him even more emotional turmoil.

"I'll be in control?" He asks, I nod.

Really?" He asks again.

"Yes."

"So whatever I say, goes?"

"When it comes to your comfortability, pups, I will do my best to follow your lead, yes."

"What about if I say stop?"

"Then I'll stop." I answer immediately and truthfully.

"But what you said before." He whispers then looks away. "What if I don't mean it? What if I use my safe word and I'm wrong or something?"

"That's why we have safe words pups, if you tell me to stop, I'll check in with you and make sure that's really what you want, I'll make sure you use your safe word correctly." I grab his chin and pull his gaze back to mine.

"I'm right here with you, I know you're nervous, but I'm right here and everything you need help with, every new feeling, every fear you have, I'll be here and I'll help you through it."

Planting gentle kisses across his face, I was hoping, praying that my words and my actions were showing him that I meant what I said. Wholeheartedly. I would be here, forever, to help him through it all, to comfort him, to stop if he tells me to.

I won't do this if he's uncomfortable.

I won't do this if he feels weak or inadequate while giving in to me.

I won't do this if he's unsure.

"Ok." I heard his sweet, little whisper, so I stopped my kisses. He slowly opens his eyes and when they meet mine, he smiles. "Ok."

"Are you comfortable with this?" I ask one more time just to be sure because you could never ask too many times about someone else's comfortability.

"Yes." He swallows before nodding. "I'm comfortable with you Raiden."

That was all I needed to hear before I captured his lips, gently devouring them as my hands worked their way down. I grabbed the bottom of his shirt, slowly running my fingers across his skin as I pulled it up his body, only breaking our kiss to remove the article of clothing that was keeping me from feeling the contact of my mate's skin on mine.

I raise my arms, allowing Dylan to pull my shirt over my head then I grab his hips, pulling his body on top of mine. Scooting back, my upper body rests against the headboard with my pups straddling me. My hands cup his face once again as I lean in for another heart throbbing kiss. Having my fill of the taste of his tongue on mine, I gently bite down on his bottom lip, tugging it and following the motion of my head leaning away from his. His body shudders against mine and the moan he let glide through the air, caused my grip to tighten on his face before my hands moved on their own accord. One finding its way to the back of his neck, my fingers tangling in his hair and the other, down to those sweet perky nipples of his.

Gently rubbing my thumb over his right nipple, I let go of his bottom lip, only to replace my thumb on his nipple with my tongue. The moment I flicked my tongue across his nub, he arched his back and his nails dug into my shoulders.

"Ahhh babe." His voice was already strained, almost as if he was extremely sensitive right here. Of course I had to try again, flicking my tongue over his nipple one more time and pinching the other, he shivered and cried out again.

Sensitive spot. Nipples. Check.

I take my time worshipping his beautifully perky nubs before relieving him and bringing my lips back to his only briefly before I trail kisses down his jaw, stopping only when I find his sweet spot. The spot where my mark would lay soon enough, I place my thumb under his chin and tilt his head up, giving me better access to what I wanted and I bite down, not enough to mark him, but enough to give him undeniable pleasure, which was apparent with the way his legs shook and the fact that he wrapped his arms around my neck to steady himself.

I tilt his head back even farther, wanting to suck every inch of his smooth skin, I watched his Adam's apple bob as he swallowed nervously when my free hand slide down his spine and made its home right above his cheeks that would sure enough belong to me in just a few moments. His adams spoke bobbed again when I used one finger to tap the cute little dimples I found on his lower back. I wanted to watch him squirm a little more, but I had to see what happened when I sucked on that sweet little ball that teased me every time he swallowed, so I leaned forward and took the length of his neck between my lips and he bucked again.

Sensitive spot. Adams apple. Check.

"R-Raiden, ngh, mmm, I-I.. shit."

I wasn't expecting his little mewls but the moment my hand moved from the front of his neck to the side, my fingertips gently grazing the tip of his ear, he gave me such beautiful sounds. Two for one right here.

Sensitive spot. Ears. Check.

My breathing had become ragged at this point, coming out in deep huffs instead of shallow, steady flows. I wrapped my arms around my mate's back and flip our bodies, to allow mine to hover over his. I pull back just enough to look into his eyes, already hooded and glazed over, I smile proudly and lean down to kiss him one more time before slowly trailing my kisses down his chest. I kissed each nipple, causing his back to arch off the bed before I trailed even farther south. Kissing my way down his stomach, stopping to kiss his cute little belly button a few times because fucking sweet shit, it was cute and I couldn't pass by without showing it attention.

I kissed the rim of his briefs a few times before hooking my fingers under the fabric. I looked up to see pups face, he was watching me as his chest rose and fell heavily. He never said his safe word or showed any other signs of distress, so I slowly pulled the briefs from his hips, sliding them down his thighs, then past his calves and finally past his feet, never once taking my eyes off his.

I loved the way his cock bounced when it finally was released from those stupid briefs that kept it from me. I gently spread his thighs apart so I could settle myself between them. I noticed the moment he tensed up when my face was a little too close to his length, so I looked up at him again.

"Safe word." I encouraged him to use it if he was feeling uncomfortable, but all he did was shake his head and close his eyes.

So I took that as an ok. I kissed the inside of each of his thighs before grabbing the base of his length, he sucked in a sharp breath as his legs tightened around me. I slowly pushed them back apart as I knew that was a normal reaction for feeling the sensitive nerves of our jewels being touched.

"Breathe pups." He frantically nods his head as he visibly blows out a shaky breath and I kiss the tip of him. He tenses up again, but I don't stop my kisses because I knew by now that he was just nervous and this was a new feeling for him. Running my tongue up the length of him, he arched off the bed once again and his hands flew to his sides, gripping the sheets. I smiled to myself seeing his sudden reaction to such a small gesture, knowing once I fully took him in my mouth, he would flip the fuck out. So I continued to lick the length of him until I've had my fill of the way his body would react to me, then I sucked the tip and he screamed.

"R-Raiden." He whined as his precum dribbled onto my tongue, the taste of his inner essence was fucking amazing. I thought his tongue tasted good, but shit..

He tastes so fucking good..

I couldn't help myself, I had to taste the rest of my alpha wolf and he never said his safe word, so I just went for it. Taking all of him, feeling the entirety of his length slide past my lips, across my tongue and hit the back of the tongue, my eyes rolled as I created an even pace of my mouth taking him in and my hand working his balls. My baby was squirming against me, his legs constantly tightening around me as he bucked his hips to meet my pace.

"Fuuuucccckkkk!" I opened my eyes at the sound of my pups motivating scream, raising an eyebrow as I continued my assault on him, I seen his canines had elongated already and his claws were ripping into the sheets. He lost control over his body already and this is so fucking beautiful to see.

It didn't take long before I felt his balls tighten in my grasp and his dick throbbed against my tongue, I knew he was close, so I picked up the pace and I felt everyone of his muscles tense around me.

"Ahhhh!" His cum shot down my throat and I savored every minute of it, completely enjoying the flavor of my alpha wolf and the way his body trembled as he rode out his orgasm.

ONE DOWN.

Once I milked him for every ounce he would give me, I pulled back to see the beginning of the masterpiece that would be my mate by the time I was done with him. His canines and claws hadn't retracted yet, his eyes were closed as he was fighting to control his breathing. Damn, if he gets like this from head, what the fuck would he be like when he finally takes my dick?

Slowly, hooking my hands under his knees, I push his legs up, forcing his thighs to rest on his stomach so I could take in his sweet, untouched hole. This was all mine.

Thank Goddess he showered earlier because what I wanted to do next would surely throw him over the edge.... again.

Holding his thighs in place against his stomach, I dip my head to lick, prep and prime my alpha wolfs sweetness. "Oh my.. fuck!" Pups screamed as my tongue picked up the pace. Cracking my eyes open, I could see his toes curling and I smiled triumphantly before letting go of his thighs and spreading his cheeks to get better access to my treat.

"F-fuck Raiden.....fuck!" Circling the rim of his little entrance, I devour his area for all that I could, before slowly shoving my tongue inside of him. "Baby!" He screamed as his legs shook above me, that only spurred me on as I continued my merciless attack on my mate's tight little bottom. The sounds I was making as I ate my little one to my satisfaction, were nothing but feral and animalistic as Onyx pushed forward with me. We growled into the channel of our mate, the vibrations ripped through him and had him screaming out not even minutes later.

"F-fuck... c-cumming!"

I felt his hand above my head, stroking himself until I smelled his essence seeping out of him as his hole clenched around my tongue.

TWO.

Slowly pulling my tongue from his entrance, i enjoyed the way his body shuddered as I licked my treat one more time before pulling back and taking in my mate once again. He was a mess, a delicious mess. It was so cute to see that his legs were damn near stuck in their previous position, he clearly didn't know how to handle what just happened to him. So I pull them down until his feet are flat against the bed. Scooting a little closer, I lean down to kiss his stomach again before grabbing his length once again.

"B-ba-babe." He whined, squirming against my grip. I placed a kiss to the tip of his sensitive head once again and his back arched off the bed. Placing a finger into my mouth, I licked it, making sure it's nice and wet for my little one before I attempted to push him even further past his comfort zone.

"It's ok pups, I'm right here." His eyes lock on mine as I place another kiss to his tip.

"I'm going to touch you down there pups and not with my tongue this time, ok." I whisper kissing his inner thigh. He sucks in a shaky breath then nods, so I gently press my finger against his entrance. He tensed up as soon as he felt it, so I suck the tip of his length a little bit, effectively pulling his attention from his hole as he moaned, but as soon as I touched his entrance again, he tensed up once again.

"I'm-I'm scared." He breathes out as I press a little firmer. "That's ok baby, it's ok to be scared, but I'm right here, I've got you." I tell him, watching him close his eyes and nod again, I continue my slow pace. Pushing my finger in, until his muscles finally gave way and I was able to slide in just past my fingernail.

His body jerked and his eyes flew open.

"Take it out! Take it out! Take it out!"