❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ GUNS❦

|The new office|

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By the time that my eyes painfully open up again I'm in a dark room and I realize that it's the bedroom but at night. I turn to look at a clock that I saw before to see that the clock shows only that it's about midnight and my stomach is wanting food as I've not eaten for a long time. I stand up and as I was about to walk to the door I remember what had happened last night and I decide against it. It's best to stay here, where I'm safe and sound and sit back down on the bed.

As I was about to go back to sleep I smell food. It must be my imagination since I'm a bit hungry but then in the darkness my eyes catch sight of food on a small table that is near the bed. Standing up I walk over to the table in the darkness and see that there is truly food there. And by the looks of it, it hasn't been here for that long. I search around the room until I find a light switch and I walk over there and turn on the lights.

It takes a couple of minutes for my eyes to get used to the light and I sit down by the table and take a closer look at the food in front of me. There are three pizza slices on a plate with French fries and there is also a hamburger but it's a small one. Beside the food there is a note that I did not see before because it was so dark in here but I do see it now. Picking it up to see that my name is written on it in Silas' handwriting.

Unfolding the note I begin to read what it says and when I've read it I can't help but smile. He said that he came in here and found me asleep but he did not want to wake me so he left out some food for me. Wait? How did he get in here? I clearly remember that I had locked the door when I had ran in here. I stand up and walk to the door to see. I notice that the door is locked but the key is gone. It takes me a moment to notice that it's locked on the outside.

I gasp as I just stare at the door. Not only was he in the room but he also locked me in here. Why? He did not do that before but he does it now. None of it makes any sense but then I must remember the things that he did to that man and how he just killed him which was so cruel. Sighing I turn to sit back by the table and start on that food before it turns completely cold since it has been here for some time and is cooling down.

Eating in pure silence as I can't even seem to be able to forget Silas' words and the gun shot. Somehow that shot is the only one that is still fresh in my mind even when I've heard so many of them over the last couple of days. A knock on the door breaks me from my thoughts and I jump up as it shatters the silence. Since the door is locked from the outside there is very little that I can do and the door opens and Silas steps inside the room with a smirk on his face.

"I thought you'd be asleep for the rest of the evening" He tells me and I look down at the ground as I'm a bit afraid of looking up at him. Would he hurt me like he hurt that man... like he has hurt so many people? The thought of him hurting me is the worst kind of pain that I've ever felt inside me and thinking about is what is hurting me. He walks over to me and his hand snakes itself under my chin and with his thumb he lifts my head to look up at him and my eyes meet his kohl black ones.

I gulp when I'm staring up at him and he stares down at me with... well, I'm not even sure what that look he's giving me. It's like it's a mixture between feeling something and feeling nothing at all and it's somehow confusing me more than anything yet I feel like my own feelings are getting the best of me. Between the confusion and he unknown feeling that continues to creep up my body like never before. "You've been crying. Why?" He softly asks me. It surprises me of how gentle his voice is when he spoke to me.

Nothing like his voice had been before when he had been speaking to that man and when he... killed that man. I lightly shake my head but he still holds my chin yet not hard enough to hurt me. In fact his touch actually is starting to make me feel a bit safe even when I have no idea how he has done that or why he does it but somehow he is able to make me feel that way. "You k-killed that man" I tell him and choke out of my mouth.

He stares at me with shock. "You saw that?" He asks me as his face hardens in matter of seconds and a shiver runs down my face as he lets go of my chin. I shake my head. "I heard" I whisper to him and the look in his eyes shows me relief for some reason. "I need a session" He speaks before he walks to the door and opens it as it had been closed before. I stare at his back in shock, wondering what is going through his head as he suddenly just changed. "But, it's the middle of the night" I tell him softly which makes him turn around.

I can already imagine that he had rolled his eyes before he turned around. "You have a bedtime?" He asks me with a smirk on his face and I frown. "No. It's just that it's late and we should go to sleep" I tell him. Perhaps I just need some time apart from him because he did frighten me yet before that he was kind to me and it does confuse me. Then I remember something. "Did you see a doctor?" I ask him and he sharply nods.

I raise an eyebrow to make sure that he's telling the truth. "You want proof?" He asks and I nod my head. From his pocket he takes out a box of antibiotics which I notice have been prescribed to him by a doctor and I'm convinced. Though it is like him to say that he did see a doctor when he did not. I sigh. "A short session" I tell him. I had not even spoken everything when he has turned around once again and headed out of the room and I follow behind him. I somehow find myself being close to him yet far away at the same time.

Feeling this longing to be with him but at the same time I find myself wanting to get as far away from him as I possibly can. This does confuse my mind and my heart as it wants him. I don't know why but my heart wants to be near him and wants to feel his touch for this oddest reason but like always the world doesn't want me to know so it remains a mystery to me. I notice that while he's walking I can see the gun that he wears and it shines when the light hits it.

Making me shiver as I think about that man and how possibly with this gun he was killed by and I think of the man at the airport. I don't know why Silas kills these people and I get the feeling that is going to remain hidden from me. Silas takes me to a room that is rather similar to the other room in his other mansion. It's an office which he has laid out with my folder of him there and I smile as I sit down. I think he has already gone over it about a couple of times but I suppose there is nothing that I can do about that.

"You said you wanted a session. Care to explain to me why?" I ask him and I'm getting in the zone here. Trying to Roget all that he has done like I always try to. The sessions work better that way if I'm not thinking of the people that have died by his hand or the things that he has done. He sits there and looks at me. "What did you hear?" He asks me and I furrow my eyebrows at him in confusion until I figure out what he's asking me about.

I look at him as he waits for my answer. "Not much, something about guns and lost money and then the shot but not much other than that" I tell him. Technically that is the truth since I did hear that but I don't want him to know that I hear about how that man wanted to take me and what Silas said that I was his. "Is this why you wanted a session? So you could ask me about what I heard? Because you could've asked in my room" I ask him.

He gives me a blank look and I can't be sure if he's trying to hide something from me or not as his look doesn't tell me a thing. In fact there is nothing on his face and there is nothing in his eyes. That does frighten me so I look away from him at the tattoos that he has and I've yet to learn their meaning and even what they are but that will have to be later. "No" He answers but doesn't go further into the subject for some reason.

He doesn't answers all of the questions that I asked and I'm pretty sure that I'm not even going to know. I eye his tattoos and while they do carry their own set of beauty I wonder what compels one to go through this pain to get something this permanent. "How do you like your stay here?" He asks me after a couple of minutes have passed and we were in the silence. In truth I'm not even sure what I can say or I'm too tried to even think of something to say or even ask him questions.

"I've not even been here for a day. It's a bit hard to speak. I will tell you tomorrow though" I say to him and he nods his head and the silence takes over us again. I'm far too tired to even think anything at all even when I did sleep for some time before but at this time of day or should I say night I'm always fast asleep. I'm normally not awake and I do want to go to sleep to wake up tomorrow and go back to the beach and to the ocean which is my new favorite place in the whole wide world.

I stand up after about fives minutes pass. "If you have nothing else to say, then I would like to go back to the bedroom. I'm exhausted and I would like to catch some sleep" I tell him with a soft smile on my face. He nods and stands up and then he smirks. "You do have a bedtime" He states and while I know it's true and he does too I can't help but smile as I've turned around and walked to the door. At least that amuses him. "Not everyone can afford going to sleep whenever they feel like it or not sleep at all" I tell him as I walk out of the door and into the hallway.

We walk in silence to the bedroom and I'm grateful that I actually did pay attention to where we were going this time and I now know the back to the office and to the bedroom. As I open the door and was about to close it he pushes the door open and walks inside the room or more like invites himself into the room but then again he does own this mansion so he can do whatever he wants.

He stands in front of me and I gasp when he's so close to me and I gulp when I look up at his face and into his eyes. "I know you heard what I said" He speaks to me but I can't be sure what is in his eyes. It is like there is nothing in his eyes but also looks like there is everything in them brining forth yet another confusion to me and it would appear that I will be drowning in them soon as they are so many.

I sigh. "Thank you for wanting to save me from that man. I know that he wanted to take me somewhere" I whisper to him a bit afraid. The heart within my chest is pounding and I'm not even sure if it will ever calm down. As he takes a step closer to me I take a step back. "But I did hear what you said and I want to ask why you of all people would say something like that about me. I don't understand it" I tell him.

His eyes go wild as he licks his lips and looks down at me and I can't be sure what he's doing but he continues to come closer to me. He then picks up his gun and I gulp as I shake in fear of him right now as he holds a gun to my stomach. "You know the reason" He tells me but I shake my head at that as I stare deep into his eyes but then my gaze shift elsewhere and at the gun which he has put on my forehead to the point where I can feel the cold metal of it. "Why?" I ask in fear.

Staring at the gun in his hand as he stalks towards me with a devilish smirk on his face, I feel the bone-chilling fear rises within me. My back is against the wall and I'm trapped as he stands in front of me, his body so close to me that I can almost feel it touching me, and somehow I crave for his touch. I stare deep into his kohl black eyes and somehow his eyes tell me everything that I need to know. He does have feelings after all yet is confused about them. "You belong to me!" He says harshly, and before I could even process his words his lips capture mine in a possessive matter.