we both stand there looking at each other. "i lost control. i'm sorry." parker runs his hands through his messed up hair. his cheeks are red. i bet we both look a mess right now. "yeah me too." i look on the floor for my glasses and jacket.

"here." i see parker reach down on the floor. he hands me my glasses and i immediately put them on. i put my jacket on while parker fixes his shirt. we try to fix our hair next.

"that was..." he starts. "intense." i finish. i try not to think of what just happened. i need to get out of here. "yeah... that's the word." the late bell rings. "shit! i have to go." i fix my hair one last time. "me too. you go out first." he walks away from the door. "okay...bye."

i quickly leave the closet and i start walking towards my class. "someone's late." natalies voice makes me freeze. i feel so weird right now. seriously, what the fuck just happened?

"hey nat." my instant reaction is to laugh. "what's so funny?"

"uhh... nothing. let's go to class." i look at the closet behind her. it opens slowly. "why do you look like that? what happened to your hair?" nat tries to fix it. "what's wrong with my hair?" i fake being surprised. i just stare at the door. "what are you..." natalie turns around too. parker walks out nonchalantly and freezes when natalie calls his name. oh my god. i look at the ceiling.

"that's weird. why was parker coming out of a..." she trails off and i start to slowly back away. "wait." bigger steps. oh god.

three, two, one.

she gasps. here we go. "did you and parker just have a quickie in the janitors closet?" she slaps my arm. "no!" i walk away so fast. "come back here brianna marie! you have to tell me what happened!" she races after me. "hell no, i give it two minutes after telling you before the entire school knows."

i keep walking. "okay now you're just being mean. i would never!"

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i need a nap, like really bad. i walk into my house and i make my way upstairs. "hey brianna." i hear my mom. "hello mother." i say in the weakest voice ever. "what's wrong?" she actually sounds worried.

"i just need a nap." i continue to go upstairs. "okay but remember dinner is tonight." she reminds me and i just nod. i get to my room, close the door and throw myself on my bed.

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"brianna?"

"brianna! get up! parker's here looking for you and dinner is almost ready!"

my eyes pop open and i jump out of bed. "dinner? parker?" i run to my bathroom out of it. i look like an absolute mess. "you slept for three hours." noah comes by the bathroom door. three hours??

"shit... okay tell him i'll be a minute." i close the bathroom door. i pee and brush my teeth really quick and i put my hair in a quick bun.

wait...what the hell is he doing here? i leave the bathroom to see parker sitting on my bed. what the fuck. "i thought i told noah to tell you i'd be a minute." i turn off the bathroom light and walk in my room.

"he said you said to come to your room." parker stands up. "i-" i roll my eyes. that idiot! "what are you doing here?" i ask closing my room door. "open!" my mom screams from downstairs. i reopen it.

he laughs. i'm literally so confused. "i wanted to pick up where we left off." he comes in front of me. "pick up?" i say to myself. oooohhhhhh. i get nervous again.

"no parker, we can't do this. i can't do this right now." i protest but the way he's looking at me makes me feel some type of way. he walks over to my door and slowly closes it.

i can't believe this is real.

"why not?" he nonchalantly walks back over to me and sits me down on my bed. i'm in a trance. he starts kissing my neck and i realize that i'm fucked. his kisses make its way from my neck, to my chin, to my lips. he kisses me and i let it happen.

the feeling of wanting him came back. it's too soon. way too soon. he lifts my leg up and caresses it as he slips his body between my thighs.

this is everything i wanted. why am i so against it right now?

we start making out just like earlier except everything is different.

we're in my room... with the door closed... and he's on top of me. parkers hand is on my waist but it starts to move up. i shiver as his cold hands make their way up my stomach under my shirt. "shit." i curse to myself. his hand makes its way up to my bra.

he found it. "parker." i say nervously. "shh." he puts his other hand on my face. his thumb rubs my cheek softly. we stop kissing for a while and i look him in the eyes. he smiles and that's when i know. i'm crazy about him and i want him. but this is just too soon.

is it?

i kiss him harder then i ever have before. he matches the pace and his hand finds its way to the back of my bra. in one swift movement, my bra unsnaps. okay wait i can't do this. this is escalating so fast.

"parker stop!" i push him off of me. i snap my bra back on. "did i do something? what's wrong?" he backs up looking confused. "this is just too much right now. we barely started talking a few days ago and now this." i'm actually out of breath.

"brianna dinner's ready." noah makes me jump. "parker you have to leave. you're not even supposed to be here." i fix my shirt and leave my room. i'm so dazed about what just happened. i don't even know how to react. "brianna i thought i told you we had plans tonight!" i get yelled at by my mom as i go downstairs.

"sorry, i was just going over our anatomy project. i didn't mean to take such a long time." parker comes downstairs. what a charmer. anatomy project? i can't even look at him right now. "a project? bri didn't tell me about a project. what's it about?" my mom comes over to us.

are you kidding me?

"tell her bri." parker says with a smile. wow. unbelievable. "that's because we just found out today... it's about... the human body..." i say not knowing what else to say. "well obviously. it's anatomy." my mom says and my dad and brother laugh from the dinner table.

so much is going on i just can't deal. "right," i sigh. "well it's nice to know you're actually learning in that class." my mom shakes her head and turns around. "bye." parker rushes out of the door.

"bye." i say as he leaves.