Intense chapter ⚠️

His eyes were closed as I watched him breath. The night was silent, he laid peacefully on bed without realising I wasn't there beside him. I felt cold, seated on the coach, legs against my chest as I observed the shape of his sleeping figure.

My mind raced with thoughts of what in the world was I going to do? Enos noticed I was distressed when I returned and he rooted the cause to be my brothers but it was beyond that.

My fingers pressed on my lips as my eyes closed. James grabbed me by my waist and used his lips to tell me he loved me. He came to Georgia and turned my world upside down. I thought I left him behind on that open field but I carried him here in my mind.

I opened my eyes again. I remember the long nights I wished he would be mine. Nights I wanted our roar sex to be lovemaking. Nights I wanted him to whisper 'I love you' constantly in my ears so I could sleep and now he did.

He claims that's how he feels and I can't help but believe him like the fool I've always been for him. But heaven knows I can't let history repeat itself. I was given another chance at happiness, with a man as perfect as Enos and I won't betray him. He deserves so much more than anything I have ever given him.

But then why do I feel like there's something missing? Why can't his love be enough for me? Why must my heart cling to James while all he has ever given me is hurt? When all his good was overpowered by all the wrong?

James had his car parked outside. I can't even dare look through my window. I can't believe he stayed out there. Just waiting for me to be ready to leave with him.

As through it's that simple.

The night was cloudy. Rain was about to fall. I walked back to bed and slept next to Enos. My fingers touched his smooth black hair. I couldn't take my eyes off his beautiful face. With his eyes closed, I trailed my fingers to his lips slowly. I felt his hand grasp mine gently, and then he kissed my fingers with his lips gently.

"Can't sleep?" He asked lazily with his eyes still closed.

"I tried."

He opened his oceancolor eyes. "Come here." Enos opened his arms out for me and I placed myself against his warm body. He wrapped his welcoming arms around my waist and spooned me to comfort. My face laid on the crook of his need as he kissed my temple.

We went back to sleep with him holding me that way.

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My thoughts woke me up in the middle of the night. I sat up on bed and stared at my window. Enos was sleeping soundly and barely sensed that I was getting out off bed.

I drew the Curtain slightly and noticed James' car still parked outside. I began to pace around the room. I couldn't take my mind of the fact that James was still outside.

I can't risk Enos finding out about this. I can't even imagine what will happen this time around. He hates James. And after learning about what James put me through, I don't want to imagine what Enos would do once he realizes that James is after me again.

I wore a cardigan over my nightgown and walked out our room silently, careful not to wake Enos up. I need to tell James to leave this place.

When I reached outside, I went straight to his car. I noticed him opening the door the second I came to his view. There was hope in his eyes but I was desperate to crush it.

"You need to leave." I stood a few feet away from him.

He turned grim. "Not without you."

"I've made up my mind along time ago James and if you can't accept that then it's not my burden to bare."

He walked up to me and I took a step back. "Please don't come closer."

James didn't listen to me. He stood an inch from me and leaned over. I tried my best to be unaffected by the force of his existence.

"Why are you lying to yourself? Enos might be the calm in this storm but then again, your heart belongs to me." He coaxed confidently.

"Atleast he makes me happy, all you ever do is make me cry and treat me as though I'm your property."

"Don't dare act like I never kept a smile on that face. You make it sound like I've been a monster to you Elisabeth. Don't forget I used to hold you until you fell asleep, I only ever thought of keeping you safe."

"Safe from everything but yourself." I corrected.

"It wasn't my intention to cause you pain."

"But then you did."

His eyes shaded regret when I said that. Our faces were so close to each other. I could feel his breath on my lips. I could feel his hands cup my cheeks. I could feel the weight of our history on our shoulders.

"Let me fix us." He cooed. "It would be nothing like before."

He connected his forehead to mine.

I breathed, "I can't betray Enos."

"You also can't betray yourself." James insisted while leaning into my lips.

"Please don't kiss me."

His lips parted and I stared at them. I remembered how they felt against mine again earlier. How the nerves spread all over my body when he swirled his hot tongue into my mouth. How those lips drove me crazy. I can't afford to let him kiss me again. I don't think I can stop myself from allowing it either.

It has always been in his hands and he knows that. He takes advantage of that.

"We can leave right now."

"I don't want to leave with you." I said. "Please just go. You are only complicating my life even more."

And then James kissed me like I knew he would. I sucked in a breath when he knocked the air out my lungs with the force of his need. His hand grabbed my neck and he deepened the kiss before I could adjust to the feeling of pure pleasure bursting inside of me. His tongue tasted every inch of my mouth and I was too weak to stop him from devouring me and my senses. He tasted just like heaven. The way he clung to my waist as I let my wet tongue dive into his mouth for a better taste. We both moaned into each other's mouth when I reciprocated his attacks. I lost my mind. Like I always do.

"Tell me you still love me." He said into my mouth.

"I can't."

He bit down on my lip earning another moan from me. My belly was floating and nerves running down my spine when he pulled my tongue into his wet mouth and sucked on it. I lost my balance as my knees went weak but he held me steady against his hard body. I whimpered when he grabbed and squeezed my ass with his strong hand.

"James you need to stop." I held my breath.

He only pulled away slightly. I could still feel his lips hovering over mine.

"Leave this place." I repeated.

"Betty......"

"No.." I told him, with a stronger demeanor. "I don't love you anymore."

I lied.

He moved away from me and I felt a sudden wave of Coldness. His eyes flickering with hurt and an anger. "You can't kiss me back and tell me you don't love me Elisabeth."

"There's a man waiting for me to go back to bed." I reminded him.

He stared at me. "For fuck sake, you don't love that man."

"Yes I do." I was ready to say anything so he would leave me.

"Thats fucking bullshit and you know it." His voice was heavy and his throat dry. "You are only saying that so I would give up on us but I will never do that."

"It's not bullshit. He gives me everything you were never able to. While you were busy turning me into your sex whore, he actually makes love to me every night."

I knew I stroke a nerve from the way James burned me with his eyes. "Shut the fuck up. I never turned you into a whore." He warned me.

"The truth hurts doesn't it?"

"A whore? That's how you think I treated you as? Do you have any idea how whores are treated like?" He came closer to me again and pointed at my face.

"You showed me how whores are treated everytime you fucked me in the backseat of your car.." I challenged. "You treated me like some slut of yours every night you wished to do so, deny it, I dare you."

"Don't challenge me." He grabbed my arm. His power overwhelming me. "Watch the fucking words that come out your mouth, I never forced you to do anything. Don't turn me into the devil."

"Go ahead, keep on talking to me like I'm your little slave. Keep on proving me right." I was inches away from his face. Our eyes pierced unto each other.

He was visibly infuriated as he dragged me towards his car with force. I struggled under his tight grasp and tried not to fall with my feet.

"So are you planning to force me to leave with you now?"

James pressed me on the door of his car, his body against mine and my breath hitched. I could feel the heat rising between us.

He ranted on my face,"You think you have a clue about how whores get treated? Did I ever push you around like my whore?"

His lips were brushing over mine as he talked down on me and something in my core flickered. I felt an intense anticipation and weakness as I felt every inch of his body plastered on mine over the fabric of my lace nightgown. I don't know why but I burned and ached sinfully inside.

His strong hand grabbed my chin tightly as he brought me closer to his face, "Answer me? And I dare you to say the same shit you were spitting that I can make sure you regret opening that mouth before thinking. I dare you."

His other hand held me under him, and I was caged. His muscles also weighing me down that I could not move an inch. But I wanted to aggrevate him even more.

"What are you going to do? Throw me inside your car and what? Take me out of this place against my will?"

His grip on my chin tightened causing my lips to part and before I knew it James was feeding me his tongue. I struggled against his assault on my mouth but my body reacted erotically to his attacks that I turned to mush beneath him. He grabbed my hair and bent my head forcefully to have better access to my abused mouth. I felt over heated and paralysed from how he grabbed my breast over the lace of my nightgown. I moaned when he squeezed me harder and my nipples erected, arousing me more and more.

His finger dug into my chin and I feared that the digits will leave bruises. "It hurts..."

"I thought you wanted to see how whores are treated." His hand lowered to grab my middle and my head fell over as I released another moan of his name. "James__Ah Ah," I felt wet trails of his teeth sucking extremely hard on my neck as I pressed my thighs together against his hand that grabbed my sex. I was panting like a mad woman, feeling myself tremble.

I knew his teeth would most definitely leave marks from how hard he dug them into my neck, but it hurt so good to make him stop. When he was done with sucking my neck, his hand returned on my throat and he squeezed.

"Now say the load of non-sense you kept vomiting? Spit it out."

I looked him straight in the eyes, "I don't love you." I wasn't trying to challenge him, I was aiming directly at his heart.

He let me go immediately and moved away, taking his heat with him and leaving me cold and empty. "Then what the fuck are you doing here moaning my name?" He roared at me with fury. "Why fuck with my feelings? You kiss one man and go back sleeping with the other! If you love him so fucking much then why the fuck were you about to let me fuck you?"

"I wasn't." I fired back. "I just wanted you to understand exactly how I felt when you fucked me and then went back to Merissa when you were done using me."

"You agreed to it." He raised his voice. "What you are doing is something else."

"Well atleast you have a glimpse of how I felt because it hurt just as much."

"Fuck you." His eyes turned red.

"How many times?" I wanted to cry so badly. It was all coming on my throat. "How many times will you fuck me until you decide to let me move on with my life?"

"You will never move on." He forced, "Not with Enos and not with anyone else but me."

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