"God! I just pray he is safe wherever he is right now?" I pray, continuously walking from left to right while looking at the watch and, waiting just for my husband, Jeon the Jerk.

It's already 3:00 am in the morning and still there's no sign of him. Usually he come back home at 1 am but today I don't know why but I'm not feeling good.. my whole body is aching just by the negative thoughts which are coming in my mind.

"Y/n please sleep, it's not good for your health to be awake till now.. you didn't even touch your dinner yet. You're skipping lot of meals these days" ajumma request. I know she gets worry about me but, I just look at her and sigh. 

'this anxiety is not letting me eat'.

"y/n maybe young master is stuck in his work, don't be worry. It's already been months since you both got married and even till now you do not take care of yourself. Doctor told you to take care of yourself now, even you start to get sick because of your messed up diet schedule" she said with the concern in her eyes and voice, but I shake my head and smile.

"who do you care about young master this much, he don't eve--" I cut off her words "I just want him to be happy ajumma" I reply , she smile "you love him too much, don't you?" she ask.

I nod my head "yes, I do and I really love him so much.. It just he don't" I whisper out the last part and look down.

"No don't say that. Young master loves you too, but he is bad at expressing himself and also realizing his feelings for someone" she explain, I look away and sigh "I hope he realize this before it's too late" I mumble, "huh?" she ask, I shake my head.

"nothing".

"where is he? I'm really too much worry about him?" I said, "then call him?" she suggest.. I chuckle as she don't know anything about our contract and all.

She didn't even know that he had blocked my number since the day after marriage. A husband blocked his own wife's number. No matter how many times I try to do the same, but I can not.

I feel my heart aching but, what I can do except to laugh at my own miserable life, I'm responsible for my own "it's switched off" I lied, she nod. 

Suddenly, a person pop in my mind and I know only he can help me maybe. Without thinking twice I dialed his number.

[ hello? Taehyung > 

matter it's so late? ]

[ umm I'm really sorry to

disturb you Tae, actually

I just wanna ask that, is 

Jungkook there with you? >

home yet because as much

as I know he had his last

meeting at 9 pm in which

me, jimin and namjoon

hyung were there. ]

he reply and now my whole body tense. He speak as I totally went silent and forget that he is even on the call. My whole mind start to get consume by negative thoughts.

This is true- your overthinking kills you before anyone.

[ y-yeah actually, he is still

not home >

[ yeah, I did but no answer >

he must've know ]

[ yeah sure, I'll call him now and 

s

orry to disturb you again >

I'm always there for you ]

ending the call I quickly dial jungkook's assistant number and he pick up the call,

you seen the tim-]

[ Mister Han, this is Y/n. Jeon Y/n >

sorry Mrs.J-Jeon I didn't

know this is you otherwise I

would've never spoke like

that. I'm really sorry once

again Mrs. Jeon, please don't 

tell Mister Jeon about this

otherwise, he'll throw me

out of the country ]

[ Mister Han it's okay, relax.

I'm not telling anyone about

anything I just wanna ask

where is Jungkook? >

< Mister Jeon? Is he not at

home? he already left the

office early today means

after his last meeting at

9 pm. He left at 9:30 ]

he explain, I just sit on the couch as my heartbeat increase by his statement. My body start to sweat while mind stop processing up things.

[ oh-okay thanks for telling >

I once again look at the clock, 3:30 AM, "enough" saying that, I pick up my car keys and wear my over-coat

"where are you going Y/n? you'll get more sick if you go out at this time. It's cold out there and doctor kim told you not go out in cold" Ajumma said, trying to stop me.

"I'm fine but, if something happen to jungkook then, I'll surely die" I said and open the door to go out of the house but, my whole body freeze at a place as soon a muscular body fall over me. 

"J-jungkook?"

I lost my balance as sudden weight come over me but, I manage to stand still and support him to come inside the house and directly take him upstairs with the help of his men.

I don't want to enter inside his room but seeing his condition I break all the rule and enter inside his room even after remembering about the night when the first time I entered in his room without his permission.

His men went away, leaving me and jungkook alone in the room and there he is, laying on the bed, eyes close, completely drunk.. even the smell of this alcohol make feel like throwing up but it's fine.

I take off his shoes and coat and comfortably made him lay inside the warm duvet. I finally take a deep breath and sit beside him.

I caress his hairs and smile at him "do you know how much I was worried about you? I can't imagine my life without you kook.. you're my everything in a small world. I love you so much" saying that I kiss his forehead.

Completely forgetting about my sleep, meal and everything, I just admire him just like he is my whole world because maybe, after this day I won't get chance to touch him.

"you are bitch and forever will be.. slut I hate you" he said between his sleep, my eyes widen as I snap back into reality.

"I will never love you.. I only love her, I really do" he mumble again in his sleep. maybe he is dreaming about someone but whom? 

I furrow my eyebrow as now tears started to slip out of eyes uncontrollably. he still loves Irene? he hates me and he said that more than millions of time and now even he dream about hating me whereas me on the other side dreamed my whole life to be with him.

Before he could speak further I rush out of his room and lock myself inside my room. 

I hug my knees and sit down on the floor while crying my heart out "WHY? WHY HE ALWAYS HAVE TO HATE ME!?" I shout my lungs out and now, Today I'm feeling pain in my heart more than ever.

I cried till I fell asleep on the cold floor.